I got to talking mostly. I told them some stories and some secrets. I do this with anyone I feel is trustworthy, genuinely interested and able to understand what I’m saying.
I came home that day and talked to another friend, at length. I talked to a fourth gal, before I went to lunch. All these conversations were satisfying.
But some days later, I found myself in a very different place. It had nothing to do with these interactions. It’s the Pluto transit, aspecting my natal Mercury.
People were talking to me – just shooting the breeze, as the old-timers would say. I found myself sinking.
I’ve mentioned before on this tag (Pluto transit 12th), I feel like a swamp thing, or a submarine at this time. I can’t stay on the surface, indefinitely. So I start to sink and the people I’m talking to don’t notice. Next thing you know, I can’t hold the connection.
I can visualize them, talking to me from up there on the surface, unaware I’m drifting downward into the weeds. After awhile, I just can’t hold on. I feel bad about this, but I think I’ve come up with a solution.
I meet the lunch-women, once a month. Twice a month would be too much. I feel they appreciate me. I inject energy into their relationship by giving them something new to think about and talk about. Neither of them are confused or put off by me and my unusual interests, so it’s nice for me as well.
I definitely want to socialize and commune with people, but I realize I need to surface less frequently. I have so much going on that no one can see. I’m weighty, and I can’t keep up with people speeding along the surface.
Visualize it. You have a jet ski dragging a submarine. No you don’t!
It reminds me of when I was a kid. I went to school and that was it. It was all I could do, in more ways than one! I had a Pluto transit then too.
I want to make sure that clients understand I am not talking about them. I enjoy my work. If you’ve worked with me lately, I’m sure you’re aware of this. I am definitely ON. It feels good to come up, make the contact and go back down.
When I do come up, you’re guaranteed substance. I think it will be enough.