My underage bartending days that happened back when I wasn’t Italian…

Now the soldier would tell you that I am a Catholic on account of I was baptized and while he is technically correct, I have not 1 minute of Catholic training so it leaves me at a loss when I attend Mass with him as I did today for the second time.

I am inordinately disoriented from the moment I walk in the door for an endless list of (Pluto Moon) reasons, something the soldier cannot understand for the same reasons he does not understand other things - That is that I am not him. In whatever case he asked me what I thought as we were leaving the church today and I told him that I had about a million impressions.

“For example, they start singing and I start crying,” I said. (Venus Neptune is famous for sensitivity to music) “And then I look over and see the real Catholic and she is putting on lipstick. To me that is surreal and I have no way of knowing what to make of it.”

Continue reading Neptune On The Midheaven - I’m A Decoy Catholic

Kingsley writes on People You Know Or Think You Know

I would be interested to know how you would like to be seen by your readers Elsa.

Perhaps the missing part of really “knowing someone”, that is, the lack of body language over the internet may have a different result when standing next to the person.

Idiot savant?

That’s an interesting question, Kingsley and I don’t think I care.  With Saturn and Neptune mashed, I don’t think I have the ability to care what the public thinks.

I like the idea people are provoked and/or challenged, moved and/or soothed by my work and beyond that I don’t think about it much. I very much have a ninth house perspective about my writing - I put it out here and then whatever.  It is up to the fates how or if it is received.

The problems come when people try to interact with what turns out to be my hologram.  At that point there are problems for them and problems for me.

The problem exists backwards in my real life where I am routinely misjudged and problems are created when my “voice” does not match what they see or think they see in real life.

How do you want to be seen by the public?

Submit your own open question

Abe Lincoln, picture is a Capricorn Moon and rising known to be concerned about their public image.

Elsa goes to astrology class, circa 1992. Who is really flying under the wire?


Do people mistake you as something you are not? How does it make you feel?

I was just writing about my disinterest in popularity, however status of other types does appeal.

This conversation took place some months ago (5?) before the soldier moved to Colorado…

“P, you know that when we finally get together there will be no stopping us,” he said.

“No, I don’t know that.”

“Well I know that. Are you kidding me? I’ve never worked with someone so well in my life. I have never had a partner as good as you.”

“What do you mean?”

Continue reading Now This Kind Of Status Appeals: Neptune On The Midheaven Sounding Bitter Over Her Plight

Last night on the phone with the soldier:

“What’s going on?” I asked. We talk about 10 times a day.

“Oh,” he said sappily, “I was just thinking of you and me in the gazebo.”

“Gazebo! Are we going to have a gazebo? What gazebo?”

“The gazebo in Sound Of Music,” he said with a sigh. “Me and you. Me and P in the gazebo and whiskers on kittens.”

I laughed. “Well good. I am glad you don’t think I’m a banshee, there are many who do.’

“Ah, well they don’t know you, P. They don’t know about your whiskers on kittens or your warm woolen mittens.”

I just shook my head.See what happens when you have Neptune on the midheaven? Saint or sinner, it depends on who’s lookin’.

I made a video awhile back about how to discredit someone. All you have to do is say they are a drunk and that’s it! Walk into the room and everyone looks you up and down and thinks, “Here comes the alcoholic”. Doesn’t have to be true and I’d know because this is exactly what happened to me. This was “first handshake” before I even shook a hand when I first starting meeting with the task force.

Further I did not know this had happened for at least 2 or 3 weeks which meant people were talking to my hologram (Elsa the presumed alcoholic) and boy did I flip out when I found out. Considering I’m not a drinker, I was STUNNNNNED.
Continue reading Saturn In Virgo - What About *Not Controlling Conversation?

I was on the phone with satori, talking about my life near the end of Pluto’s transit to my Moon

“You know that astrology conference is in Denver, there are going to be all kinds of people here, astrologers I mean and some of them are going to want to meet me. Hey! Let’s go over the Elsa’s.” I laughed.

Continue reading Astrology And Psychology: More On Elsa P The Hologram And The Upside Of Denial

“There is no way I will ever be in that club,” the soldier said regarding the club my ex-boyfriends have and they do have one. “I don’t care what happens between me and you, I will not join that club.”

I stared. “I know that.”

“I may go to one meeting,” he said, shocking me.

“You’re going to go to a meeting with them?” I was stupefied. He knows how I feel about my club. I have no idea why these men decide they are going to best friends with each other when they break up with me but it happens and it happens routinely. “You’re going to a meeting with them?”

Continue reading The Ex-Boyfriend’s Club And The Little Match Girl - Are You Confused Yet?

This is sweet. I just got a mail from a Scorpio pal. She was concerned because my energy in the last video is lacking and she knows my life is rife with stress. This combined with the fact I am going for a blood test got her attention and for anyone thinking similar things, not to worry. The video was filmed in September so it is not current.

This is another example of the Neptune on the Midheaven hologram effect as outlined here: This Blog Is A Hologram.

Besides Neptune on the midheaven (I am an illusion) I have Saturn and Neptune mashed and there is just no way for me to be real in real time. There is no way for me to be real (Saturn) without the smoke and mirrors (Neptune).

This means if you judge (Saturn) what you see here and you can expect to be tricked (Neptune) and it’s not because it’s intentional, it’s because it just is. What can I say? I am a talking head. I am a man behind the curtain…