Well, Elsa said it was a weekend for psychic excavation. I woke up angry, so my subconscious must have been busy diggin’ in the cellar. Aired out some musty psychic rugs, checking underneath. It was a little dusty, but not so thick I couldn’t breathe. And you know, it feels better.

I drew Suppression, reversed. Suppression is the 10 of Fire, aka 10 of Wands. In the Universal Waite imagery, being overburdened dominates. In the Osho Zen, Suppression has the added “gonna blow” tensions-rising element with fissures creeping up the walls. I always like to see this kind of cards reversed, because it implies getting out from under the oppressive burdens. I like seeing easy escape routes.

The key to working with Suppression is acknowledging what it is; as long as you’re not seeing it, you can’t get out from under it. It’s easy enough to carry the load, head down, without looking at what you’re really toting around, and asking yourself if it’s what you want to take into your future.

I know that’s the key because the card told me. When I first started writing this column, we were in the middle of a wicked sky, and I was coming up with all sorts of dark, heavy cards. I drew this card to write about, but didn’t want to. I wanted to have something cheerier! So I told myself I was tired, not clear, I’d try again in the morning. Of course, you know how well that works. Ha! Naturally, I pulled it the next day.  I broke down and wrote about it, but that didn’t end up getting posted, which completely cracks me up. Suppression was suppressed! I hadn’t wanted it to be the Daily Tarot card, so it obliged.

But not until I had my message. I can’t deny energy I don’t find pretty, sunshiny and full of sparkle. It will just keep popping up. Now, I’ll never be able to see this card without thinking about whether or not the burdens are being acknowledged, or your role in maintaining them. Tarot has ways of making a point.

The dirty rugs that had me wound up today aren’t somebody else’s—they belong to me. I had divorced myself from a status quo that I don’t like. It’s simple enough to say, “Gee whiz, that person I know is so meeeeeeannnnn to me.” And maybe you’d be right. But why do you let it go on? By tolerating, overlooking, forgiving, excusing, and ignoring, you’re putting your own stamp of approval on whatever you get. I want to align with Saturn in Libra. I want fairness and honesty and integrity and strength in every one of my connections. That’s all I’m interested in. Where I don’t have it, the onus is on me to rectify.

Suppression tells me that I need to look in my own cellar and acknowledge I am making the choices that weigh me down. For the relationships I’m not happy with, those that don’t feel even-handed and fair, it’s past time for me to stop blaming “other” as the root of the problem. If there’s a train wreck, I’m one of the drivers.  Even if I’m not steering, it was my choice to leave the wheel. This is pretty darned empowering, since I now have the choice to break free.

Are you breaking free from suppression? How’s it feel?

Osho Zen Tarot by Osho

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