Cardinal T-Square In Aspect To My Moon: The Hot Room
Astrology in real life
The Cardinal T-square hits my Moon and the strangest things come to mind. All kinds of things are happening. My life is popping like popcorn and then I lie down to read, A Prayer for Owen Meany
and instead I remember the hot room.
Most of you know I grew up in the desert and many of you know I grew up in an adobe house, which is a house made of mud. It was mostly hot as hell but in the winter it was cold. Cold by desert standards, but cold just the same if you did not have heat in the house which we did not.
We did have heat available but either could not a afford to turn it on or in some cases in, certain rooms were heated but vents to other rooms were shut off. Basically if you had no status in the family, you froze your ass and I froze my ass a lot, as did, Annalisa.
Now we did have a fireplace. It was in the center of the house and we were all adept at starting fires. They would go out overnight so we’d wake up cold, sleeping in layers of clothes and it was always a big question if we should start a fire in the morning and get ready for school leisurely or if we should just strip to one layer of clothes, run freezing the 1/2 mile to the bus-stop and start a fire there.
We experimented with this (Annalisa and I) but typically we would start the fire at home because it was scary to be standing on the highway in the dark of the early morning with a fire going.
It was scary because we did not want to burn the desert down and if we built a fire we had to keep an eye out for the bus so that we could put the fire out quickly which was not the easiest thing to do considering there was no water – this was the desert.
We threw dirt on the fire to extinguish it, we had plenty of that but it was cold in our hands and hell. We just decided after awhile that it wasn’t worth it. Actually Annalisa probably decided because I was younger and have Libra but anyway, this is how we grew up.
I don’t think we had coats. We did some years, some years we did not. The idea was that the winter was so short, they were a poor investment and so that is just how it was.
In whatever case, the house was mud which conducts heat very well. With the fire blazing, the walls would warm, radiating out from the heat source. It would not quite make it to our bedroom in the back of the large house but it was very warm nearer the fire.
If you wonder how we can be poor with a big house, well it’s easy. We built it ourselves with free mud and if you are not going to heat a house, who cares how big it is?
So this went on for years and that fireplace backed to a outside patio. That means the it lost a lot of heat and one day my family decided to add a room which in this case, meant getting some free mud and building one wall and voila! Next thing we knew we had this small bedroom directly behind the fireplace which was of course, beyond toasty.
Actually, that room was sweltering which I really liked and it was my bedroom for about month one time.
I don’t remember what I did to get that bedroom, but I did live there in almost-heaven for some weeks and it was just so strange.
The other bedrooms would be freezing but you’d have to open the window in this one to let some of the heat escape.
In whatever case with all these planets on my Moon, I think of things like this and I don’t know why. I got out of bed to write this because I want it out of me so I can sleep well tonight. I grew up strangely and I don’t know what to do about it.
Now back to A Prayer for Owen Meany
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24 Responses to “Cardinal T-Square In Aspect To My Moon: The Hot Room”
I remember sleeping in a cold house…..
Elsa I appreciate this so much. I’m glad (for you) that you got up to write.
I just realized this week that whenever I speak about the physical abuse I experienced as a kid, it is always “we.” My sister and I. And when I say “my sister” it is always THIS sister–even though I have 3. Weird.
When I was a kid (before we moved to town) I lived in -30 degree winters with no central heating. The hearth was a coveted place to say the least.
I think my comment is in spamland. but. I feel very strongly about this post (thinking of my own sister). I grew up in -30 degrees (celsius) without central heating–cold cold cold cold
Really hope you continue to share these memories and get them out ‘into the light’ Elsa.
It really helps to know there are others who had a strange childhood too.
I want to hug that little girl with no coat, so I’m hugging your inner child instead and giving her a warm, fluffy coat and lots of feather blankets.((BIG HUG))
I grew up in a barn out in the sticks with no insulation or ceiling.
Wow, that sucks Elsa.
These kinds of stories remind me of when our heat was off and my evil step-dad stole the gate off the neighbors fence for firewood.
Or the time I spent hours and hours walking a horse with colic around in circles in the freezing cold. It was soooo very cold and everyone else was sitting in the truck snoozing in the heat and they had forgotten me. I finally had to go and wake them up and I remember that feeling to this day. They were willing to leave me to freeze as long as they were comfortable.
So I understand where you’re coming from.
max
['Sleep well.']
Whoops. Look at my crappy manners: (((ELSA)))
max
['Sorry.']
(((Elsa))) We all seem to have some weird shit somewhere… some of us have more than others. Hugs help. (elsa)
One of the coolest things about your stories Elsa is that they are so close to the very elements. You must have very strong Saturn Pluto because survival is always the story there.
Sometimes I think that the point of isolation between me and most people is my understanding that survival is always the real story. Tell me about some billionaire making his fake money into more fake money and I’ll just shrug, the guy is deluded, yanno?
But a fire to stay warm is a real thing. Steal fire from other humans, take warmth when there is little — now that is a scarce resource. I’d consider it more important.
Ugh- sorry Elsa- a couple winters in Detroit we didn’t have heat or hot water. Hope writing the story helped you sleep good.
A tough story really well told. If it makes you feel better, I’ve never met anyone who didn’t grow up strangely, we just all grow up strangely in different ways. ((Elsa))
Thanks for honoring us with your story, told with dignity and compassion. I sometimes wonder if those who grow to be of service to others often endure such lessons at the beginning of their lives. Your earliest struggles with the elements gave you the wisdom and empathy to do the work you now do, teaching and guiding others.
It’s a good day for a miracle, Elsa. Embrace yours, and thanks for giving us ours.
{{{Elsa}}}
I remember my grandma teaching my sister and I to stand over the heat register in our nightgowns in the morning, to warm us up (there was no heat in the upstairs). What a delightful feeling that was.
Wow
((Elsa))
For some reason it never occurred to me that adobe houses would get hot inside… I always assumed that the thickness of the walls would help insulate against the heat. But it’s permeable (duh).
Things you never think of #3,802.
(((E))) I’m flabbergasted by this story. Truly.
Thanks for sharing this poignant story, Elsa!
Remembering is good, and I hope that it helped you get some much needed sleep. When I remember crappy shit that happened, especially when too young to be able to change things, it makes me truly appreciate my life now. Ya know, like if you’ve never experienced ‘going to bed hungry’ how can you appreciate a simple hot meal?
A tangential comment: I like John Irving, esp Hotel New Hampshire (there’s a poet in that book who is a real person, now deceased, who was a teacher of mine) — but anyway. Stuff gets triggered down the line like that, it’s truly how the mind works
Elsa it makes perfect sense. You are a loving sister and as such it would be hard to enjoy being warm when you knew she was cold. She is blessed.
And thank you for sharing this story. My children and I have been living like this for years
put blankets in the dryer before bed so the kids can at least go to bed warm. In the 2 years since the divorce money has not changed but we have. Everyone works to keep the fire going and see to eachother. I pray the day will come soon that the changes in our lives occuring will bring new opportunies to make the money we need to be warm and to be able to buy the kids the clothes and shoes they need WHEN they need them.
Your story went deep with me as the moon goes through pisces and emotions are deep for me today as are my dreams….
We didn’t have heat either when I growing up. I had a small fire place in my room which didn’t get much use but a few times a year here in Texas. I used to sleep in my dads old sleeping bag when it got cold. This reminded me of the time a friend spent the night and she woke me up shaking. I looked over at the barely glowing embers and said “do you want to start another fire?” She said “Can’t we just turn the heat on?”
“Um, that is the heat.”
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I forgot to make my point.
My point was that room was coveted but when I finally got in there, I had a bad emotional feeling because right down the hall, my sister was freezing. It is hard to understand I guess. I have a visceral memory.