With Mars hotting up Saturn (and square Jupiter and opposing Chiron, OUCH) today, the manifestations of this transit are vast and varied. For example, it is June in Colorado and I felt so cold this morning, I had to turn on the heat! And doors are closing…or at least I think they are. You know. It’s like I’m in a in a hallway (my life) and I see a door. It looks wide open, but when I try to go through it, I am blocked. “Nope! Not you. Not now!” Crap!

Feelings of rejection result. Pretty intense feelings actually. And then I learn the door is not closed after all.

Well, it may be or it may just be delay! Which is another theme. Anything even remotely having to do with a “partner” has slowed to a crawl if not a complete standstill. And as frustrating as this is, at times I can see it’s in my best interest. Because I can see things have to shake out. Things have to become apparent and then crystallize in their new form and this is something that takes as long as it takes.

In fact, this reminds me of an analogy satori used some years ago. It’s like I’ve planted all these seeds. And I’ve watered and cared for them. I am talking about relationships with people, here. So anyway, some of these seeds are going grow. Er…like an Oak tree.

Deeply rooted, that tree is not going anywhere. It can withstand the elements. But the seeds alongside it may fail. And there is nothing I can do. I can’t stand over a certain seed and root and cheer, cajole and threaten. What’s meant to be will happen…period.

When Saturn conjuncts a planet (in this case, my natal Venus) things come home to roost. Which relationships (Venus) are real (Saturn)? I’m going to find out! And it’s a bit of a terror, with Neptune involved. Some of these things are head fakes! And with the conjunction in Leo, there has got to be drama involved.

It all reminds me of Alfred Hitchcock (a consummate Leo). It’s like I’m living in this huge movie and now I get to see how it ends up! Doesn’t that sound sort of terrifying? It does to me. The movie ends, the lights come up and there I’ll be wherever I am, eyes wide and frozen in the yellow light. Crap!

So what about you? Anyone have stories they can share?

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All right! I finished that Scorpio bit and I was going to talk about taboo. I’m still going to, but not today, with the Moon in Leo. It makes no sense.

Instead I decided to write about Leo and Saturn’s transit through the sign. Because it’s gone direct, and in it’s been in Leo long enough I have a pretty good feel for how it’s playing my life so I’ll tell you and maybe you can see the same thing happening in yours.

Now I have Venus in Leo…square Neptune in Scorpio. And this is a pretty “Hollywood” combination.

On the Leo side, there is always a some glamour and drama in my relationships. There is pomp and circumstance, chivalry, grand displays of affection, etc. That’s Leo. And when you add Neptune, you get some fantasy and some delusion which is really a very nice drug. Sort of like going to the movies. You go to the theatre for what? For an escape!

And they do all kinds of things…tricky things, to make the people on the screen look better than they do in real life. What? Makeup! Lights! Camera angles! Push up bras! People who fix your hair every five minutes!

And if you are the actress, well you can get pretty caught up in this, obviously. And this is good! Because if the actors do not suspend their reality, they will not be able to suspend ours and what do you think that gets you? It gets you a lousy movie! Which I hate by the way.

So anyway, I am partnered (Venus) with various people. Don’t misunderstand. I have one lover…you will meet him very soon, but I am partnered with other people for other things (like this blog). And prior to Saturn going into Leo, these relationships were sort of glam and bigger than life.

Not just the highs, but the lows too. I said, “drama” didn’t I? Well you can’t have drama without dramatic happenings, can you?

So anyway, this is how I was living…this is how it was going and then Saturn showed up. And I’ll come back with what happened but meantime…

How would you characterize your relationships?

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