Elsa I just thought I’d comment here, that the relationship issues I spoke to you about in the past are healing.
So…no complaints, not entering the contest just sayin’ the person who receives the consultation is in for a treat.:)

Thanks, elsie and kash!
(and kash, glad to hear it!!)

Good question, anon. I will wait until Wednesday to make a choice so everyone has time to think and compose.

I will email the winner by Wednesday night… work with them and then post the work next Monday.

Thanks, anon.

I have consistent issues with trust. As in, I don’t know how to trust, which obviously wreaks havoc and any and all relationships, romantic or otherwise. Communicating my emotions is a tough one too, articulating those types of things feels next to impossible.

This is a great idea. Thanks ya’ll! I love it when we all dig in and take something from these lessons.
Myself, I’m married and have walls with my other- trust has been damaged and I don’t know how or when it will feel “alright”.
I’m usully pretty private with my life, so this is a bit of a jump to come on here a leave a personal comment.

I’m engaged to an amazing girl who is absolutely everything that I have ever wanted and more than I’ve ever hoped for. She’s amazing and I trust her completely. Hands down, she’s my soulmate.

This is the only issue. I’ve never been with men in my entire life and she has. She’s an out lesbian, but still sometimes I have recurring thoughts that she will go back to men. She was in a long-term relationship with a man for almost three years and that makes me wonder about her sexuality. It’s hard for me to comprehend that she just had sex with men just to have it. I don’t understand that concept very well and I never will because I’ve never been in that situation. I want to know how can I let go of this fear, if at all possible.

Thank you Kashmiri! =D

It’s very true. My mind is not experienced enough to understand and I acknowledge this.

I have really strong contradictory impulses towards erraticness and change vs. reliability and lack of change in my relationship life (& my chart). I’ve hurt a few important people in my life through this and am starting to despair that I can ever resolve it….without doing something radical like an open relationship, which I really couldn’t handle either.

I doubt whether or not I know how to have a fulfilling friendship. It seems I always have people at arms length and yet if they’re in need and need a hug, I will talk to them for days. And yet I still don’t feel ‘taken care of’ the way I imagine a friendship should be. Can people feel connected to you even though you don’t spend time with them every day? Can caring and love be grey areas and not just black or white? Hmm, I wonder.

“Don’t tell…” That was the request my father made of me as a child and adolescent, when my mother was on a drinking binge. Don’t tell my friends..don’t tell.. don’t tell. Yeah, I grew up in alcoholic home, and though my mother got sober and entered recovery when I was 16, and though I now enjoy a good relationship with them both, I recognize how those two words – “don’t tell” – limit my life in the most painful of ways today. In my most recent relationship, my sometimes very controlling and beautifully troubled ex actually made the very same request of me – don’t tell – when making reference to painful episodes in his past, episodes he would not talk about or elaborate on. The fact he would not talk about them filled me with dread and nagging fear. I wonder if he interpreted my silence as a lack of compassion. It was not. I’m trying to forgive myself.

You could say I am in the middle of intense pain and healing over this, at the ripe old age of 47. Yes, I too have struggled with addiction, and with feelings I have since learned are strikingly plutonian. I have also benefited from recovery. My life does not suck. But what’s happening now feels so intense, I would not be able to bear it without my beginner’s faith in astrological cycles—that the stars say, this too shall pass.

My question is this: I am considering whether to continue along in a very public career… one that puts me in front of the camera every single day, in which I am required to appear calm and poised, no matter what is going on in my personal life. I am good at it, very good, even though I live with dread that the world would be appalled if they ever knew how much I tend to suffer inside. I’m super talented. But most of all, given my roots, I am uniquely qualified for it—a revelation that has only just hit me, 22 years into the profession.

Does my chart indicate some sort of turning point? If I now stay, how do I operate on a more authentic level, one in which I can feel more at peace with myself? Why does it feel so intense, and so lonely? Is that reflected in the skies right now, too?

Elsa, it took me two days to figure out how to put this request in words. Even if you don’t choose my chart, I can’t tell you what a relief it is just to WRITE this down—and put the request out there for all to see. God, I guess I just told.

I just emailed the winner!

Thanks to everyone who offered their private problem for public consumption and if you didn’t get picked, don’t worry – I’ll be doing this again.

GOOOOOOOOO maureen!