I was about 25 when someone told me I would never be happy…that I would be sure to suffer until and unless I got into service. Hearing that, I was pissed off out of my mind.

“What do you mean, serve? Why don’t you go serve, son-of-a-bitch!”

I’d been serving all my life, see?  And I have Venus in Leo.  I wanted to be a STAR! I didn’t mind paying my dues, but I wanted to get off the service detail and graduate into something more spectacular, wonderful and shiny.

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Dear Elsa,

I am the sole care taker of my Downs syndrome sister. Yes she has enriched and guided my life. However just wondering why these angels are sent into certain peoples lives and not others. At times this responsibility can be a burden, (but also a blessing). Why do you think we were chosen for this path?

Caretaker

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My husband and I had wild night last night, it was great.  He entertained me by inventing something on his Big Chalkboard.  Specifically he was teaching me how a person might turn 120 volt current into 12 volt so my son might use a CB in his bedroom, just because.

He included a lot of opinionated side lectures which had me howling with laughter and reminded me of stories he tell of a ex-Nazi math professor he had high school in South America who would yell all the time.

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Dear Unloved,

I don’t believe anyone is destined to be unloved, but I know for sure that loves comes easier to some than others. And with Saturn ruling your 7th house and Venus in Scorpio square Saturn, you are clearly one of the others and for that I am sorry and I will try to help.

Saturn tied to Venus delays love in most cases, and if you read around you’ll be told that love comes later in life but I’d say there is no such guarantee. Love comes later in life to those willing to work for it. And I am sorry but this is just a fact and thinking otherwise is sort of like believing we all get rich in the end. Er… no we don’t!
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I was running through my gabillion drafts and realized I had this other point to make on the whole subject of squandering talent.

Now the soldier and I know someone who is very talented. This gal was born blessed with little deficit and profound opportunity. She also enjoyed supreme support from a variety of high quality sources, way beyond the norm.

Not only was every single shred of this squandered, the resources were employed to do damage. This gal wreaked as much havoc as possible, motivated by pure greed and without remorse.

To witness this was galling. It’s like it would turn your hair a new color or something… things like this are just not supposed to happen, sort of like toes falling right off your feet but it did.
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dolce asks on: Astrology, Destiny, Past Lives – Various Theories And Applications


“What about doing bad things to yourself? e.g. someone who tries to control everyone else just makes themselves mostly miserable. And people can really beat themselves up for no reason sometimes…”

dolce, that’s a great question. We know people like this and the soldier has very strong opinions on the subject. He assures me that squandering talent is a very serious offense.
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My sister, Pisces and a bonafide psychic had a lot to say about past lives. While her psychic ability has been proven to me countless times, her past life stories were never credible (the way the soldier’s are), however the theories she developed over the years were very interesting to me and in fact have impacted me profoundly. For example if I don’t like someone or if someone burns me, I always try to just walk away.

I am almost always successful with this but that is not to say that you could or would or should be because you are of course a different person with a different plot. But my sister’s idea was very simple. She assured me if I cut someone I didn’t like to ribbons, I could count on meeting that person in another life and as my family is into leaving (Jupiter) and escape (Neptune) – well who would want that?
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L. asked on How Popular Is Real Love Anyway?

“I’ve wondered in general about the individual challenging aspects that one is supposed to be able to work with somehow, and whether they can equally be ‘worked with’ positively in a composite.”

I think everything can be worked with positively but many people don’t like to work! Consequently like make little of their gifts never mind their hardship and the consequences for this increase exponentially. This is as true for the individual as it is for the collective and I’d offer the current state of the US economy as proof. But aside from that, this comment made me take a look at the composite chart of the soldier and I which believe it or not, I’ve not bothered to do since getting proper birth data for him.
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I was talking to the soldier…

“No, I don’t think people change hardly at all. Think about it. You tell me someone whose basic nature has changed in a way that is significant. Outside of a woman who has a baby because that is a change. There is a hormonal thing there, I do not deny it.”

“Yes there is. A woman who has a baby becomes a different woman.”

“Agreed. There is a shift but even then the basic nature remains in tact. Have you ever really seen anyone significantly change their basic nature? Can you think of even one person?”
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Speaking of hearing your calling, the soldier told me this weekend that he was called to soldiering similarly to how priests are called to the priesthood.  He described how he tried to avoid it to appease other people but every time he tried to get away he was thrown back to it. Eventually he quit resisting and his relationship with me has followed the same arc. (swearing below the break)

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