I would like to feel better today then I do. I’m the kind of person who will act on something like this. I have no problem doing something to make myself feel better and I don’t lack ideas however I do feel blocked.
The number one thing I could do to make myself feel better would be to fix my (Moon-ruled) house. It’s no secret this house got gutted, not once but twice. I have done somethings to help the situation over the last couple years but the fact is, I need to make a major investment at this point. I’ve got to redo the bathroom and I mean I’ve got to redo the bathroom. It’s not just a vanity thing at this point and if I got that done, I would have to think about replacing the carpet next.
There are major investments and the problem is that the value of my home has dropped 40% and it is entirely possible this neighborhood never recovers. You might even say that is likely and this makes is very, very hard to invest in the property.
You can see how this post relates to the last, Decaying Society. I am someone who would like to keep my property up but I am not sure it is smart to invest in this house in this neighborhood which may prove to be a complete loss.
I wrote the United States becoming a 3rd world country a couple years ago and was seen as crazy of course. But we are well on our way here and I just don’t know what to do.
Well, I do know what to do. When I want to feel better, I go weed my garden which keeps *something* thriving around here. I love my family, my friends and my work and now my dog but I’d still like to feel better today, ya know? But it’s hard to when you live in a bombed out shell and that’s a fact.
29 Responses to “Under The Scorpio Moon – Rotting Home”
@von, I don’t believe in throwing good money after bad.
@Caroline, I don’t feel “blah”. Anything but. I don’t mean to be rude, that word is just not at all descriptive of my emotional state.
My perspective, and how something like this is part of my life. Everyone is different but for me …
Money aside for a moment, if your planning on being there for a long period of time, then it should definitly be worth it, {of course just my opinion} and yes it can definitely be hard, I agree.
I’m going through a simmilar thing with my home, the kitchen floor is in desperate need to be fixed, there are softer parts to the floor and although I can manage I do not want someone else to fall through the floor {no danger yet, but need to fix before it gets there}, well it’s not as bad as all that but, lets say yes the floor needs to be fixed, there are many things in the house that should be fixed, like the electricity, the house should be rewired top to bottom, etc, etc, etc,
In my situation I have no plans to move out, and I couldn’t find another place I could afford anyways. So my only choice to move would be back home with Mom and Dad. So since I’m going to be in the house into the forseable future any money I put into it is absolutly “worth it to me”. If my situation was different and the possibility of moving was on the table, I’d still have to fix alot to be able to sell it. Again my situation.
I do see the connection, either turning into a third world country, or like the fall of the Roman Empire. I hope not but yes it does look and feel that way sometimes from my perspective.
Let’s just say your last statement is so very true.
“Well, I do know what to do. When I want to feel better, I go weed my garden which keeps *something* thriving around here. I love my family, my friends and my work and now my dog but I’d still like to feel better today, ya know? But it’s hard to when you live in a bombed out shell and that’s a fact.”
May not be the same but I feel that way too.
Hang in there
Bruce, I agree with you but we are not planning on staying here. I would leave tonight if not for the fact my son’s father lives here and I can’t separate them.
We will leave when my son gets out of school or sooner if the universe opens a window somehow and I have my eye out for that all the time.
My son has outrageous transits to his moon (mother/home) and frankly, anything could happen.
On your last remarks, Bruce we do seem to me to be on our way to be equal – equally poor and equally miserable. 
edit to add – I saw your last comment – thanks.
I was talking to my husband about some things I think and feel. I would like to say or do something about these things but he told me in plain English, if I did, I would be killed.
“Killed?”
“Hell yes. Do you not see where you live?”
“I see where I live.”
“Yeah, they’ll kill ya all right. Kill you and then what?”
“Well that’s a good question.”
I do manage to smile on my side, sometimes it’s the little things that get us through the tough times.
You got a good head on your shoulders, so when you find that window, it may be rough but, I’m sure you’ll do fine.
=)
Oh I’m going to read your next comment it just came up
About fixing the Decaying Society? Killed?
Well people in general can be very resistant to change. Even when it is in there own benefit sometimes.
If that’s what you meant
No, Bruce. I was talking about my local neighborhood and the situation here. If I were to try to interfere or speak up, I’d be killed.
It’s not an exaggeration.
Ouch, Yeah I’d want to move then too.
Maybee fortifications then, or a secret tunnel escape route =)
I count my blessings at least I don’t have that, sometimes difficult people but not in danger.
Worrying a bit. =(
Stay well. and keep hanging in there.
Thanks, Bruce but don’t be too worried. My husband, by his own admission may very well be the most vicious, most violent, trickiest bastard on the face of this earth so I am not exactly undefended. He’s not here but has a knack for being where he needs to be and making people who mess with him very, incredibly sorry. Messing with me would be just about the worst thing you could do and he just ran down my family members and we’re not what you call “hard to kill”.
“P, I have seen you swing a helmet and if I put a gun in your hand and tell you that you can shoot, some bastard better look the fuck out.”
He’s right about that and then he ran through some more of my family member and yeah, we’re not as we may appear when you decide it’s a good idea to challenge us.
Also, I am not going to do anything stupid to get myself killed, like pet a bear or poke or make friends with a tiger because I like his eyes and his cute tail.
Interesting…I was thinking about this very subject while washing clothes this afternoon. The house I just left two months ago was built in 1949 and needed to be razed, quite honestly, due to neglect before I lived there. I never wanted to live there, did not plan on staying long, but ended up there for 26 freaking years.
The only way I got out of there was to file bankruptcy, divorce the ex, and then I was able to simply walk away. That seems like the only way the Universe could get me out of there.
I did what I could myself over the years to pretty it up with the little money I could spare. However, even though I was there for so damn long, I am glad that house never got to be how I wanted it, or it would have pained me to walk away. As it is, I am thrilled.
I do miss my trees and various plants I could not bring with me, however. I dug up and took with me what I could, but I was sad to leave the others.
The neighborhood changed drastically in the last five years. It’s filled with transient renters who never stay longer than one year. The neighbors next to me could never mind their own damn business. They were literally mere feet away from me and the lack of privacy almost killed me. The energy of the neighborhood changed noticeably; it got heavier. The Universe got me out in the best way it knew how.
My new house is bigger, peaceful, newer, in much better shape, and has happy energy. I have a yard filled with trees (and I will plant more), and empty space behind me. The neighbors are pleasant, but are mostly MYOB.
It was all for the best. Thank you Cardinal Climax. I just wish it could have happened 20 years ago!
I also miss “my” squirrels. My avatar is one of them who used to chatter from the top of my garage when he wanted to be fed. In the pictures, he’s eating a piece of waffle, and has powdered sugar on his nose. I miss him.
I like the squirrel story.
Luna, in order to try to make a bad situation bearable, I tended to all the nature in my yard (because the people around me were pukes). All the stray cats in the neighborhood ended up at my doorstep. I brought two more with me when I moved, and pray for the ones I had to leave behind. I’m glad I at least have some pictures of my one little squirrel. I’ve asked God to help him find a kind Soul there to give him waffles, banana bread and peanut butter sandwiches!
Uggg, my sympathies. My virgo parts would have a fit at the unfixed or unworking bits. They do in the house I’m in. If I didn’t see us staying here long term I’d not have put in the personal energy and work to make the plumbing (literally crumbling out of the walls) into fancy new pipe that works.
I don’t see an easy answer to your conundrum and so don’t know how to weight in on it as sometimes letting those things go are just the way the world works… Sorry. 
Elsa, maybe you could apply for (or write your own) grant towards rehabilitating your neighborhood. I’ve seen this done in places like Portland, and that at least may make rennovations more affordable if you’re going to be stuck there for awhile. Living in an old house, I well know the cost and pain-in-the-ass of endless repairs and rennovations. Aye.
House prices have fallen by the same amount over here. What this means is that prospective buyers have their pick of properties, and are going for the best presented. There seems to be less people going for fixer-uppers, possibly because there is less cash around and loans are almost impossible to get. So I would think that any money you do invest would be well-spent. Also, the more a house degrades, the more value it will lose in the long run.
I get very depressed when my house is in disorder, esp for major things like the bathroom, things not working properly etc. I’ve never yet stayed anywhere longer than 7yrs (tho I’ve done that 4 times) so when things get really run down I’ve always been ready to move! Even so I always do what I can to keep it reasonably liveable, just for my own sake (painting, etc).
I grew to hate my last place, and it got very dirty and unloved – unkempt! – and very over-run with boxes and cobwebs… so I know how it can go, if you lose the connection to the place and it no longer feels like ‘home’
A pleasant garden is indeed great solace – mine would look better if I watched less racing!
Maybe changes in the extended family circs will help you towards more freedom of movement, in the not too distant future. I sure wish you could move somewhere more congenial
My boyfriend lives in a bad neighbourhood. It’s only calm when the cops park their squad cars for hours on end!
I really need to get on some home repairs. I’ve talked to the landlord who has agreed to everything and done nothing! I’m going to proceed on my own and take him receipts, I guess. It is frustrating.
My advice: Follow Christina’s advice (Oxford Astrologer) which is follow Rupert Murdoch’s lead and cut your losses. Yes, he’s a slimeball but he’s smart. Surrender to Pluto.
When I read your story this is what I saw for you: You are going to choose to put the money into the bathroom. Smack dab in the middle of this is when your son’s father is going to up and relocate himself. If you find yourself saying “He would never do that because……” well, then you’ve just given Uranus permission to come and getcha. My first husband attempted suicide when I left him – I had known him for 20 years, and never in a million years would I have thought him capable of such a reaction. Never think you know someone. Adversity is just opportunity screaming at you. The ship is sinking Elsa, we all need to stop bailing water and save ourselves.
@Mandy – Trouble is I don’t think we can sell the house without doing the repairs. But you’re right. We have decided to go forward with them but we have a strategy that I feel er…confident about.
As for my son’s father relocating, we have plans in place for that and have for years. Matter of fact, we may we the ones who relocate him but if he wants to go back to NY, it is fine with us!
As for the unexpected, when we try to go forward with the repairs, we may be thwarted. Also, my son has major Pluto Moon transit(s) right now and I expect to see some pipes exposed. We did the kitchen down to the walls during my Pluto Moon transit. He’s not going to avoid this.
Anyway, we are beyond primed to move quickly and all 3 of us born for it, I’d say. But my husband is a strange one. If you listen carefully to him, you will know what is going to happen and I don’t even think he knows he does this…
Also, just to mention, I don’t say much on this blog. It’s the tippie tip of the iceberg and as for Uranus, he’s aspects Jupiter in my chart and every actual SURPRISE in my life has benefited me, though the shock is something, that’s for sure.
I very much appreciate you sharing your feelings. We’ve just got some wild cards here and we’re willing to play ‘em.
I know the feeling. I’ve just moved into my home in the last 3-4 months and this just doesn’t feel like home at all. The bathroom window is about to fall out with any more force. The bedroom and living room need decorating… in short the whole place needs a revamp and I sympathise when you say that you don’t know if you will stay there much longer. I feel the same.
Most of my things are still in boxes and I just don’t feel happy here and that links to your decaying society and seeing people do decietful things. I’m living somewhere where the so-called landlord is being decietful with my so-called rent money. Being a Scorps sun etc with a Pisces moon under a Scorps moon makes the deciet glaringly obvious!!
I don’t see why people are still lying and covering it up when all of that water sign intuition and psychic ability is pointing in the opposite direction of the crap that people are saying. Fair enough they have problems but don’t use me as a pawn in a game that when the downfall hits I get blamed to everyone and made to feel harrassed. Its sad but why don’t people take real responsibility for their actions?!
Why does EVERYTHING have to be viewed through the lens of “is it a good investment”? You deserve to live in a beautiful home here and now…who cares whether someone else will pay extra for it in 15 years? The mental and emotional lift alone makes home improvement “worth” it.
I’m in the same boat, Elsa. I bought this old house eight years ago. There are many things falling apart in it, and while the house itself is paid off, I can’t afford on my salary as a single mom to invest in them. Yet, it’s falling apart here and there and I wouldn’t be able to sell it without addressing the issues. I’m also stuck in this town until my daughter goes off to college, as I’m committed to having her dad in her life. The value hasn’t sunk in that the housing bubble really didn’t hit here as it did in other areas. The neighborhood kids are becoming gangbangers. I don’t dare do anything to piss them off. So here I sit and wait for something, anything, to happen and free me. I don’t have a husband, though, so it’s all up to me and my means.
it’s kind of a blah time….keep it cool there!!! (((elsa)))
Pan_tiques – because I don’t have unlimited money! Money put into this will not be available to buy another.
All this comes as a consequence of policies in late Eighties and Nineties of last Century: The impoverishment of the Middle Class. All comes from this truly basic and crucial political and economical point. And this always was the mechanism that led to Fascism in the Thirties…
What Obama would have done as a core of his policy and he did too few and only very partly is to re-enrich the Middle Class or, if not possible, to finally stop the continuous process of its impoverishment. This is crucial.
Now I let you measure the impoverishment. The impoverishment of the Middle Class can be measured by what you can buy with a determined sum. But if today even food costs far more!
If someone does not reach this goal the right will take the lead as in Italy. But the leading right of so many many many years where had led all of us… To disaster. Disaster in this world was not done by liberals and not by left, but by right, from Reagan and Thatcher to modern clowns. They know how to produce richness but not how to distribute it. They bring society in a sort of congestion that inevitably leave other parts of society, and in incrasing number!, under an economical feeze…
So energy must be taken from where there is even too much and distributed where it is even fewer than the less…
But here we come at the point: can this be done under the inquisitory questioning eyes of the god-of-our-time called the Market…
A rhetorical question…
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Maybe your investment needs to be in yourself and how you feel about your house rather than just a monetary investment? Make it pretty… for you. Put your money into making a nice bathroom… for you. Put your money into nice carpet… for you. Investments only have real value when you sell them anyway.
I lived too many years with crappy carpet and we only put new in when we wanted to sell it. I regret all those years of comfort I missed out on. (I have a 1st house Taurus Mars… can you tell? lol)