Ana writes on Love and War and Humbling….

Why would that be arrogant? Love is significant stuff – you were his thunderbolt

Ana (and others) the reason I think it may come across as arrogant is I think it should have been OBVIOUS to me why I would be discounted by people who knew or have known the soldier for what may have been many, many years.  See I know I am Apollonia to his Micheal as portrayed in the Godfather movie, or better yet the book where their relationship is more focal and developed.

But Michael went on to do all kinds of things after Apollonia blew up and no one really knew of her existence which is the case in this case. The soldier was married…something he takes various seriously and there is no way he was going to run around talking about me so all this was contained and I mean completely.

So then decades pass and in this analogy, Apollonia comes back into the picture. Of course she know what is between she and Micheal. She knows and she thinks it must be obvious to anyone with an ounce of brains and that right there is the arrogant part. It’s not obvious!  It is not even remotely obvious because fact is no one knows “love” version of the soldier.  How would they? Nobody has loved him for decades!

So I am basically running around thinking, how come they don’t know I am Ap-ah-fucking-lonia, what the hell is wrong with these people… ::smiles::: and you get the idea.  There is a clash there. There is a disconnect. So when people who know the other soldier, the war soldier read here, they pretty much come unglued across the board.  Who the hell am I to speak so intimately of someone I don’t even know in their frame of reference.  And you know what this is?

Well a lot of it can be chocked up to the joint Venus Neptune energy in our chart.   We have this ethereal love… sort of hard to believe. I mean how the hell can  Apollonia be real, hmm?  How did the soldier hide me his whole life?  How did he hide those songs and where did he hide them. Music -> Neptune.  Pretty tricky if you ask me.

So anyway, this is my angle on the arrogance. You can’t just constellate out of thin air and expect to be understood and / or appreciated.  It’s that combined with my failure (in spite of being told every and all stories) to internalize (deeply enough) what the man has done.  This has now been remedied.