In 2007, I was writing about the collective defending itself against reality an the idea that violent criminals are aware of what they are doing. I think that what is true at the end of the continuum is generally true in milder form for the bulk of us.  This is one of the reasons I am so fascinated with the outer rim of everything. What you learn out there can always be applied closer in.

As for a common day example of the idea people are aware of the negative action, how many times have I had friends ask in regards to someone they are dating… “Does he know what he’s doing?”

Continue reading Astrology, Violence, Manipulation and Denial In Relationship: Neptune!

There are some less obvious ways happy people stay happy. Many of us use denial. Denial has a bad rap which I see as ridiculous. People could not survive without this mechanism and denial takes many forms.

The soldier and I have difficult lives and always have. You’re just going to have to take my word for that but regardless of this we are both very happy people.  He can be completely content in a foxhole in the middle of a war, or sleeping on a rock.

As for myself, back when I was a homeless 15 year old, I had distinct awareness I was happier than most and by far. Continue reading Astrology And Happiness: Here’s A Trick – Try Denial

From 2008. Clumping people by sun sign, denial and projection!

I have a client who is currently recovering from a relationship where she was deceived. Pulling this up for her benefit. Venus Neptune On The Prowl… Look Out! (from 2007)

I can’t remember for sure but I think I wrote about the soldier and his / our “whirlwind”. He had a premonition of sorts one day. He saw dark clouds on the horizon, threatening. A storm was going to kick up, a big one. He felt we’d both be sucked into it… a whirlwind.

I questioned him intently but he did not have much more he could offer. It left me with this scene from the Wizard of Oz in my head.

Continue reading Foreboding vs Meeting Your Fate And The Gift / Curse Of Astrology

This for today’s Mercury Pluto – discussing (Mercury) the shadow / psychology /death (Pluto)

“What is it that people don’t believe I was in Special Forces?” the soldier asked. Do you know when I have told someone that, not once have they believed me. Not once in my whole life have I been believed so why is that, P? What is it about me that makes it seem as if I was not in Special Forces?”

“Oh, it’s not personal. That’s just not something anyone is going to believe – You wouldn’t believe it yourself.”
Continue reading His Scorpio Moon And My 8th House: Translating Normal People For The Anomoly

I have a strong Saturn / Neptune signature in my chart. It is chronically and constantly in play… I have to cope with a constantly appearing and disappearing reality as as attuned and aware of this as I may be, sometimes things happen that truly boggle.

Saturn rules fear and mixed with Neptune (Saturn in Pisces, Saturn in the 12th, Saturn and Neptune in aspect, Saturn in the 10th etc.), hologram fear is always part of the picture.

On the flip side a person will deny or erase their fear and it is quite a phenomena when you witness it up close.  The veil lifting that is. The veil that separates a person from reality, that is.  Last night I was lying in bed with the soldier, chatting.

“Squash me like a bug,” I said.  “Oh no. You could squash me like a bug if you wanted to.”

Continue reading Saturn, Neptune And The Denial Of Reality – What Happens When The Veil Lifts?

The Interaction

Why doomed? Well, I may have a Leo Venus, but it’s just a streak in my personality. The meat lies elsewhere. I am an intense piece of work! Venus gets her due. She may have a little fun, promenade around a few times but the rest of me wasn’t going to set up shop with Billy, no way no how.

Not that I was thinking this at the time. I was thinking about how good we looked. Then later, I’d realize he was dating my hair and boy would that piss me off.

So let me tell you something: There are a couple ground rules for dating a Leo / Leo rising man and one of them is that you cannot cut your hair. Unless he has Venus in Aquarius in which case you can cut one side of your hair. Don’t believe me? If you have a Leo man at home, try this:

Continue reading Gemini Hell – Part Two – The Interaction

Speaking of my Saturn (limits) Neptune (denial) nature, yesterday I learned it only goes so far.

I was making or trying to make the synastry videos on Monday before I headed off to one of those meetings. I got the first two in the can but struggled with the third either because I fumbled something, I was waaaay to emphatic or I was otherwise interrupted.

For example my phone kept ringing and I was not in a position where I could turn it off and this chaos was reflected in the sky of course in the form or hard aspects to my Mars Mercury conjunct. Er… try to just talk, not pound people into the ground and never mind the jarring interference and the ticking clock. This was the scenario but I finally, finally got the third video done and then went off to my appointment.

Continue reading The Limits Of Denial… This Is Where I Draw The Line

I was on the phone with satori, talking about my life near the end of Pluto’s transit to my Moon

“You know that astrology conference is in Denver, there are going to be all kinds of people here, astrologers I mean and some of them are going to want to meet me. Hey! Let’s go over the Elsa’s.” I laughed.

Continue reading Astrology And Psychology: More On Elsa P The Hologram And The Upside Of Denial