I have that Uranus station aspecting my Moon and there is so much going on, it’s a challenge to make heads or tails of it. Stuff comes at you so fast you just have to hit the balls back the best you can… on instinct, I suppose. 

Continue reading Saturn Neptune In Real Life

satori made this comment on My Daughter, My Life. It was

“the reason Horton had to keep saying it was cos no one ever BELIEVED him. they only believed him when the outside evidence became overwhelming.”

I suffer terrifically from people thinking I am fake. It is chronic problem with very rare periods of respite and I am in one of them now.

I remember when I first started writing (in 2000), I wrote about Scott and no one believed he existed. Then one day I wrote “ALLY ALLY IN COME FREE”, just like that on my blog.
Continue reading At The Moment I Am Real And I Like It

Lynne E writes eloquently on Reality and Arrogance:

“…I think she likes her Neptunian mask. and we do wear masks albeit unintentionally whether it’s the smile that contrasts with inner angst or the grimace that hides delight. Life can be falling apart yet Neptunians so often don’t let on, or else make less of it. Maybe we need the veils to protect our reality?”
Continue reading “I’m Not A Neptunian, I Just Play One On TV…”

I think I see people a lot clearer then they see me. I base my assumption on how frequently people tell me things I think or feel that are entirely remote from what I actually think or feel and this includes people are very close to me.
Continue reading Neptune On The Midheaven: Living Unseen… “This situation makes for a very lonely life…”

Now my sister, the designated victim as outlined on the controlled experiment video (Compassion And Sympathy: Who Garners Yours, Who Does Not And Why) also has Neptune on her midheaven. We are both Capricorn rising with Neptune in Scorpio on the MC and in the movie mentioned in video she was cast as the saint, and I was cast out, the sinner. But it was not always this way.
Continue reading Are You The Saint, The Sinner, The Designated Victim?

I guess it is hard for some people to understand how someone like me who does not like attention could write a blog like this. Fact is this is actually a NON attention job. I mean, I work at home and do one on one consultations. I am complete unseen save the videos which are not real.

I mentioned on the boards I avoided the big astrology conference in Denver last year for one reason and one reason only: I knew I’d be recognized. Had I been able to go and fly under the wire I’d have been there but those days are gone.
Continue reading Attention Seeking Behavior: Neptune, The Hall Of Mirrors, Stories We Tell Ourselves, Absorbing Negative Energy And… Liberation

This is from 2008. I would add that I am also starve and neglect dogs, just look at Dora and how skinny she is! I am a terrible mother, a liar and I kick people off my blog all the time too. One a day for my blood thirst… ::rolls eyes:::

I also want to respond to Carrie’s comment, “Anyone who puts me up high …well, it never ends well for me..”

I have found the same thing. Anyone who really, really likes me is going to have the veil drop at some point. This is as predicable as a hot day in the desert which does little to ease the pain.

Neptune On The Midheaven again. This time I am, “Alexa”. (from August, 2007)

With Venus squaring Neptune on the midheaven, invariably they have me mixed up with someone and while there are many manifestations, these are the main themes:

1. They think I am a character they have seen in a movie.

The most common projections are Appolonia in The Godfather (peasant virgin Italian girl fantasy), Tita, in Like Water For Chocolate (variation of the same theme plus cooking / mothering) and Vianne Rocher in Chocolat (this one is based on appearance and similar energy combined with the man’s desire to be Johnny Depp).
Continue reading Voice Of Venus Neptune: Reasons Men Want To Marry Me… A Partial List

Kingsley wrote:

“I think you mentioned the twelfth house previously Elsa. Things come from out of the blue in the twelfth. Its hard to say what might be “going on” in that hidden house. All will be revealed when one planet after the other crosses the ascendant.

I guess you will have to trust your instincts or react to a script in life.”

The stellium does fall in my 12th house and I feel, Little Match Girl-esque. A 12th house full of Capricorn is a Saturn Neptune exchange. I already have a strong Saturn Neptune signature natally now exacerbated by the current sky and it’s really something to behold.

I can kiss reality goodbye, that’s for sure but what about that Little Match Girl? What does she do exist so that others may think and feel things that have nothing to do with her?. And what is her problem anyway? Her problem is not defined. Her reality is not defined.

Reality surrounds her (it’s cold!) but it is irrelevant even as it takes her life.