The other day I advised a gal with six planets in Scorpio she’d do well to associate herself with someone earthy to balance the profound emphasis on water in chart. I didn’t mention it but most her Scorpio is in the 12th house, a water house, so the situation is beyond extreme. And in spite of my very masculine writing (Mercury) I am overly yin and I simply need male energy to feel good.

And I have been aware of this for years and have various ways of getting what I need. I can ride a motorcycle for example. Or I can move into a male barracks.

Whatever it takes… I always find a way to get what I need and as of last week circumstances dictated I fall back on a method I discovered some years ago… walking.

But I don’t walk just anywhere. I go upstairs in the gym where all the big dudes hang out. In the free weight area this is. It’s all huge men and iron up there… it’s all MARS and there’s a track that circles this area, but it’s even more perfect than that.

Because if I just walked by all these grunting men I would be too enormously activated. I would be flooded. But the way its set up, only about a 1/3 of the track is adjacent to the pit of men which is how I see them. You know. Like Vegas! The dealers and the pit bosses are contained in this central area where the regular people (the civilians) cannot trespass.

And this is perfect for me. I am yin going ’round and ’round but in a yang way. Because I can walk f – a -s – t.

And the men actually lift in a yin way if you think about it. They slowly curl the weight, right? Isn’t this glorious? I think so.

So anyway, I walk by them 1/3 of the time, absorbing their energy like a girl-sponge. And then recover for 2/3 of the track, before circling back around to get another hit.

And the fact I am a moving target is conscious and deliberate. I just don’t want to be caught right now, see? I don’t want to deal with the men who are talking to me… targeting me but I also don’t want to lose access to this wonder drug, testosterone. See see how tricky I am?

Is there something (or someone) you know you have to expose yourself to, just to feel normal?

Here comes the Mercury opposition again. Communication like ping pong.

“Well I was just glad to hear from you,” he said.

“I was glad to hear from you.”

“I was surprised you were glad to hear from me,” he said. “I didn’t think you’d want to talk to me again.”

“Well I didn’t think you’d want to talk to me, either,” I said. “You’re the one who had the reason not to. I am the one who pulled the stunt. I always am. It is always me with the drastic action.”

“I like that about you.”

“Well you would, I suppose. Or you do. Obviously you do because it never fails. I am the one who picks up the helmet. I am the one who shows up at the party I am expressly not to be at.”

“He laughed. “Yep, you do. You do pull some stunts all right.”

“Yeah, well I can’t help it. I’m just… reactive I guess. I react and that’s all there is to it.”

“It’s one of you best features, P. Miss P. You’re firey and that’s all there is to it. And I like it when you go off and do something.”

“Oh yeah. I will burn you down and that’s always fun… not! But anyway I’m not sure if I should do what I do or not. I just know I do it and it may be right. I am not sure it’s wrong, anyway. What I do may be exactly right. For example should I beat you with a helmet or let you dance with other girls and provoke me? You know. Should I let you treat me like that or not?”

“No way.”

“Well I agree. So maybe it’s just as well I try to kill you. There. Now no one is confused.”

“Well that’s the way I see it,” he said.

I just laughed. “Well you would understand. You jump out of airplanes.”

“I do. And I love it. Most natural thing in the world.”

“I know. And I’m the same in my own way. And if I feel like I’m hanging somewhere or in some way this is painful, I will definitely cut the rope and take my chances. I will free fall to the ground without hesitation, rather than hang there and wonder or wait for someone to save me. If I have the option, this is. Because sometimes you do have to hang.”

“Yep.”

“But if I’m hanging by a rope and I’ve got knife on me, well that’s it. I am going to cut that thing.”

“Gotcha, P. You’re a free bird.”

If you find yourself in painful circumstance does it force you to action or are your more likely to be disabled by it?
Where’s your Mars?

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So maybe I am Brenda, or maybe I am Jasmine. Or maybe I am Brenda’s boy-crazy teenage daughter in the movie, who hops into every truck that comes by. If she’s not gone with some motorcycle dude that is. Or entertaining the passing through Sagittarian, because this shoe fits as well.

Point is, if you are a Saturn Neptune type, Paul Simon’s line applies: “A man hears what he wants to hear and disregards the rest.”

Except it’s more than the hearing that’s affected! It’s illusion on top of delusion and if you’re me, or you are someone like me, you pretty much are whatever they say you are… but only for as long as they’re saying it! Get it? Because it’s a hologram?

And a hologram isn’t real, it’s projected. And if someone turns off the switch, that’s it! The illusion no longer exists. Consequently, I walk around and people say this:

“She’s nice.”
“She’s not.”
“She’s happy.”
“She’s broody.”
“She’s secure.”
“She’s insecure.”
“That bitch is rich.”
“Oh, Elsa is terribly poor.”
“She’s got a man.”
“She does not have a man.”
“She’s Brenda.”
“No, she’s Jasmine.”
“She’ll give you the coat off her back.”
“She’ll cut your throat and not look back.”
“She’s crazy.”
“Crazy my ass. Crazy like a fox, maybe…”
“She’s got it made.”
“Elsa? She’s had a worse life than anyone I have ever heard of!”

And if you’re me?
Well you’re confused to say the least.

Who can relate?

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I just spent the last 8 weeks trying to be friends with someone who said they wanted to be friends with me. And it was confounding too. Because I was very motivated to connect with this man, but every time I reached out, he deferred or deflected me in some way.

And when he did this, I assumed he changed his mind about knowing me and retreated. And as soon as I retreated he was in my face with a present… and this went on for two months.

Ultimately I told him I just could not go on. “Do you realize every time I reach out to you, you put your hands in your pockets? Or you hide them? I have no idea what to do,” I said. “So I go away and then you reengage me…”

I went on. I explained how I felt and let him know how hard I was trying to find a way to connect with him. It was last ditch effort to forge a relationship but after listening to me he did little more than laugh, so now I am done. Two months and nothing. I got nowhere. And here’s the thing:

Now he is dejected and rejected. He appears to be baffled as to why I no longer want to pursue a relationship with him. And hurt and injured and confused. Well jeez, guy….

And today I was thinking about this and it occurred to me it is virtually impossible to be friends with someone who isn’t friendly! You know. Here’s my phone number, where is yours? You call me and I call you. If you can’t or won’t do this, if you will not allow people to connect with you emotionally, what can the rest of us do?

Are you friendly? Where’s your Jupiter, and how is aspected?

“But I sure was glad when your name came up in my email, I’ll tell you that. I was thrilled. And I knew that whatever you were going to have to say would be good. I knew it would be something nice and I also knew it would to be something. I knew it would be significant because you aren’t going to show up in my mailbox after three years and have nothing to say.”

“No. No, I wouldn’t.”

“Yeah,” I said. “So although I’m sorry you went through all that stuff with me dying, I’m glad you did because it got us back in contact and after that scene in 2003, I thought we never would be. I thought we were cooked for good. This life, at least. I figured I would see you in another life for sure but that’s a long way off so this is much better. And it’s one of the reasons I did not want to pick the scab… contact you. Because although it ended bad it ended clean. It was a clean kill. That’s what one of my friends said. She said I was the master of the clean kill and I’m glad about that. If you’re going to do it, do it. And this way when we meet next life it’s not all jagged and confused and I think a lot easier to go forward because everyone knows what happened. You know, it’s very clear.”

Do you believe relationships persist across lifetimes? If so how does this influence you?

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Dear Faltering,

Moving closer to your son and getting out of a relationship you are unhappy in are two different issues, so I’ll take them one at a time.

First, I have very strong feelings about how people with adult children should conduct themselves so I just want to say upfront that I have a tremendous bias on this. Are you familiar with Capricorn, Kahlil Gibran?

In his poem, “On Children” he writes:

“Your children are not your children.
They are the sons and daughters of Life’s longing for itself.
They come through you but not from you,
And though they are with you yet they belong not to you…”

I agree with him. I don’t think parents should make their children beholden to them in any way. And men and women in their twenties and early thirties, which is the age your son must be, rarely want much to do with their parents. They want to know you’re there, sure. But they’re very busy trying to establish themselves as adults in their own right and I think it’s very unfair when parents burden them with their needs at this juncture.

So based on this, I would not recommend you move closer to your son unless you can have some boundaries about you and understand he is probably not going to want to spend very much time with you. And this is not personal, it just is. It’s life and it works out. Because leaving him to live free allows you the same right. And it seems to me that to PROGRESS, you have to continue on your own path independently.

So this brings the focus to your personal life. And you did not elaborate as to why these first relationships have not been fulfilling, but you did say you were depressed… so I would recommend you address this first.

What do you mean, “depressed”? Are you clinically depressed as in you need medication? Or do you think your depression related to your situation… being in a relationship that does not satisfy? Either way, you are going to have to address it and this is what I think you should do. How?

Well, like me you’re a Capricorn rising, so it’s slowly, methodically and one step at a time. Solve the depression question and then take the next step as it presents itself, and it will. Beyond that, just know you can do it. It’s never too late to have a happy life and as a Capricorn, if you set this (a happy life) as your goal you are very likely to attain it.

Good luck.

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“Well I sure was glad when you wrote me back! I was pacing. I was worried out of my mind about you. Don’t die, P! Please don’t die!”

We both laughed.

“Because the whole time I was trying to figure out what to do… I was trying to decide it I should write you or just wait and see if you would post, and not be dead, I was beating myself up. What’s the matter with you? P’s over there dying and look at you. What are you doing to stop it? Nothing! You’re pacing around the living room. You’re going to the store. You’re going to work. You’re smoking a cigarette for Godsakes and meantime, P is dying. She could be going right down the drain this very instant and if she does… well who’s fault is that going to be? It’s going to be yours! You know you could save her so what are you doing? What aren’t you… what the hell is the matter with you? Why aren’t you saving, P?” he wailed. Continue reading The Soldier and P – Part 6: Beating Yourself Up and Wires, Highly Charged: Saturn Mars and Mars Mercury

Yesterday I took over the editing of the Top Ten Astrology News Sources and have started to revamp it. Now the name is misleading. The site is not limited to just ten blogs. I can pull feeds from as many blogs as I want and have loaded 25 so far.

I want to create a dynamic frequently updated site where anyone, astrologers or otherwise can come scan the headlines and see what astrologers across the web are talking about each day. Or each hour for that matter. And I am pretty sure that pooling our energy like that will have a good effect for all. You know. There is strength in numbers, all boats rise!

Besides the automatic updates from all the blogs, I will try to find something to “feature” each day. I want to make a contribution to astrology and will do this by keeping this site as fresh and as interesting as possible in the hopes of pulling in more of the mainstream (media). Because they’re looking at us these days, you know. Astrology is popping up everywhere.

Now you can also get this widget over there that displays the most recent headlines and I hope that some of you will pick it up and help spread the word and bring attention to our community. And if I missed your feed, it’s not intentional! Please just send the url through the site and as long as you are writing original astrology-themed content, I will add you. On the flip, if I had added you and you don’t want to be included, just let me know and I’ll remove the feed.

Now when I add a new feed it floods the site with all the recent posts from that one blog and it stays that way until other people update. I will probably be adding new feeds as I find them over these next days so you may see this happen for awhile but it will eventually straighten out.

That’s it! Thanks all and special thanks to the entity named, Indigo for offering me this opportunity. I have seen so many other astrologers work to advance astrology on the web and this is how I am going to pitch in!

I was on the phone with satori…

“Well I don’t know about learning more astrology. I’m not sure I have any interest and that probably sounds weird. But take my sister. Now she’s psychic. I don’t care what anyone says. The fact is she is psychic, and this is beyond dispute. And she can also read a chart. But after awhile, she decided she really didn’t need any more astrology. I mean she uses it. If she gets something psychically, she will always look at the chart. Because if it’s not in the chart, she knows she’s off base but beyond that, she really doesn’t need astrology. There is just no need for her to study any more because it’s much easier this other way.” Continue reading Jupiter Transit Through Sagittarius – Expand Your (Astrology) Education?

Dear Scorpio,

I have followed your blog for years and know you to be a dedicated partner and mother. I am shocked and saddened to hear of your loss. I am very sorry for your children as well and will try to help.

As you know, you have your Sun and Moon and four other planets in Scorpio. And you’ve read me long enough to know I am not going to tell anyone what sign to go out and pick as a partner… except for this time, because your loss is so profound and your chart so extreme. And also because I know you well enough you are not going to give anything I say more weight than it deserves, so here goes:

With this much Water in your chart, you are going to have to find Earth. You need someone with significant earth in their chart, so Taurus, Virgo, Capricorn.

And I don’t necessarily mean Capricorn Sun, Virgo Sun, Taurus Sun. When I say “find some earth”, I mean someone with significant placements in one or more of these signs. You want the Sun, Moon, Rising or a stellium in earth, for sure. And with all your Scorpio, more is better. Because you need someone who can ground your emotions and the more aware you are of this, the better.

Now if pressed, I would say of the earth signs in general, Scorpio fares best with Virgo because the agendas of these signs to not conflict at all. And this goes double for you, based on what you say you are looking for.

- You used the word “oppose” which rules out Taurus which opposes Scorpio.
- You said you don’t want to be bossed and Capricorn is a natural boss.
- Last you said you wanted someone who can have a conversation (Virgo rules communication) and someone who will be independent and not get lost in you. Virgo is always unmarried (even when married) and although they’ll keep you company just fine, their work is always a primary focus so they will not be breathing down your neck.

Also, I like to match Scorpio with Virgo because together they get to play the Pluto / Persephone thing (in both directions) which is pretty darned tasty if you ask me. This is especially true of Virgos born your era (roughly 1956-71) who have Pluto in Virgo and consequently an enhanced affinity with Scorpio.

So there you have it.

::all the obvious disclaimers go here::

Again, I’m very sorry. Much love and good luck.

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Pictured: The Abduction of Persephone by Pluto, Gian Lorenzo Bernini