i have the urge to purge — i’m selling what i can and throwing stuff out in historic proportions. don’t know why i have the itch to empty out my apartment, but there it is

that’s pretty much where my head is, too. figuring out what will work and won’t for my biz, quitting the stuff that just isn’t making me money (or happy), planning, learning, research, working…i’m working my ass off here, really. but most of it’s the kind that can’t be seen easily.

i also have had the purge urge and know several others who have, so it’s got to be a widespread phenomena. specifically, i’m feeling driven to get rid of anything broken or not useful in my life on all levels right now.

(((wyrdling))) – let us know how it goes

Chucking out a mountain of clothes which I really, really can’t wear any more. Squaring up the finances for a heavy hit in the next few months. Forcing myself to sign up at the gym – must do it today, otherwise I will be the size of TWO houses!!

I am trying to figure out some way to make myself valuable in the world. Odds are I won’t get laid off this year (next year I will be fair game and a good target though) and thus I am trying to figure out some kind of plan to be set up in advance for if/when I get screwed over. I don’t have much to recommend me because my skills are artistic and writing (first things to go anywhere) and odds are high I will just have to move to my mom’s house and I can’t get a job there.

Problem is, my heart has started *screaming* that it’s had quite enough of settling and not getting to be creative on a regular basis any more (I have not had an interesting day job since 2001, my current job has had the more interesting bits whittled out over the last few years) and it refuses to compromise or get involved in say, going to plumbing school or learning how to be a court reporter or something more practical.

And I don’t want to start my own business. My heart’s not in that one either and it hasn’t enjoyed it when I tried to. But otherwise how can you work creatively? No big corporation is going to hire you for that.

So basically all I do all the time is angst about this. I cannot figure out a solution to the problem worth a damn.

thanks you all
i’ll let you know how it goes.

best to you on your roads… we all have our weight to carry…

Hi all,
I am still unemployed, and I hope Saturn direct in May means I will finally get a job. This has been a very long six months. May 16 is my birthday – so I hope that this is a good omen.
K

how did it go, W.?

“‘Something that good can only be sustained for so long…’ Sobering thought.”

Robert Frost – Nothing Gold Can Stay

Nature’s first green is gold,
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leaf’s a flower;
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leaf.
So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day.
Nothing gold can stay.

{{wyrdling}} aren’t autoimmune disorders fun?

Let us know what you find out, OK? And I promise if yours is anything like mine … it’s liveable. Maybe not our first choice, but it is liveable.

xo

Kashmiri…do you a have a website where you display your paintings for sale? I would like to look…for the purpose of purchasing Could you post a link?