Hell yeah, I am under pressure too but growing like crazy! I have Jupiter in the 5th…

Jupiter in my 11th house and lately everything has been about meeting up in groups or group meetings. I want to attend hot yogi, belly dancing, stepping/line dancing, acting and swimming classes. I’m on a path of growth; however, gotta be careful of stunting my growth on an intimate level.

At the moment, yes. I don’t get very far with anything, and I’m extremely depressed. I barely got out of bed for a couple of days, and didn’t shower or drink anything much for the same two days. Meanwhile, the Taurus, who earlier this year, was demanding to know where I was when he needed me, is in a relationship, and doing goodness knows what else. In feb, he was claiming to not want a relationship with anyone (nothing was going to happen between us in that way, but I’ve spiralled – when he spiralled, i was the one who was there for him).

Almost every time I’ve tried to make changes, I get more obstacles thrown at me. I’m literally like a bug in a jar, most days – stuck – and am about to escape for a while, despite my having had no sleep, because I’ll be stuck here the rest of the week.

catydid – my husband is a (very over-educated) truck driver. http://boards.elsaelsa.com/topic/11th-year-of-college

Jupiter is in my 11H with Venus. My path is deep and slow growing. The progress is pressured. I begin a new brain retraining healing program that has helped many with the chronic illness I lived with starting the New Moon in Scorpio. I’m well on my way to my North Node in Taurus, growing a tap root that matters to me and my destiny. Slowly my husband and I build places of safety and comfort. The Crab Man finds his way as well, with work and community that feed him in good ways.

I am always growing, but lately I feel as though this growth has catapulted me into a higher stratosphere. Thus making it even harder for me to find someone to date. I am open to a relationship, but I have pretty much resigned myself to eventually raising a child on my own.

A lot of growth here, and the more I grow, the more I see how many more great directions to go.

Jupiter is the point of 2 of my yods. Conjunct my Venus, opp. Moon, Qx Neptune, Saturn, Pluto.

I think I’m moving for growth, it just takes me many times to really get the lessons.

Jupiter is natally in my 6th. Square Saturn in Sadge in my 3rd. With Jupiter trining Pluto in Scorpio in my 2nd. I’m growing but I don’t know how. I mean looking back I can see how much I wanted to break out of old limitations in terms of money, health and getting serious about my direction in life. I mean I’m doing a degree at the moment in Criminology with Psychosocial Studies and I’m in my 2nd year and I don’t even know what I wish to do with it when I’m finished but I suppose its all about the discipline and learning something new moreover for me.

I’ve been to the dentist more times in the last 3 months than I have in years as well as the doctors. So I’m taking care of myself even better. As well as breaking toxic patterns and relationships. I’m a quiet Scorpio and whenever I speak I just don’t seem to realise how much wisdom I have until I actually give a piece of my mind in a positive sense. I’m not trying to sound big headed but sometimes I don’t believe what I actually say actually has some truth to the world.

I’m even learning how to drive which is considered late in the UK, almost 25 in less than 3 weeks and I could have done that at 17. But if my grandmother can learn and pass at 65 after my granddad died and left her a car and drove for nearly all his life so can I. *A warm fuzzy feeling comes over me*

I’m growing spiritually and mentally and when Saturn hits next year I think I’ll be even more ready for it. I’ve dumped all the past hurts, pains and digs at my character all no thanks to Saturn in my Asc at the moment. But the structures I’ll be building shall be even better than the foundations that are under construction.

The only place where I’m not growing is the job I’m doing. But its only a means to an end to get me through uni, pay the bills and have that little bit extra money.

I’m proud to grow even though I don’t quite get how.

but i’m starting to feel like i’m cracking from the pace of it.

@Mokihana, I really hope it works out for you. Sending Scorp vibes. Places of safety and comfort are very important to good health.
@CP…Thanks so much for the poem.
I think I’m finally “getting” my path. As I approach my 57th bday I understand that all the many roads and paths I’ve taken were meant to lead me here. I am exactly where I am supposed to be.
This year has been amazing.

Someone pointed out to me that when you take a path (or stay on a path) that stunts your growth, you only hurt yourself.

I kept trying to get off the path, and it wasn’t working. It’s like I’m supposed to be stuck here, although I don’t know why. I could even see why the agoraphobia had been good for me, to a point, but this is like a bad joke- and I’m afraid I’ll wake up in ten or twenty years, wishing i could have just enjoyed it. I’ve felt broken, though- something i would never have admitted to in the past.

I can’t decide haha.

I know from firsthand experience that Elsa’s comment “that when you take a path (or stay on a path) that stunts your growth, you only hurt yourself” is 100% true. Sometime after my Saturn return I chose what seemed to me at the time to be security over growth. Now I’m about to be kicked off that path forever. It’s adapt or die time. And, while it’s exhilarating, it’s scary. The stakes seem so high. 1st H Jupiter in Gemini.