Now speaking of pheromones, someone suggested it must be wonderful for my ego to be pursued in this way. To have people crawling all over me but in fact, it’s soul killing. I absolutely hate it. I want no part of it, and the main thing it does is make me want to cry!

And I have no idea how I could be mistaken as someone who would get off on this sort of thing. By the people who are closest to me, even!

But someone in my innermost circle suggested this the other day (to my horror) and once I got over the shock, I wrote him to clarify and try to get him to understand what is real. That this is the worst possible situation, that is.

I wrote:

I am not cut out for manlessness. Attention like this does not help my ego.

This is hell on earth.

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I hope he understands.

What helps (increases) your ego or your self esteem?
What kills your soul?


pictured - Apollo Crowning Himself, Antonio Canova, Italian, 1781, Marble

When it comes to attracting sex there seems to be two kinds of people. Everyone has heard of the guy who lacks for dates. He just can’t seem to find a women, right up until he marries! As soon as someone puts a ring on his finger, women show up in droves and this a story as old as time. The fact some woman wants this man, makes other women want this man.

Now I am in the opposite situation. When I am partnered, men take one look at me and seem to know I am unavailable. There are exceptions (like the Salesman) but they are few and far between. For the most part, men (and women) look at me and can tell there is nothing there. There is no void to fill so they take their eyes off me and continue to scan the room for someone who is “open” or unfilled and unfulfilled.

But as soon as there is a void, LOOK OUT! My pheromones start to build up and it doesn’t take long. A week? Two weeks? Next thing I know I am crawling with prospects. Men, women, librarians of both sexes, small animals, you name it. Continue reading Astrology and Pheromones, Sex Appeal and Attractiveness: Venus and Mars In The Natal Chart