In theory (and in reality) when a planet in the sky transits in aspect to one of your natal planets there are various events.

In theory (and in reality) when that same planet transits the same natal planet there are more events that relate to the prior events.

For example, around 7 years old every experiences a Saturn transit to their natal Saturn. Generally this occurs when a kid starts school which is a pure Saturnian experience. They go public (Saturn) and are forced to grow up. No more mommy at school, see?

Now at 14, Saturn opposes a person’s Satturn, generally as they are entering high school and it is not hard to see how these two periods are related.

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I got a mail from someone this morning who thought my daughter had died. My daughter is not dead. My daughter is very ill and I am no longer able to care for her at home.

We cleaned out her room because she has been gone nearly six months and it is time to face the reality that the odds of her ever being able to live at home again… well it would take a bona fide miracle and no one sees one of those coming.

It is like a death, I will tell you that. She is 12, almost 13 and her room was full of things I bought for her to have a life she is not going to have. It’s just gone through my fingers and there is not a damned thing can be done.

This kind of stuff has got to happen to someone and the someone it happened to is me.

shell writes on Will It Take 10 Years To Assimilate:

“Is that kind of like when something happens in your life that is painful, and you think you’ve learned a lesson and will be better equipped to handle it the next time around; yet when it happens again, it still hurts like hell and you have a brain fart as to how to handle it productively? And the second time around, you have baggage from the first time which only adds to the backache? Yeah, I could see how maturity would be the only thing to help. But that only goes so far, huh?”
Continue reading Pluto Transit To The Moon - Mine: My 8th House Puts A Fine Point On Trauma - Specialists, Audiophiles, Bliss, And A Perspective On Death And Multiple Lives

I just got an email from someone expressing their concern over my well-being. Writing this on the chance others are having similar feelings about me - Fact is I am doing inordinately well. I feel really good, we are just busy settling.

The soldier has only been here a week and a half. We are currently sorting through his stuff that was pretty much dumped in a heap here in February. The sink has problems, Vidroid is thrilled with the soldier but wants to hang around us every minute he can. We are accommodating him and in short while I am maintaining this blog I am really not able to track how it might be coming across. Come to think of it, I can’t do that under the best conditions!
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This came out in response to the comments on the last blog:

He played about ten songs and one of them he assigned to 2003 - Bruce Springsteen’s “She’s The One”.

I love that song, but 2003?

2003 we got in contact which ended abruptly and terrifically painfully for both of us and then he lands on this song?
Continue reading Pluto Transit To The Moon - Mine: Will It Take Ten Years To Assimilate?

Last night the soldier played me a series of songs on Youtube.  He’s got that Taurus memory I guess because among other things, he was able to play me the song he was listening to a concert 2 days after we broke up 28 years ago.

Apparently he was in agony, he’d gone to the concert with 3 friends on two motorcycles and you just know he’s saying nothing and then this song comes on… (more below)

Continue reading I Think It’s Murderous, And You? Another Manifestation Of Pluto Moon

Well my daughter’s room is pretty clear and it didn’t bother me very much. I do have a horrible sense of foreboding; however the trauma that led my family to this point does seem to be in the past.

Awhile back I made a reference to Pluto transits taking your down by degrees.  I am definitely living at a subterranean level however I have not dropped recently.

Continue reading Pluto Transit To The Moon - Mine: Swirling, Foreboding And Simultaneously, Relief

Today the soldier and I are cleaning out my daughter’s bedroom. I feel pretty calm and hope like hell it doesn’t hit me later. I don’t think it will. Everything has been left as is for almost six months and it feels good to have things move.

I think everyone has been waiting for this.

Now the soldier would tell you that I am a Catholic on account of I was baptized and while he is technically correct, I have not 1 minute of Catholic training so it leaves me at a loss when I attend Mass with him as I did today for the second time.

I am inordinately disoriented from the moment I walk in the door for an endless list of (Pluto Moon) reasons, something the soldier cannot understand for the same reasons he does not understand other things - That is that I am not him. In whatever case he asked me what I thought as we were leaving the church today and I told him that I had about a million impressions.

“For example, they start singing and I start crying,” I said. (Venus Neptune is famous for sensitivity to music) “And then I look over and see the real Catholic and she is putting on lipstick. To me that is surreal and I have no way of knowing what to make of it.”

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Besides the disaster that is this house at the moment, the soldier has the kitchen pipes dismantled which is textbook Pluto Moon.

When Pluto was stationing in aspect to my Moon last time, my ex, the AMF with his four planets in Scorpio came by and tore out my entire kitchen. He stripped it down to the bare walls and one pipe sticking out from the wall. My entire kitchen sat out in front of my house for a week waiting for pick up… a purely Pluto Moon experience.

He then rebuilt the kitchen and he did a great job. He had no problems save that one pipe… the drain pipe this is which for some reason was placed high when it should be placed low.

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