First married, my husband and I shared a teeny, two-bedroom place with three kids. It was way too small for us, but we made it work while arranging to get a bigger place. We often talked of how utterly perfect everything was going to be, once we moved. So perfect, in fact, we took to half-jokingly referring to our new home as the “Magic House.” You know. Because it will magically make everything perfect!

Today’s Tarot is the Chariot, VII of the Major Arcana, from Zodiac Tarot. This charming version is illustrated with the inside of a motor home. Traditionally, this card refers to achieving through concerted effort, sometimes ruthlessness, but always drive. This card is Cancer ruled, and sevens are about control. It can also point to winning through an indirect approach (think Crab movement); chariots are most vulnerable from the side. This version especially reminds me of how Cancer tends to bring their home (and hearts) with them wherever they go.

Seems like I’ve long been dissatisfied with my home. As a teen, I’d firmly declare I couldn’t wait to get out of the one horse town I grew up in. I finally did, and found I still didn’t feel at home. I ended up moving back. And away again. And I still felt like an alien in new digs. Suddenly, that one horse town didn’t sound so bad anymore. “I was happy there,” I recalled wistfully, even if the last house I’d lived in was too small.  I just needed a bigger Magic House in the old town. That obviously would solve all my problems.

I was absolutely driven to make this happen. Asked about it in a reading, hoping for a timeline or advice to help. “Dixie, it doesn’t matter where you live. You’ll just move the problems with you.” I didn’t know what to make of that, and was even more puzzled when my husband firmly agreed. Huh? How could this be me? The people here look at me like I’m a freak. It’s obviously them. Right?

I get it, now. I didn’t start feeling at home anywhere until I felt more comfortable with myself, in my own skin—a gift bestowed by perspective gained through self-evaluation. Being unsure, you look for confirmation you’re okay. But if you already understand feeling at home is an internally generated phenomena, outside stimuli just isn’t so relevant. My fourth house Mars in Scorpio saw it as a battle with the town instead of dealing directly with the internal feelings of not being good enough.

Venus is conjunct Mars in Scorpio , making this an opportune time to examine the deeper truth (Scorpio) of our drives (Mars) and feeling lovable (Venus). I will always feel out of place when I’m looking to others to validate my worth. Pinning it on the town allowed me to avoid owning my own insecurity; more comfortable, but made resolving the disturbance unlikely.

The Chariot reminds us we bring our home, our hearts, and yes, our battles with us wherever we go. Instead of granting outside circumstances magical properties, better to take the wheel ourselves, making the home and life we want.

I still want to move, though, to the mountains, where I can grow my own food, be inspired by the natural majesty surrounding me every day and, of course, feel perfectly at home! Because, you know, I really do think everything would be perfect there…in my magic mountain house.

Do you find yourself saying, “When this one thing happens, everything will be perfect?”

Zodiac Tarot (English and Spanish Edition) by Lo Scarabeo

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