Some months ago, satori asked on the board – What movie is like your life? I couldn’t think of anything so I asked my husband what he thought and he said, Helen Keller, which surprised me.

When I’m surprised like that, I’m inclined to retreat and try to figure the thing out, rather than ask a bunch of probing questions. I figure I ought to comprehend something like this and if I can’t I should figure it out on my own, or perhaps I just don’t want another surprise.

So months have passed and a few days ago I recovered a memory from 30 years ago that I have been trying to get at for close to 10 years. Imagine that. I knew the information was there. It was given to me 30 years ago, like a code or the combination to something important but I just could not recall it and there was nothing I could do.

Last night someone was talking about Helen Keller, just randomly. They were specifically talking about the day she became aware of language and recovering this piece of info I’d set aside or forgotten feels similar. It’s opened things up for me in such a broad way that words fail at this time.

It’s quite frustrating to walk around with a blinder on, when you know it’s there. It’s one thing to be oblivious. It’s very different to know there is something of value *right there* but you’re kept from it for some reason.

My husband likes to calculate things. He’s been doing it all his life, working to develop his own mathematical theory. Occasionally he has a breakthrough and I guess this must be similar. It’s quite satisfying but it doesn’t end the quest. What it does is start you on a new quest, at the very least.

This is a Jupiter phenomenon by the way. My vision is expanded.

Is there something like this in your life? A bit of info that you know is there, but you just can’t google the thing? What?