Public Life… And, “The Thrill Of Victory And The Agony Of Defeat”
Story time… for Capricorns and the rest of youse, too. ;0
I mention frequently I grew up without a TV and the effects of this are pervasive. I don’t know much about the popular culture of my generation for starters. I don’t get the references people make but another thing is the few times I did see TV when I was young… well I was mesmerized.
I have a vivid memory of the first time I sat down in from of a TV to watch because the TV said my sister was dead. I was pretty shocked, I guess you can imagine.
I was four at the time, probably going on five and I’d been left with a neighbor because my sister (not Annalisa but my older sister) had run ahead while hiking with Henry and my father and had gotten lost on a mountain at 9-10,000 feet with the family chihuahua, Peanuts. Henry and my father searched for her for a couple of hours to no avail and then ran down the mountain for help.
My sister was 10 years old and a large search party formed to go look for her. My mother was distraught and I didn’t know what the hell was going on until I was left with a neighbor who put me in front of that foreign object, the TV.
I remember feeling nervous as I had no idea how to watch a TV. I’d been in the house or at the threshold of the doorway before and had seen the TV there like some big black beast – but I just literally had no idea how one was to watch one so I just sat where the neighbor lady said to before she flipped the thing on and walked into the kitchen with my younger brother, leaving me sitting there very nervously, not wanting to misbehave.
Turns out the news was on and they said my sister’s name right away. I can remember the words to this day.
“10 year old ______ Panizzon, was lost with her dog, Peanuts while hiking with her father and grandfather on Mt. _______ today and has been missing since 11:00 this morning. A search party of 300 men are now looking for her but they have found no trace of her or her pet and fear is she has fallen off a cliff. Sergeant _______ of the city police said that even if she and her dog have survived thus far, temperatures on top the mountain will be below freezing tonight and if _______ or her dog lie down to sleep they will likely freeze to death…” CLICK
That was what I heard before the neighbor lady rushed in from the kitchen to turn off the TV so we’d not hear what we’d already heard. Sitting on the floor in front of the TV, I looked over my shoulder at, Annalisa who was sitting behind me and she was white as a sheet.
30 Responses to “Public Life… And, “The Thrill Of Victory And The Agony Of Defeat””
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YAY for story time!!!!:)
Don’t see the Jupiter Moon in this buy my oldest sister – Sun and Moon in Sagittarius. Venus in Capricorn. She loved the outdoors and she loved mountain climbing. She was running up that mountain, see? She left the men in the dust and this is what happened.
Oh yeah. Ruler of her Sun and Moon, Jupiter was in Virgo, she had the small animal of course.
Oh I thought you had Jupiter-Moon..? oops
(I was making a family broadcast connection)
yeah, my family does have a Jupiter Moon sig… I do, Annalisa does, my older sister, and my father do anyway.
i just love your story time
Oh wow!
Sun and Moon in Sag….likes to wander.
Continue!!!
oaw!
Holy crap! I can’t even begin to fathom the impact. *eyes wide*
Holy shit.
I find it funny that 3 of us said either holy crap/shit on this thread,ha ha
Jeez Elsa
Yay, storytime!
Can’t imagine how horrifying that must have been to hear.
Hoping strongly for a happy ending here……
Whoa, what a shock that must have been. How’s a 4 year old even going to be able to process that?
My grandmother had over 20 grandchildren, and we would sit on the floor all around her, with great anticipation, for story time — this is what your stories remind me of Elsa.
Nosy me (curious Leo) Why had you been so unfamiliar with T.V.?
Our dad wouldn’t let us watch it very often. He said it was mind numbing.
Great story. Thanks for sharing.
carol, we we poor. We moved to the desert when I was 6 and had no tv, no phone, and often no food, shoes, clothes and I mean that literally. Well, I spent at least 2 summers wearing my prior year’s gym suit (one of these http://ny-image2.etsy.com/il_430xN.63572046.jpg) every day of the summer, as did Annalisa and we had no shoes. It’s hot in the desert and we were not allowed indoors much of the time.. our feet were all cracked and we were starving so we ate paper.
Because you grow at this age, we would outgrow clothes or they would simply fall apart because we had so few clothes we wore them out/ same with shoes (we had one pair each at the start of the school year) so we would be left with our gym suits by the time school got out (those things were sturdy).
Anyway, eventually we did get a tv out there but we were not allowed to watch it because it was not for us / not our tv. Not that we cared (or at least not that I did… I have never been interested in TV in my life with very rare exception.
I love your stories, and not just for entertainment value…I have never, in 9 years of reading, read a story of yours and not been touched, or grown, or learned something about the world or myself through your words. Your stories are that deep. Thank you Elsa!!
You are an amazingly well-adjusted person considering the life you’ve had.
Thanks, snap but don’t feel sorry for me. I am waaaay happier than most you’ll meet and always have been. Plus I am waaay blessed by just the fact I am easily satisfied. I wouldn’t trade my life for anything.
I just talked to Annalisa about this, she remembers of course. She said she saw TV when JFK was shot. I was a baby.
She hadn’t read this post but I described my emotion sitting in front of the TV and she said it was because we were told never to bother people or to ask for anything.
“If someone asked us if we wanted something to drink, we were supposed to say no…”
Understanding this, it might be easier to see why I look at a culture where people think others should give them things and I’m just baffled to the core. Even if I can understand it intellectually, emotionally, forget about it. You’re just not to burden others if at all possible… reason being because it is wrong.
At this point I understand reciprocity and know I have something of value to offer so do ask things of others but @ 4 years old, I really didn’t have much I could throw on the table.
I changed that as quickly as I could… like within a year or so and that’s a fact. I think I just know by instinct (Libra) that relationships should be mutually beneficial.
I still have some difficulties accepting my childhood, and I find myself wondering how you have managed to. I guess I’m searching for some enlightment? 
I’m fine today, but sometimes it brings me down.
snap, there is a huge lunar eclipse / grand cross forming that features the family big time. You may very well resolve this, this month, 
Yes. I just can’t understand this ‘me, me, me’ thing that seems to be taking over the world right now. Thanks for that Elsa, I have been really struggling with this for quite a while now, but like I say for some reason today it’s “Pfff!” Who cares? The truth is that I totally recognize what I went through is what has made me the strong person I am today, but still there are days….
However the subject is getting boring Maybe I’m done with the pity party? lol.
Oh the phrase I was trying to think of was ‘sense of entitlement.’
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