God knows that while I’ve made some substantial changes in the past year, I have some stubborn spots bolted down by innate laziness and fear. This is a long process and I’m in the middle of it. Saturn-wise, maybe just 25 percent through…

It’s interesting that many say that the main motivator in life is not pleasure, but avoidance of pain. I tend to agree with that, especially when to get to the pleasure, you have to go through some pain. I mean pain in any sense, any literal or figurative sense of discomfort, to whatever degree you feel it, manifesting as fear or avoidance or procrastination or what-have-you.

But what happens when you’re confronted with more than one type of pain? Which one do you want to avoid the most? What happens when the inertia itself becomes painful, too painful to bear anymore?

Perhaps pain is like a challenging transit. Use the pain, or the pain will use you.

Anyway, formless thoughts for a Friday morning. May or may not make sense, YMMV.

I know the change is inevitable; it gives me hope to think the change can be for the better.

Glad to see someone bringing out the positive potential of it.

My city is really generous and has come together in a big way and that makes me happy.

I feel great but God Bless my mother, she has Gemini 29″ and Cancer sun 0″ degrees…

I feel really good because after dealing with the events of the last two and a half years – no, further, the last seven years or, in a really all-encompassing way, the last 12 years! – I honestly feel equipped to handle what may come. What is coming. So much just no longer fazes me the way it once did. That’s a good feeling to me. You’re so right on about this; there’s energy right beneath the surface waiting to emerge and convert. I have a feeling it’s going to be exciting and I do love me some excitement (because of my stellium in Aquarius, I’m assuming)!

My life this past year has basically been like a pinball being smacked around willy-nilly.

Whatever is coming, you know, bring it on.

On Monday I moved into my very own, kick-ass apartment. Alone. FREEDOM !!!

You know it, Elsa. {{Hugs}}

I’ve been a little up-and-down, mood-wise, during my first week of unemployment, but overall I feel really good. I am really, really looking forward to a change.

Elsa, brilliant.

I cannot tell you how happy I am to be breaking free from situations that may erupt nastily in the near-future. If I had stayed in the job I quit 48 hours ago, I guarantee that something would have blown up at the end of May. My ex-boss was that much of an arse.

I feel these kinda things coming, and so have decided to hang on tight to my good relationships. Screw the pests.

feel it too…Uranus in aries should ( God willing)lit up my grand trine in fire…feels like I have been sitting at the edge of the promised land forever…maybe now…I am finally going to see my dreams come true…

I’m not sure it’s even possible to figure out what the grand cross could mean personally, looks like too much chaos to make sense out of it for even one individual! Seriously, I tried looking at it from my own chart and my head nearly exploded.

However, Chiron is generational, correct? Because I noticed for me, Venus and Saturn will trine my natal Taurean Chiron, and Uranus will sextile my natal Chiron. So my generation might be additionally affected due to having Chiron in Taurus at the later degrees (mine is at 27), right? This intrigues me.

Looks like it’s gonna take place in my 3rd, 9th, 6th, and 12th houses! I just got hired today as a traveling bank teller! However, my dream is to move far away to work in a completely different field. Hmmm!

Spidermoon, you stole the words right out of my mouth! Although, I WISH I were vacationing for two weeks. I am squeezing in a long weekend, because I don’t have paid vacation time, and can’t take time off from work. I hate that someone else has the exact same feelings I do, but it helps to know I am not alone in feeling as though I have lost a decade of my life, and also am unable to break free from my circumstance, thanks to the real estate collapse, among other things. I am seriously considering walking away from everything at this point, but not sure I have the guts for that. Hoping summer will bring about some sort of personal miracle, like the lottery or something.

haha I can relate totally to Dorothy, in fact a pin ball game has come to mind alot the past year or so and I kept hitting “tilt” when i thought it was going to be a sure win hahahahaha! I have certainly have had pluto thrusting up and cleaning out the yukky junk from the dark crevices of my conditioned childhood mind, not pleasant but pleasing in the end if you get my drift, in fact looking forward to being grateful if any more needs to show itself so I am finally able to enjoy the life I have been working soooo hard for since the day I arrive in a body. Hopefully those of us who have been aware and working through it like you have also adcised elsa will be able to help or at least lead by example as the lessons get tougher and many find themselves no longer able to be in denial. Its desparate times but no point being desparate, time to help others onto the life raft rather than floundering in the water with them eh? Go Elsa! your blog has given opportunity not only for some to make sense of whats happening but also to connect with other like minded individuals to not feel quite so crazy and alone, much appreciated =)

Oh man… thats wrong LOL

Yep I am feeling really good now and in fact just asked Lynn Hayes a couple of days ago whether this coming much feared cardinal grand cross can actually provide energy for good things too. Bring it on!