I thought I’d come on here and outline how this phenomena (the hall of mirrors) works with a real life story. If you can track this I am sure you will be able to identify this pattern in your own life and in the lives around you so here goes:

Once upon a time there was a regular around here, Loonsounds. She used to comment a lot and one day another astrology blogger came on this blog to address and insult her quite profoundly.  It was the first time this gal had ever commented on my blog so basically her first handshake was a viscous attack of one of the regulars.

Continue reading Once Upon A Time On An Astrology Blog… Holding Your Ground Under Duress

With Neptune on the midheaven and various other indicators, I am extreme example of a common phenomena where people mistake others for a figment of their imagination. Anyone with Venus mashed up with Neptune (Venus in Pisces or the 12th house, Neptune in the 7th or Venus in aspect to Neptune) is going to find themselves involved in situations like this.

I’ve written a lot about this and made a series of videos. The one below discusses a man who married me when he didn’t even like me… you could say he married my “hologram” rather than my actual person and when the veil drops on something like this it is very painful in both directions.

Continue reading Neptune On The Midheaven: Combating Mistaken Identity - It’s Impossible, Disillusion Is Guaranteed

Liz asks on Public Image:

“I’m curious Elsa, how does your family see your neptune midheaven?”

That is an extra interesting question because Neptune is  on the parental axis.  As it turns out my sister has the same configuration and further there is more than one Saturn Neptune exchange in our charts. We have studied astrology damned near 40 years at this point, (80 years if you combine our experience)  and while we have a vast understanding of this, you can never really get it.

Continue reading Neptune On The Midheaven - The Family Angle? As Far As I Can See, It Does Not Exist

sasha writes on His Scorpio Moon - My 8th House Energy

to elsa : your enegry is radiant, but dark. not centripetal, but expansive. not bad, just dark.

sasha - thanks. I have to tell you it is so confusing. People see me in various ways and the ways are so varied.

One person is scared to death of me, the other person thinks I am going to be crippled by their hate mail.

The person that loves me or thinks I am great often decides I am the bane of their existence at some point. The person who thinks I am lousy very often decides I am not.

Continue reading Neptune Conjunct The Midheaven - My Public Image

In light of my typos and the fact that yesterday I complimented Mokihana on something she wrote that was actually a quote from my own mouth - this is from 2007. More Neptune bafflement extraordinare…


Idiot savant - Wikipedia

This is from 2007. It is about my underage bartending days that happened back when I wasn’t Italian…

If you’ve read around here for awhile you know I have Neptune in Scorpio on the Midheaven and get mistaken for various things all time. A whore, a saint, a sinner, a drunk, a lousy parent, a blond, and idiot savant and many, many other things.

I was thinking about those shells and that wedding and California. For one thing the gal who got married, her name was, “Elena”. I left out her husband’s name when I wrote about this because it is very distinctive.

I try not to id people here, “Elena” on her own come be one of thousands but Elena in combination with her husband’s unusual name could only be one person so I left it on this account but turns there was another (subconscious at the time) reason.

Continue reading Speaking Of Whores, My Subconscious… And Neptune On The Midheaven

I have that Uranus station aspecting my Moon and there is so much going on, it’s a challenge to make heads or tails of it. Stuff comes at you so fast you just have to hit the balls back the best you can… on instinct, I suppose. 

Continue reading Saturn Neptune In Real Life

satori made this comment on My Daughter, My Life. It was

“the reason Horton had to keep saying it was cos no one ever BELIEVED him. they only believed him when the outside evidence became overwhelming.”

I suffer terrifically from people thinking I am fake. It is chronic problem with very rare periods of respite and I am in one of them now.

I remember when I first started writing (in 2000), I wrote about Scott and no one believed he existed. Then one day I wrote “ALLY ALLY IN COME FREE”, just like that on my blog.
Continue reading At The Moment I Am Real And I Like It

Lynne E writes eloquently on Reality and Arrogance:

“…I think she likes her Neptunian mask. and we do wear masks albeit unintentionally whether it’s the smile that contrasts with inner angst or the grimace that hides delight. Life can be falling apart yet Neptunians so often don’t let on, or else make less of it. Maybe we need the veils to protect our reality?”
Continue reading “I’m Not A Neptunian, I Just Play One On TV…”