Most of you know my sister and I share a strong Saturn Neptune signature. She reads here and emails remarks at times. Yesterday she wrote made some offhand comment about school lunches, it provoked my memory or so I thought. I called her today to find out.

“I got your mail, we didn’t have lunch at school, did we?”

“No we didn’t.”

Continue reading Talk About Blurring Reality…

This came up in the Colosseum. I wrote:

“…I just hope people are satisfied when it is all said and done. I am a very hard person to package and sell. It’s a catch 22 because if I become more manageable and/or predictable, I won’t be me at all.

When I did this I didn’t know if there would be 10 people or what. This was a total stab in the dark and then once committed I just go on faith.

I wonder if there are other lives and I wonder if there are if I will be born with a Saturn Neptune signature again…”

Continue reading Strong Themes In The Birth Chart: Past and Future Lives

Strange stuff behind the scenes.  This can be chocked up to the Uranus transit to my Moon. My unusual roots / childhood popping up all over the place, it’s pretty wild…

The other night I told the soldier about going to the top of the bank with, Henry. He’d never heard the story. The soldier knows little about me in a way. He knows everything he needs to know but he has always sort of avoided my childhood.

He did it when we were kids and he does it now because it causes him grave pain??? I suppose that’s it and I take his cues because I have no need or desire to talk about anything but this stuff is coming up with my sister around and seems interesting to me at the moment.

Continue reading You Can’t Make This Stuff Up… Doing Something With Your Life

I am living proof you can be mistaken as a whore when you don’t even know what a whore is. I would have defended myself vigorously against the charge if I had any idea what a dirty whore was but I didn’t.  Defense (Saturn) was impossible in such confusion (Neptune).

I wound up getting myself home, traveling alone at 11 years old, the whole time thinking I could not wait to get home so I could look up “whore” in the dictionary, or more specifically, “hore”.

Continue reading Mars Conjunct Mercury Launches A Whore Investigation

goddess writes on Saturn Neptune in real life:

Interesting observation. Not sure how it translates from the written word, but I read your stuff for several years before I consistently felt like I understood the majority of what you wrote, and I am not exactly “dim.”

goddess, I think there is a combination of things.  There is a lot of fog, stories you have never heard before told in a way you’re not used to about a person the likes of whom you have never met.

If you don’t realize this can happen (which most people do not) you are going to spend some time seeing various things that are distorted or more commonly, completely detached from reality.
Continue reading Saturn Neptune in Real Life Redux

I have that Uranus station aspecting my Moon and there is so much going on, it’s a challenge to make heads or tails of it. Stuff comes at you so fast you just have to hit the balls back the best you can… on instinct, I suppose. 

Continue reading Saturn Neptune In Real Life

Occasionally I get talking to someone in the gym and they’ll say something about my body. Something nice. And I am always very grateful, not just for the compliment but for the chance to reflect. Because it surely hasn’t always been this way.

“Thanks,” I’ll say. “Thanks very much. It’s taken awhile. When I first walked in here, I was really overweight. I got on one those treadmills over there and I was so out of shape, when I got off the whole room was spinning!”
Continue reading The Power Of Love and Friendship - Part 1 - Don’t Be Deceived

People got extremely involved in the Dark Heart piece, thank you! That was enormously inspiring and satisfying and I am back with my next angle.

Your comments prompted me to better define the personality I was trying to type and get insight into. One example I landed on over and over was the type of woman who finds another women to feel superior to. I used the example of a gal who might peruse the gossip pages and look at celebrity cellulite so she could feel superior.
Continue reading Dark Heart Redux: What Can We Learn From The Anti-Bitch?

(From Sept, 2008) “Make me think I’m crazy when I know I’m not…”
(ask the collective question below)

gaslighting - wikipedia
Other elsa blogs on gaslighting / manipulation in relationship
Also on the topic of venus neptune / pisces types in relationships
UPDATE - follow up to this video is here: Why Do People Undermine Someone’s Happy Relationship?
Are you susceptible to gaslighting techniques? Can you see the tendency (or lack of) in your chart?

This is from 2008, part of a series of videos on defending yourself… here is an example of a Saturn Neptune defense.

“Signs” by the Five Man Electrical Band

For more on this topic skip to -> Escape Via Imagination