I used to think I knew, but I don’t anymore.

I’m looking for this purpose! But I know I don’t feel “complete” unless I’ve made a sort of contribution to the world – using my creativity… I guess you can say I’m still finding that out (and it’s causing me NIGHTS of insomnia right now )

I haven’t written anything in a long time. Maybe I’m just hibernating.

Sometimes I wish I knew. Sometimes I’m glad I don’t know what I’m supposed to do, because that way I can keep doing what I want to do.

I used to think I ‘knew.’ Then everything changed and someone handed me a pair of high heels and said I was supposed to wear them now and not my other comfy shoes, so I’ve been teetering around on them, going down one path and then the next, looking, looking, breathlessly (to borrow a line from Castaneda).

Though some things haven’t changed: compassion for others, service to others, a need to say what I’ve got to say . . .and that’s all good.

I wish I knew. I always thought I’d be a good writer or editor, but those types of jobs were swallowed up in the early ’90s recession. I’ve been told that I’d make a good teacher or librarian. I don’t think I’m suited for either. So here I sit, still confuzzled, and I’m in my late 30s.

My Leo Sun and Libra Moon are square and inconjunct my Capricorn MC, which I’m sure is the cause of the confusion. I have a packed 6th house, all disposited by Mercury in Virgo in the 5th. I think Mercury, which is trine my MC, points where I should go, but I have to clear out the confusion first.

I hear ya, Lis. I am a creative person and creative talents are absolutely useless for pay, especially right now. I am totally expendable and I get thrown out first in a budget cut. I cannot think of anything I have to offer that’s necessary and can’t be thrown out.

hey, my comment got eaten…but i realized i wrote one bit wrong: i meant knowledge/experience has a huge impact on creative expression. i was reading jennifer’s comment at the same i was writing, OOPS!

Pixie, you can ask that question on the beginner board and it might be less likely to get lost. I’d answer it myself but have no idea what chart / system you are using and no familiarity with astro.com which I guess most use – but others do!

Usually the aspects are listed somewhere but not knowing what you are looking at makes it impossible to help… er, you could put up a pic on the board, or a link..

“yes, where can we see this in our chart?”

The sign on the MC is a good start along with aspects to it. Also, any planets in the 10th house is a good indication.

For example, Mars close to the MC suggests someone interested in sports, mercury conjunct could mean a writer etc etc.

Hope that helps.

Oh Jennifer that’s awful and sad.

I think I am not meant to do just one thing.

ok, will do later. Checked the board out briefly and haven’t signed in. Plus I will have to put up my pic with a funky sombrero that i have on my home computer.

PixieDust – on the Bob Marks astrologer site, under astrology lessons, there is a “What are aspects” lesson that lists the symbols for all the aspects.
I used that list of aspect symbols to read the aspects grid that shows up just under your chart at astro.com. It’s a graph on which you see the aspect symbols. The symbol appears on the grid at the intersection of the 2 planets to which it relates.
I’ve probably made it clear as mud! Hope this is responsive to what you are wondering about.

My MC doesn’t have anything to do with what I do for a living, which I don’t equate with what I’m supposed to do in the world.

Though I have at times been a major workaholic with what I do for a living….

‘take responsibility for managing our energy ‘- i love that elsa!!! it makes me think of how awesome oppositions can be in a chart- having both energies mixing. so, managing our energy means we are at the wheel- and it means there is no such thing as a bad chart. you either make static energy or kinetic… spin your wheels or drive. sorry, i am rambler, i just really like your concept!

hmmm, venus jup in aries on mc
- running a fat kids camp as a weight loss instructor.
-travel guide in a hot air balloon over the nordic countries, getting lostin /exploring new territory
-doctor/ nurse or selling to hospitals / involved in prost.limbs to men/or soldiers-

I will do that bew. I alway thought my whole life would just be me and however many dogs I have (usually three, right now two). But this is a very, very strong desire I am experiencing, and when I look at the US foster kids needing adopting, there are SO MANY! And, over a certain age, no one wants them. Well, I do if it is God’s will. I also trust God to connect me with the right kids for me, and the ones who will derive the greatest benefit from what I have to offer. I will be an interesting mom. I can’t imagine being strict, stern, or imposing very many rules, and they will each have their own room (up to three anyway . I have a lot of love to give! Why restrict it to dogs when there are adolescent humans needing love and homes! Hit me like a ton of bricks!

That is a good question. Since I’m not working right now, this is something I think about often.

I realized recently that I love to shift people’s perspective. Whether it is training them on a software package, or writing a poem that makes them think a little differently, it just feels like that is what I do naturally.

How that translates into this world/economy time will tell. For now, I’m focused on my life with my hubby, my garden and caring for my doggie who is in his golden years. I suppose that is plenty really.

Yes pixiedust, and I am willing to take kids up to age 14 or so, especially if they are part of a sibling group. I can’t believe all of the beautiful sibling groups I am seeing available on the US foster care system. If they are older or a sib. group, there usually is not much in the way of special needs. I applaud people who can take health care special needs, but I can’t, I know myself. I can do a certain level of mental health special needs though. They are all going to have grieving and loss experiences. But it is so amazing and awful to see things like “shaken baby syndrome.” These babies tend to be brain damaged forever, So sad! But I can help with the older kids. Can’t wait! Jup/Uranus conjunct within 1 degree in the 5th house…when I do something, I do it in a BIG way which can sometimes be very Shocking and Abrupt!

Thanks for your good wishes!

Yuck Jilly ouch! Hope it didn’t do any long term harm.

I didn’t get them yet! I want some girls for sure. I could be happy with all girls. But I didn’t get them yet. But thanks for the early grats! I will take that as hopeful./

Lover

mostly ditto, Elsa.

but i’ve got mars mercury in aqua 11th and jup rising.

this horse keeps running…. and running….

i’m not exactly sure what i was put here to do, but i think it has to do with learning and teaching cross-culturally.

i also feel i might be able to communicate “non-traditionally” due the 12th h. pisces sun/asc/jup. i don’t know if i want to do that, though.

then there’s my moon/chiron/venus in 1st H aries. might be some healing or using my courage to heal. i think i am missing this key. i don’t know what to do with my aries stellium. i just can’t figure out which animal it is.

hopefully, life will give me enought time and insight to figure it out.

I have always known I would be an artist and thats what I am- over the yrs it has evolved and now I am looking forward to having my characters/brand come to life soon.

People always told me my art makes them smile- so I guess I am here to put a smile on everyones face! I remember when I got married and my husband’s mother said to me ” oh great now you can stop working.” First of all his salary cannot sustain us but second of all I told her ” I will never stop working- its who I am !”

I don’t think artists of any kind can ever stop doing what they do- its like eating! Without it you will die!

I always thought that I was supposed to be an artist, to volunteer/help when I could, to work with animals, and to love the people in my life, and treat them with respect – and receive that in return. I was naturally determined, but for the most part, not in a competitive way – just loving to try new things, learn and have fun. I wanted to partner with someone fun and stable, who would understand if I was up most of the night painting, and be good to me and my family (no bad boys). I also wanted to dance, and to travel, but not live out of a suitcase. When I was nineteen, I also talked to my mother about taking in foster children.

Exercise used to help me, too, but I’ve had health problems, and the last time I tried, my hip bothered me, and sent shooting pains up my back again, with it threatening to go out on me. I’ve always taken responsibility for my energy, and sorted myself out, it just isn’t that simple right now, for me.

“ha ha ha, I cannot sign into my blog at the moment… left a comment like one of you guys and it went straight into the spam filter.. ::snort::”

that made me laugh.

Jilly, I always saw writing like a wheel, you have to have ‘down/reflection’ time between writing periods. I definitely think you’re a poet as well

Elsa post #21, how humbling, lol!

I get the part about being here to nuture and care for my kids (and learn how not to suffocate them). Other than that, I’m not exactly sure,
Angie

who am i kidding. i have no idea what i’m here for.

but i’m STAYING dammit!