I started writing about my life in the early 2000′s. People read my stories and made remarks about this phenomena, if that’s what it is. I don’t know what it is. I’ve always felt intense and immense joy, on a daily basis. I don’t need to to anything special to experience this. It just occurs.
It doesn’t matter what’s going on. I’ve had a pretty horrible life and it doesn’t matter. Even in the depths of despair, I frequently feel completely at peace.
I don’t know how I manage this. I have a strong Saturn Neptune signature in my chart. It could be that I transcend (Neptune) hardship (Saturn), like breathing. It may be that I deny it or live in some kind of reality (Saturn) I’ve imagined (Neptune).
I also have a strong 9th house, and Jupiter prominent, so it could be my life philosophy that keeps me upbeat.
I would like to understand what happens with me. I would describe it as a “state of grace”, but I am not sure that’s the right term. I feel everything is right in the world and that all will be okay at these times.
My husband says he knows what a state of grace feels like. He’s been in a state of grace, but never felt what I feel. He us able to feel deeply satisfied, which may be a different thing. For example, if he’s sitting around with his family and there is food there, he truly wants for nothing.
I am pretty sure that my son can access these feelings as well. We’ve been talking about this lately. But I know some people never feel good or right and I’d like to understand this better.
Here are some questions:
- Do you feel blissful at times? I am not talking about after sex, or when you are in a Venus-Neptune dream-love state. I am talking about bliss that comes from an ethereal source.
- Are you ever truly and completely satisfied
- If you can feel these things, how do you think this works?
- If feelings like this are inaccessible to you, what do you think they block may be?
- Do you have a name for any of this?
- Do you think the ability to feel bliss is inborn or do you think it can be developed?
pictured – Johann Georg Meyer von Bremen, 1849, Maternal Bliss