I heard from the doctor and I have a hernia not cancer and boy  is it a relief as the soldier has been deeply disturbed for a week an it has unnerved me to no end! It has unnerved me because Scorpio (or the 8th house) often knows when someone is ill, I know I do.

If you’re dying, chances are that I am aware of it and he’s been walking around for days twisted up like a pretzel, looking at me solemnly and refusing to elaborate but also to deny…

“You think I have cancer,” I said about 50 times.

“Now, P, we are waiting to hear from the doctor.”

::shakes head::

Anyway, I have a hernia and will have to have surgery. I don’t think it’s that big a deal but this last week sure has been. Nothing like someone looking at you as if you’re dying and you don’t know it all day! Neptune in Scorpio anyone?

Can you tell when someone is sick?

“What he likes is to see my emotion,” I told the soldier, regarding my 8 year old son. He likes it when I cry at movies, or if something scares me. But he especially likes it when I cry and he comes over and looks at me very closely. He wants to see my tears, verify them and make sure they are there.”

He laughed.

“Yeah, he actually inspects them. He looks at my crying face them up close and he likes it along with you and most everyone else I have ever known. You do this same thing! Oh, there goes Elsa, crying at Lady And The Tramp when we were kids. Whoops, there she goes crying at the Green Beret movie. I think my blog likes it too by the way. They want me to emote on those videos. It’s like they want to witness my emotion. Here I am with all kinds of it and they want to see it,” I said.

“I bet they do.”

“But why? Am I a freak on display? I feel that way to an extent. Why is the expression of my pain so interesting? My own son gets a kick out of this; he just can’t hide his pleasure.”

“I understand.”

“He can’t hide his pleasure, I can’t stop emoting and so it’s just this routine spectacle where my emotion seems to make others feel good. Because it’s not like he cries with me. It’s more that he’s pleased and satisfied with the meal. The meal that is made up of my expressed feelings that is, and I can’t say that I really understand this.”

Outside of this being another expression of Neptune in Scorpio (emotion) on the midheaven (public), can anyone tell me what is gained when tapping another’s emotion?