I wanted to die because I was so very lovesick. My friends mothered me a great deal but at a certain point that wasn’t enough. You can only ask so much from people. So I intensified my astrology studies in an effort to really understand what was going on. After a year of studying I suddenly felt overwhelmed to throw myself of the building where I work. What kept me going was the fact that my Taurus dad was going to be 80 years old in three days. I had a reading prepared for him. It went well. That gave me strength. The feeling went away.

Moon in the 11th trine Jupiter in the 3rd and Moon Exalt in Taurus in mutual reception with Venus in Cancer on the Gemini Ascendant.

Yes, heartbreak, grief, depression, addiction. I’ve overcome a lot. I’m sure there will be more. Pisces energy is really useful with these problems, tapping into that universal energy will set you free.

I go through some major change at every hard pluto transit. I have been a drug/alcohol addict and overcome that. That was 10 years ago. I have overcome a repressive, abusive relationship several years ago, where I was so weighed down, I didn’t even want to be alive. I am a whole different person. For me it seems like the transforamtions are happening in about 5 years cycles. First Pluto squared Merc, which is at the beginning of my 8th, then Pluto squared my Sun/Moon 5 or 6 years later. So I guess I’m due for another one. Pluto is starting to square my mars.

5-6 years ago I underwent an intensely difficult Pluto transit — conjunct my sun and square my moon simultaneously. By far the worst period of my entire life. What helped me out of it was to finally summon the courage to listen to what it was that I really wanted to do my life and to be the person I wanted to be without fearing the criticism of others. Learning to live authentically renewed my spirit. The natal placements are a Sag sun and Virgo moon if that helps to understand the internal dilemma.

Fall of 2011, many bad habits dropped away, and dropped away suddenly and they have never returned. Not sure why, but with the timing I am going to lend credit to Chiron.

(((everyone)))
For me, it was depression. As Alicia pointed out, tapping into the flow of Universal Energy can be your saving grace – it worked for me. Looking within, understanding myself and my purpose in Life, these things changed me completely.

In 2001, both Pluto and Chiron were transiting my 6th, and Saturn hit my natal Chiron right before it entered my 12th. I was diagnosed with a potentially fatal genetically-based liver condition. I tapped my Virgoan Chirotic abilities and did as much research as possible, changed my diet, saw a naturopath, and really began on the path of natural healing.

Gemster

Resonates…so…much…I wrote a story about it, I ended up sharing it with a friend who was feeling the same, hang in there!
Blessings

My impossible success was an entrenched, angry, self-defeating personality that I could not overcome. It poisoned my life. Try as I would, I could not rid myself of this anger and explosive temper. Only when confronted with the reality that my problem was harming others did I see the way out. Somehow, it was so easy when I could finally see the goal. My last desire is to harm anybody! I credit Jupiter in Pisces (growth through service to others, maybe?) I could change to protect my family where I could not do it for myself.

Ok I think I think I’ll be the thread killer here lol. Well I was incarcerated out of losing my mind and I went through hell over christmas and new years and I was bonkers! I wasn’t harmed because of prayer. I prayed every waking moment and with one eye open. I recall not sleeping much. It was a nightmare. I am grateful for my parents and for my compassionate judge but I should have been let out earlier. Also, my extended family helped. Lesson is I have to take my meds! hahahaha. Sorry I don’t really take myself seriously. But now lesson learned. I could literally write a book on my four week jail experience. This was years ago btw. For one thing I called my poor crush from jail schizophrenically thinking she could bail me out because she had money. That did not happen. Even my lawyer called me a “looney” while in jail and I prayed to God about it too. I am half crazy, so if my crazy side is out in the open deep down my soul isn’t and knows how I am being treated. I feel like a disabled body in an otherwise grown up soul . Its hard to explain.

My dad is also a Scorpio and also had a drinking problem for much of my childhood. After going to jail for a DUI just a few years ago, he is like a completely transformed person today. I was just thinking how he has worked to overcome his demons in recent years, and he did it all largely behind the scenes, as Scorpios do.

This thread brought to mind my Scorpio grandfather. Never really knew him, but heard about him. About how he won 3 Purple Hearts (that’s THREE major injuries, and at one point was presumed dead). And was blown up in a work accident 20 years later–and survived it. And all the other tragic and crazy stuff he went through.
He drank for years–a lot. A LOT. He was a known alcoholic.

Most people wouldn’t survive all the crap he did. I don’t how he did it–we just chalk it up to the family’s toughness. We take a licking and keep on ticking.