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“I get feelings, and try to act on them. I don’t usually know where they come from, and even when I try to figure it out, it takes SO much more energy to try and logically explain them-and even then, I’m not sure if I’m coming up with an explanation or rationalization-it’s much easier to just listen to them and go on. And they’re always right, so why fight it?”

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When one person suffers is another one spared?

From Wikipedia:

“Elizabeth Ann Smart (born 1987) was abducted from her Salt Lake City, Utah bedroom on June 5, 2002 at the age of 14. She was found alive nine months later on March 12, 2003 in Sandy, Utah, about 18 miles from her home, in the company of Brian David Mitchell and Wanda Ileen Barzee, who were indicted for her kidnapping but ruled unfit to stand trial. Her abduction and recovery were widely reported in North American media and internationally and were the subject of a made-for-TV movie and a published book.”

Elizabeth Smart kidnapping

The soldier called within 5 minutes to ask me if I wanted to come out and wait in the truck wash line as it can take hours to get your truck washed. He was trying to peace-make which I appreciated but I saw no sense going out there when I could not return the gesture. It seemed a better idea I maintain the space because I was working on a deep level that was productive for me.

I was thinking about what I had written on my blog about going down in a well. I was thinking how good I am at this. I have spent my whole like in a well and I was thinking I ought to go on my blog and tell people how this is best done because I do know.

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Double Gemini and astrologer Claire-France Perez befriends the repulsive - Me!

I was amazed to read the comments on the “What Do You Like About This Blog” blog. They are so flattering I am afraid is looks as if I were digging for compliments or something which was not the case. I really do lose the plot at times and I thought after the comments, I would elaborate.

I don’t know where the edge is and I have this in common with the soldier by the way. We both have and have had such extreme lives we don’t know when we cross into territory other people cannot understand or relate to. And I bet some of you Scorpios out there know what I am talking about. Everything is okay and then all sudden - whoosh. You cop to something you know or you feel and someone’s eyes bug out or you see them jump back.

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This topic, the Mississippi Fat Ban has me stunned and mesmerized so I just keep writing. Excellent example of Saturn (restriction) in Virgo (diet) and Pluto in Capricorn (Shadow side of the government).

Yesterday I went to the gym and I was thinking about all this fat ban business, the prospect of seeing our rights dissolve beneath us and the possibility of leaving the country for a better life. I thought of this and then I thought of that and then I thought of it.

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I first got in contact with the soldier in 2003 when Pluto was transiting my Sun. A Pluto Moon transit is infinitely easier to cope with but I did the best I could back then and one of the ways I coped was by writing the astrology mailing lists. More specifically, I wrote to one list, the one that did not kick me off or find me too repulsive that is.

Because “intense” does not cover it. I was writing this stuff that apparently was beyond what could be read because I was getting kicked off lists and banned left and right.The soldier was telling me his Special Forces stories at the time and he was not messing around. I guess he’d never talked to anyone before in his life and once he got started… Whew!

I worked to contain the energy he was pouring into me, all of it from the darkest of the dark shadow you can find. It was like being able to conduct a rare interview except for I never asked any questions.

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I continued to explain to the soldier, my position on the exchange of energy that takes place when someone dies…

“The idea you inherit energy is no different than when someone dies and someone else gets their money which is something everyone understands. Think about it. Some rich guy dies and his money goes out all over. It goes where it goes and ultimately people are empowered by it. They get richer.”

“Yeah.”

“Okay, well money is just one form of energy, isn’t it? And it’s not even particularly valuable if you ask me. I mean, it’s money but there are other things / forms of energy I think are preferable.”

He stared.

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“Well I think energy is energy,’ I explained to the solider. “And it’s neutral until it’s directed. This means a person can go ahead and stab me if they like, but as I always say, if you do then I get your knife.”

“That’s fine, P, except people who stab you don’t usually leave their knife they take it with them.”

“The actual knife, yes. But what good does that do them? The exchange of energy has taken place. The event happens and I now have that energy… which is neutral until I direct it and what I do with it is my own affair. It is my own business.”

He stared.

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I was on the phone with a pal, talking about the soldier.

“Well, we are just dark people. We’re very dark. We live in the shadow and we absolutely like it this way and I’ll give you an example.”

“What?”

“Well, we checked into this motel and turned out the bathroom sink was clogged (Pluto). And he was cranky. He had to shave using that sink and it drained really slow so his hairs were stuck all over the sides by the time the water drained and it was gross.”

“Yeah.”

“So he got in, midnight and that’s when we found out about this. In the morning I called to have it fixed, but they said, no. No, they can’t fix it. There was no particular reason why, so it made no sense. What do you mean they’re not going to fix it? He was irritated. What do you mean, no maintenance? Don’t they have some Drano?” Continue reading Astrology And Personality Types: Eavesdrop On Pluto, Scorpio and the 8th House