With Saturn in Leo hopefully you defined (Saturn) your creative self (Leo) and Saturn’s transit through Virgo will force edits. I am already noticing this big time.

For example I have gotten several emails advising me on the new videos, do this, don’t do that. Today’s comment on the story, “The Soldier and the Lesbian,” forced me to define (and defend) my writing. How Saturn in Virgo is that?

I also had some gal write me with scathing criticism about the blog in general. And while the beating was completely unnecessary and unwarranted, the point she made was utterly valid and I am going to act because of it.

So this is the job and my early impressions are this: People are going to tell you (or try to tell you) what to do at work. Some of them you should no doubt listen to. In other cases conforming would be a big mistake which leaves you to learn (Saturn) to discern (Virgo) who is who and which is which.

But if you do this successfully (and I think eventually most of us will) you are going to wind up with more command of your creative product… of your VOCATION than you could muster or manage any other way.

Anyone else notice themselves being nudged towards editing their creative output?

Over the weekend, I was talking to the soldier:

“I’m still making astrology videos,” I said. “I think I’ve made ten of them and I just feel really good.”

“I sure wish I could see, P. I want to see those things! But I guess it’s just as well because I know I’ll be jealous as hell when I do. I’ll be fuming. I’ll be mad as hell need to go for a walk!”

“Yeah, I think you will go nuts. Sorry about that.”

“No problem, P. I know you need to do this. I know it. This is in you and it has to come out like sweat.”

“Did you say sweat?” I was flabbergasted.

“Sweat, P. This is your sweat, it has no choice but to come out.”

What is in you like sweat?

Dear Challenged,

Yes, I have ideas. I suggest you adjust your perspective. Making a baby is an enormous task. My sister (a Pisces) told me once that she thought pregnancy was an 18 month thing, not 9. It takes 9 months to make the baby and another 9 to recover! And if you can embrace this idea, I imagine you will see immediate relief from some of the pressure you are putting on yourself.

Now astrologically, Pluto has just crossed your ascendant and squared your Moon Mars conjunction in Pisces. Pluto going over the ascendant like that is a once every 240 years event, and it appears you know enough astrology to glean this is a major, MAJOR life-changing transit.

This marks the birth of your child, but also the death of the woman you were before you had a baby… and the rebirth of you as a mother. Now doesn’t that sound like a lot? Think you might be busy processing on a very deep level? I do.

And when you are breastfeeding, your baby is FEEDING off you. You are literally donating your energy to feed your child. And this is intensely demanding! So do you think you need to be up and around and making art? Why?

As far as I am concerned, making a child is the ultimate creative act. You just made the greatest thing you will ever make, outside of your next child (if you make one). So it may help to attune yourself to these kinds of concepts, and give yourself a break. And trust that your life and life of your daughter will unfold on time, in a way that is perfect as well as perfectly unstoppable.

Good luck.

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