I told someone today that I have a lifelong habit of falling from grace. I don’t think this can be avoided with a chart like mine, with Neptune on the Midheaven among other things.
I am always nervous when people elevate me in some way because as hard as I try to do well in my life, I am guaranteed to disappoint everyone over time. I am just not going to be able to live up to a standard in someone’s imagination.
I am a plain person here, struggling and trying and I am nothing more than that and nothing less. You can tell me that I let you down. I will feel bad about it, I will apologize but as I told the woman who wrote me today, I wonder if I was ever as good as you thought I was in the first place.
Who can relate?
20 Responses to “Falling From Grace”
On FB/twitter last year, Sarah Strohmeyer joked something like “the higher the hair, the closer to God. Just sayin’” Made me laugh out loud. 
I’m always surprised if I find that someone has elevated me- I don’t think it happens that often.
I as going to go into a rant, but I won’t.
You? Fall from grace? I don’t see you that way! If someone expected you to move heaven and earth for them perhaps they need to place their faith in something bigger than themselves. Anyone who feels you have fallen from grace probably believes in Santa Claus as well.
Well, I believe in Santa 
but I don’t think there’s ANYbody who doesn’t at some point fail to live up to someone’s inflated expectations. & I think most everybody’s had their own inflated expectations dashed a time or two. Peoples is just peoples.
So many of your blog entries surprise me with how much I can relate! My neptune is also on my midheaven ( also opposite my sun)….so I go through phases where people herald me and put me on this tier..
I’m graceful but I’m also human and love to throw things around and follow my animal instincts. You are quite an admirable woman Elsa, so being honest with who you are is a breath of fresh air. And, makes you that much more relatable
I admire your frankness.
Maybe the fact that we so often fall from grace has more to do with an unconscious projection of images which we can then not maintian indefinitely than with anything else.
But it is true that people have a way of “pinning projections” on us, too, and it is difficult to live life according to others expectations. I have Nwotune at the end of my tenth house very close to eleventh and in Scorpio, sauqre my Aquarius stellium – all me life I tried to please others and only with maturity I am becoming stronger to try and follow MY OWN TRUTH irrespectively whether others like it or not. But have been paying a hard price for it and “fell” from grace with certain members of familly who I think loved my image (in their heads) better than they loved and understood me!!! Lol.
Maria Carmo
I so love this post Elsa. We are all human beings and humility is an under rated virtue. I’m trying to learn what are my expectations and what are other people’s expectations. I’ve tried to live up to other’s and my own expectations very hard in my life (and fallen from grace too!) and am learning to have a sense of humor and compassion towards myself. Funny how then you develop the same humor and compassion towards others. Thanks for this post!!
I realize you’re human, Elsa. I don’t expect that you would be a big enough influence in my life to “Let me down.” Since I only know you from your blog and my one reading with you, how can I have such a high expectation of you? I mean, really.
It’s not to say that I don’t think well of you. I do. Rather, I see you as a human, a lot like the rest of us, who happens to have some gifts that other people are fascinated with. I respect you and the hard work you’ve done over the years and your gifts and talents. It doesn’t mean that I make you responsible for my life and the choices I make. I don’t understand why you get the level of projection you get, but there it is. Projection…
I fall all the time and I never get used to it. I keep thinking this time will be different for some reason. What I can’t seem to understand is it’s not me, it’s them; I have my own projections in this regard. *smiles*
I think I can relate. I make great impressions but I am who I am – you cannot always categorize me or box me in, according to how YOU perceive me to be. And, unfortunately, I cannot be what I am to everybody who sees me as what I am.
Elsa do you think pisces MC would give one an almost similar thing like your situation, where Neptune is on the MC?
This one has really got me thinking. I have Saturn in my 2nd house, and neptune and sun in the 1st in libra. I have trouble valuing myself and at the same time sometimes have crazy high expectations of myself. Expectations seem tied up with value to me usually. I want to believe in intrinsic value regardless of performance, but find I am always judging myself and others. Trying to let go of that and emphasize humor and compassion instead…!
People are always looking for a saviour, especially if they are too lazy, stupid or honest to do their own work for themselves. That is hardly your fault!
They are bound to be disappointed: you can put someone on the right road, and maybe give them some help (a crutch, a map) – but they must make their own pilgrimage. No-one can do it for them
Midheaven in Pisces… and Neptune on the descendant. Don’t understand it when people like me, don’t understand when they don’t. I am best when I am the underdog and nothing is expected of me. If people start out loving me, they almost always end up being disappointed.
I’ve had the experience of disappointing others often in my management career. You come into an organization and everyone thinks, or hopes, you can do it all and make a bunch of great changes. You’re bound to disappoint eventually and end up telling them you don’t have (no one has)complete control of the situation, or anything for that matter. As an astrologer, folks have been disappointed that I couldn’t predict specific events before the fact even though I always explain symbolism during the session.
yeah Elsa l’m a big fan of BIG HAIR too! It’s good to keep in mind someone is just the way they are, not to play yourself by expecting them to be someone else and get disappointed over and over again. l guess what you get in the beginning with a person at the core is what and how they will always be.
No dreamy stuff like he/she might become this or that if l….blabla!
it’s a good reminder to TRY to let people be that person they really are in other words to accept them!
I relate! Neptune on the Midheaven as well! As someone said earlier – projection. I have been on the receiving end of a lot of projection as well.I see it as a lesson to setting boundaries. What is mine – what is theirs.
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“I am a plain person here, struggling and trying and I am nothing more than that and nothing less. You can tell me that I let you down. I will feel bad about it, I will apologize but as I told the woman who wrote me today, I wonder if I was ever as good as you thought I was in the first place.”
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