I know exactly what you mean, but maybe it’s the opposite, I dont know. It’s abstract as hell but I think i experienced that a few times when things get REAL f%^king bad and it’s SO bad that what i know as me checked out and something else steps in to fix shit and transcends. And then just the other day it happened, and i realized that its been ME all along being about to transcend and overcome. But it’s a trip. I am aware it’s ME, but it’s beyond me.
IS this what you are talking about?
if not it’s ok, i dont know what is up with me today… but i just cant stop. It’s like Im in a trance. Am i here oram i not? THis feels like a black out.

I’ve had people stay and I’ve had people withdraw. I’ve probably also done some withdrawing — needing to self-protect. Sometimes I have to remind myself: so and so saved my life so I better NOT withdraw, no matter what they go through. But yes — I’ve had it happen to me–

People tend to freak out when bad things happen to other people. They are thinking: am I next? Or “thank god it isn’t me” ……

I’ve only been like this once with an ex-roommate, my boyfriend witnessed it, married me anyway, though I do think he was scared to make me mad for quite a long time after that, even though he wasn’t the target.

experienced that today…put it on tha account that moon in capricorn, pluto in capricorn,saturn in libra and venus in aries were all bombarding my mars in cancer…it was a total insane asylum in my head today…if you had been in the theater of my mind you would have run for the hills…I thank God I know enough about astrology to know that it will pass, and that if I stay away from people I won’t hurt anybody (my pisces sun could not take it) otherwise I woulsd have commuted myself…

Two Leo men had put me through a trial by fire on the love front. Until I fricken lost it and packed some ‘metaphoric’ Scorpio punch aimed at the lion’s ego. I won’t pretend that I haven’t been black listed for all eternity.

a few times in my life i have gotten very angry- i have a physical reaction- my face and neck turn tomatoe red- i am olive skinned- so it is odd- and yes, the people i was with remembered- i usually keep myself undercontrol- mars in aries on the ic in 4th house of cancer opposing uranus- so capacity for 1.explosive red temper emotionally driven strange red total flush or 2. bizzar ability within relationships to keep aries mars in check and positive in order to maintain stability in home and in relationships….

Having a Moon square Mars and Pluto (both in Libra, but not conjunct) natally I can say that yes, I know what you’re talking about. Luckily enough, I had people (loads of highly intuitive watersign people in my family) making me aware of my behaviour early on, because it really freaked people out. I’ve learnt to control it, at least to some extend.

Oh, God yes. I work hard at being moderate, but in fact I can gin up this kind of energy pretty fast. Sometimes I have felt I needed to tap into it for dramatic effect, and those times I amaze myself. One time I stuck a knife i was cooking with into the cutting board and snapped the blade off. I really thought the guy needed scaring, and I scared him. Didn’t scare me; it was puro drama. But I feel bad about this. I’d have been better off developing this into an art form and dumping the part that suffered too long . If I accommodate too long, then blow up, it’ll take ya by surprise.

Oh yes! ever since I was young -my father was like this his whole life, and his idea of control was obtaining it through fear. I was the only one who wasn’t really afraid of him, I despised him, and although »I didn’t rtake myanger out on him, I found him to be incredibly stupid. it was my friends, mother and half-sisters who felt the sting. I have calmed waaaay down, mainly because I feel stupid after getting into a fit of explosive scorpio rage. An the fact that I seem psychotic when you take a gander at the rest of my personality, I tend to be rather affable, quiet – but you can always, always feel the lava bubbling not so deeply underneath
I have learned over time, after having lost people dear to me that this very very instinctual reaction just. does. not. fly, with most people. period. I am also learning not to get into relationships with people who bring out the incredibly angry me. Mostly, I’m just a pussycat. At least by SO will tell you that !

My mom used to call me “snake eyes” I would get this cold look in my eyes. And then the steam would start to rise. I wouldn’t say anything but I could feel a volcano building up inside.

Then onetime a guy was following me one night when I lived in the city. He was spewing nasty things at me. So I passed my apartment and went into the lite parking lot nearby and once I got into a safe place…I spewed back at him and told him “what a cowardly mofo he was and if he didn’t leave me alone I was gonna kick his ass to hell etc. etc etc.” He backed off like Godzilla was standing behind me: ) I was shaking when I was done, but boy did it feel good!!

saw something akin with my mom sometimes as a kid, too. she had it under decent control, but it was terrifying. as a child. meant i was harder to rattle with such things when i was older, though.

yes–went through a long bout of it after my ex almost died

i watched many people compltely withdraw from him because it was just so bad, bad news every fucking day, and i felt helpless to stop it–i also was oblivious that the same was happening to me, go figure.