So when I met HQ, I was incredibly miserable although no one had any idea of this. It’s a quality about me. It’s called Jupiter… I mean, “Dimples rising”. When you grin all the time and have dimples no one imagines there is a problem, never mind a serious one but HQ eventually learned that this was the case.

When you are spending time with a person or persons who do not respect and appreciate you, all kinds of bad things happen. When someone comes into your life who does offer this kind of love and kindness, it changes everything. At some point I went to the gym. I decided I had to get my body back, or else and the first time I got on the treadmill, I almost vomited. A month later when I got on the cross trainer for the first time, I managed 7 minutes and thought I was going to die. How do people do this, I wondered. I had no idea!

But I had some idea… and inking anyway that it was worth figuring out. And I knew that for one reason and one reason only. HQ!

He believed in me and had communicated the idea I had something to offer. And I was at a point then where I had to make a choice. Either believe in myself or accept the idea that the good times in my life (and there had been plenty) were behind me. I teetered like that for awhile.

In hindsight, I marvel. It’s one of the reasons I am always telling people on this blog… get the hell out! Never mind how you got in. Get the hell out of these lousy relationships and make yourself a life because I nearly lost mine.

It’s unbelievable how much damage the wrong man (woman) can do. And this happened to me after an entire lifetime of satisfying relationships. It was as if my luck ran out or something! It was like I’d come to the end of the road and it shocked me. How could this happen? It was inexplicable to me.

But I pulled up and I pulled out, the whole time HQ was dealing me cards. He tossed me card after card after card after card and eventually instinct kicked in and I started playin’ em.

When I think of this, I imagine HQ coming across a Lamborghini except no one could tell it was a Lamborghini because it was all covered in mud and weeds. And also because they’re stupid, but never mind that.

HQ is not stupid. He could see a Lamborghini there, these cars are hard to miss and I guess he decided to see if he could get the engine of the thing to turn over.

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Have you ever fell into a rabbit hole like this? Or witnessed a usually happy and successful person run off into a ditch of no return? What happened?