And I was talking to Scott, my on and off boyfriend for 17 years…and now friend for 30.

“I always figured I’d end up alone,” he said.

“Really? I figured I’d find someone eventually.”

“Self-fulfilling prophecy I guess.”

“You think? What if you just knew it intuitively? That’s what I think. Some of these things we just know. We really know. Our intuition…”

He concurred. That it was possible, anyway. “Chicken or the egg,” he said. Because he never suspends his logic. Scott has Venus Mars and Pluto conjunct in Virgo. He also has a Mercury Uranus conjunction, and he is a true intellectual.

“Well I think you knew intuitively you would be alone. That you just knew this…what you imagined was real.”

“You may be right,” he said. You read that in the biographies of artists. I always knew… I think artistic people may know things like that. Intuitive people, I mean. You don’t have to be artistic…”

I told him I was writing about this and ultimately read him yesterday’s blog.

“I have prayed,” he said, without explaining further. He knows that I know how he feels about God and prayer, etc. “I have needed help to badly I have actually prayed and had something arrive.”

“Yeah?”

“Yeah. And it seems like it works. But then my logical mind gets ahold…”

“And you don’t know if it’s real or not?”

“Right.”

“Well that’s what I’m writing about. Because you know what a big deal this is in my life. You know how reality is just…it’s invisible to me, most the times. And how my reality is obscured from everyone else, no matter what. But right now, with this Saturn Neptune opposition, everyone is getting a taste and I gotta say, I like it quite a bit. It’s good for Elsa, because as you know this has dogged me, my whole life.”

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