This is from 2008. My husband and I were coming off years of intense difficulty, the kind you don’t even speak of.

“I wouldn’t worry about that,” I said. “We are in impossible conditions, trying to have a life. I have been in impossible conditions myself, for 9 years. The conditions were  completely impossible but I still managed to have some kind of life.”

Continue reading Capricorn, Saturn And Compassion

Regarding that picture when I was 9, my sister wrote:

“That dress you are wearing came in this package someone gave us for rodeo week. We had to dress rodeo for school so someone gave us three dresses, that was one. The other two were gingham and ugly. (I decided.)

I had a thing for velvet and that dress had some velvet so I was considering it very carefully, so were you.

I decided I couldn’t wear western. I decided I hated western wear on that day and you ended up putting on the dress. Everyone thought you looked cute so Henry took your picture in it, remember?”
Continue reading Budding Astrologers… With Capricorn Risings

Pulling this up for levity. Do you have an emphasis on the Cardinal signs? Think you can control others? Har! Best think again. (from 2007)

Capricorn is highly sensitive to rejection.  If someone lets me know they don’t enjoy my company, I exit their life totally and permanently.  It’s very easy to get rid of me in your life. Just let me know you don’t want me there and you’ll not have a problem again. This is extreme in my case or so I’ve been told but I really don’t see, “I don’t like you,” to be negotiable. I also appreciate being told such a thing as it saves me time and energy when life is short.

I know my sister thinks my reaction is out of whack.  “I don’t think they meant…”

I figure a person means exactly what they say and if you tell me that you don’t want me in your life, I am going to immediately comply and you’ll not have to worry about me banging on your door at a later date.

How do you handle rejection?  If someone tells you to go away, do you take them seriously?

Continuing to carry on about helping people with difficult problems, I have been treated with concise instructions like this, many times in my life and nothing is more valuable.  In fact, I’ll give you a quirky example.

When I was a teenager, I wanted a credit card.  Credit was hard to get back then but I’d heard it was something  you should establish in your life, a so-called “line of credit”.

I had no co-signer. I’d been recently homeless, I had very little savings that I had scraped together by literally depositing one or two dollars at a time.  I have my original passbook, I can prove this but besides that, you see the situation here. I was a smart kid but how is that going to solve a problem like this?  I wound up asking an old man for advice.

Continue reading Getting Beyond Blocks To Solve Difficult Problems

This morning’s episode reminded me of another time I quite confusedly fell from grace. I was in 3rd grade at the time, and really proud about it. I was proud because I was starting 3rd grade when I was 6 years because I was a kick-ass little student.  I had no idea the problems I was going cause and I mean, this would not have occurred to me in a million years.

I had a lot of Capricorn then, as I do now and my intention at that time was to complete two grades a year and then leave home and go have a wonderful life. I thought this was entirely doable and showed up the first day of school, ready to rock.
Continue reading About Being A Misfit And More On Falling From Grace

Annalisa wrote on the gossip thread:

“I never want to know gossip! I don’t do it, I don’t like to hear it and I think it’s destructive and never does any good.

I’m strange in my circle though. Most do want to know gossip and most gossip. I still find it irritating and try to avoid hearing it, spreading it or creating it!”

I read that and thought it not surprising. Most of you know, Annalisa is my sister and we have seen some tremendous suffering in our lives… endured it I mean. People like us, are typically very careful not to cause suffering for a couple of reasons.

Continue reading People Who Like To Make People Miserable… And Those Who Do Not

From 2009: How I learned not I could not (and should not) try to control people at work…

Are you a control freak? Tell us about one of your boundaries!