Last night my husband and I were talking about “the truth” and more specifically about myths about the truth that I internalized when I was a kid. “People know the truth when they hear it”. That was the big one. I heard this said repeatedly when I was kid and I believed it was true.
It assumes people have common sense and some degree of instinct. The idea is if you listen to someone with some degree of attention, you’ll be able to discern if they are truthful. This seemed the case for me personally. I can tell when someone is lying to me and even when I can’t, I’ll figure it out eventually. I’ve held the naive belief that this is how it for everyone.
Because I believed the truth would always come out in the end, and I did not want to be seen as a liar, I opted to become an honest person and again, projected this quality not only onto other but onto everyone. I stayed in this state for many years. At least until my late 20′s, around the time of my Saturn return.
I told my husband about being in court and seeing someone tell an absolute lie under oath and being completely astounded. It seems funny when I look back on it, but I just could not believe someone would sit there and lie, particularly when there were three of us in the courtroom that absolutely knew the truth. My husband thought this was funny and I suppose it is, though I still feel sad and disillusioned when I think of that day.
My jacked up beliefs were still in evidence in my 40′s when I wrote my husband’s son and told him any number of things, all of them true. Eventually he wrote me back to say he only believed 20% of what I’d said and I was devastated. I was stunned and hurt to my core and I remember him at that time, the untrue truth – “I thought people knew the truth when they heard it.”
There are two issues here. One is that people don’t necessarily know the truth when they hear it (::sobs:::) and also, the truth does not necessarily ever come out. People die in prison for crimes they did not commit, for example.
Anyway, this is all Jupiter stuff.
What do you believe about the truth? Where is your Jupiter?