*sigh* Stupid second house transits. I’ve been turning a blind eye to the oncoming reality of the fact that my Saturn second house transit is next.

But the bright side is that Libra/Saturn works nicely, and politely.

Things are already peeking through – my financial aid has dried up completely at school. Saturn takes the money away. But it’s good for me, albeit painful, cause it was more debt anyway. Harder now, better in the future.

Looking back, I don’t feel like I know myself any better than I did when the first house transit started.

I’ve possibly avoided looking at this before, but I just realized that the last time Saturn went to Libra was in Autumn 1980. I turned four and my mother was terminally ill. She eventually died in November, leading to my father and me relocating briefly after to stay with my paternal grandparents (also his sisters, being in their early 20′s were still pretty much around). I share the birthday with my grandmother, so she had this transit too, even though I’m not able to tell if it fell to her 2nd house, as it did with me. I also think that when Saturn went to my 3rd house (which is packed, anyway) was when I really connected with my granny and aunts. So really, I have some very mixed feelings about this transit.

One thing is certain: It’s already making me think about the last time a way I haven’t in years. For instance, I dreamed of Michelle Obama dining with my female family members and me a week ago (yes, just before Barack Obama was awarded the Nobel Prize) at my grandmother’s kitchen as it used to be in my childhood. In the dream she was very warm and friendly. The thing is, she shares the birthday with my mother. I haven’t compared the charts, but I’ve noticed similarities in the way they are described by people who know them. So, possibly some mother issues are coming back to me

mmmmmmmm