God bless you, your daughter and everyone in the situation. God will bless.

My heart is aching for you and yours, Elsa.

Everybody, thanks. You are going to see me just keep doing what I am doing around here. But I thought I ought to say something at some point because I don’t mention my daughter at home here lately and today this seems very hard core so today it was. But people should understand – this is no joke – my family has been in non-stop crisis on every level for years now and it just is.

If you want to do something as I said 2 years ago – support this blog. That is what you can do. A link. Tell someone about it… whatever. Because in the reality that no one can see, I am a single parent with nearly 30,000 in medical bills amassed in the last 2 years alone! That is my share after the insurance pays their 85% so do the math. And don’t worry.

My family is not the kind of people you have to worry about, just take my word for it.

You have this unusual gift of surrender and courage and hope and common sense all wrapped into one.

I see your wisdom in motion. I see that you sharing with us which is just what you know how to do. You are not only trying to be a big enough mother for your daughter, you ARE being this woman. In this very moment. Because you choose to. Somehow, through your own unique blend of spunk and humor and wisdom and spirit, you knows how to access self-love and mamalove even in the midst of crisis. I am blown away and inspired by your courage… Blown away by the glimpses of sunniness in your voice, by your gratitude, by your connection to others when it would be just as easy for you to be paralyzed by worry and grief or to just fall off this precipice.

A candle burns on my altar for you and yours.

it’s time to support elsa through her tip jar — forgo a latte or a movie and send in a donation. any small amount will help. (and the system seems to have eaten my first post on this subject so if you see this double — well, just understand it’s twice as important — that makes some sense … )

… been reading your blog the past few weeks. great job! sorry to hear about your daughter. i put a tiny bit in your tip jar. thanks for your insights.

Elsa, I wish I could give more to you. I’m going to the tip jar with what I can . . . take good care of yourself. And you were just talking to me recently, helping me. You’re amazing.

I bring you my best wishes of health for both of you Elsa. I pray for the recovery of your daugther

Love to you all, Elsa.

Oh, sweet Elsa, I’m so sorry you’re going through this. Please know that you have so many people out here who love you and your family.

Becca – I know this particularly sucks for the xangans around in the Mosta quotes era. I don’t have the heart to go over there and tell them.

::tears:: and much love

I’m so sorry. All my good thoughts.

Words won’t make a difference, but thank you for letting us know and I’m very sorry.

I don’t even know how you’re still moving, much less writing.

You are linked, everywhere I blog.

Mother Teresa: I know God will not give me more than I can handle. I just wish he didn’t trust me so much.

Whether it’s God or the stars, someone must be pretty clued in about your otherworldly strength, energy, power, and will.

Your daughter and family are so lucky to have you. And you them.

Sending good thoughts.

Hey Ana,

That’s a good idea. . . about the fund.

There’s also a tip jar on the right of the home page . If you click it, you can donate money . . . I’m sure that’s what Elsa’s using it for . . . man, all those medical bills.

>>And ps I did not say she was going to die, I said I did not think she was going to come home – there is a difference!!<<

Yes there is a difference, still, a person doesnt necessarily have to die for there to be a loss. Im so so sorry your little girl wont be with you at home.. its just unfathomable. I have three daughters myself, and I cant imagine not having them here with me.

Im not in your super close circle of friends or anything.. but if you ever need an ear my email is always open. Sometimes just being able to say all of the things you need to say, without worrying that someone will be offended, or worrying that your friends will take too much of the burden…can be a life saver.

well, DAMN! {{{{Elsa}}}} Sounds like it’s live “moment to moment” time, shove the imagination into the tank and know you have lots & lots of good wishes coming from all around the world for you & your family.

I am so sorry to hear this. Words fail me. I can only hope pluto has a mighty big reward for you at the end of this dark, dark passage. Blessings to you and your family.