One of the things I’m aware of is how incredibly hard it is to break free of some deeply rooted emotional pattern. In fact, it’s occurring to me just how few people manage. You really have to slug it out. This kind of progress just doesn’t come easy. And I have been communicating this to various people.

Er… I mentioned on the last blog, I talked to one person, and frequently this is the case. However, there is more than one thing to talk about! So I talk to this person about this one thing and this other about this other thing so no one is overwhelmed.

Because when Saturn transited my 6th house (communication) while squaring my Mars Mercury (communication) I learned (Saturn) how abrasive and overwhelming my communication style could be and I have learned to temper this. Because people just don’t have the capacity I do, never mind the time and energy to try to contain the type of energy I can put out, pretty much relentlessly.

So it’s interesting to see the progression and the grand design. Because what I learned a few a years ago is now being applied. But that aside, it’s very clear if you want to break some of these patterns, you’ve got to be incredibly motivated and at least half-smart. I am both those and still find it very dicey and astonishingly, breathtakingly difficult at times.

So yesterday one of my friends told me he was a “violent narcissist” but he’d recovered. Can you believe that?

“I was very violent and a total narcissist,” he said…and I just took this in. But today I’ve been thinking about it. This is some kind of feat, don’t you think? Because I know him very well and I can tell you he is a non-violent man. And I can’t even begin to see him as narcissistic in any way. You know. Not only can I not imagine him with this sort of tag, I wouldn’t put it anywhere near his orbit.

And this is almost magical when you think about it. It’s definitely inspiring; to know these things are possible. Healing is possible. Recovery is possible.

Have you had an authentic transformation or know someone who has?