Understanding the basis of the Saturn return can go a long way towards easing fear… the first Saturn square.

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Another example of an individual’s Saturn Return - my own. You have to face your fears rather than respond to other people’s fears. Place boundaries, take a long term view… and most importantly - Be true to yourself.

Skip to Part 4 - A Classic Case

It was the strangest thing. I was out walking as I’m prone to do. I walk around the neighborhood and on the trails in the nearby park when weather permits just to clear my head and never give it much thought. But the other day I was out there and as I walked by 3 boys / men, I felt afraid.

The men were maybe 17-20 years old and doing nothing to threaten to me. They were just standing alongside the path chatting but I could not stop the reality from dawning on me - I was at their mercy.
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I have a strong Saturn / Neptune signature in my chart. It is chronically and constantly in play… I have to cope with a constantly appearing and disappearing reality as as attuned and aware of this as I may be, sometimes things happen that truly boggle.

Saturn rules fear and mixed with Neptune (Saturn in Pisces, Saturn in the 12th, Saturn and Neptune in aspect, Saturn in the 10th etc.), hologram fear is always part of the picture.

On the flip side a person will deny or erase their fear and it is quite a phenomena when you witness it up close.  The veil lifting that is. The veil that separates a person from reality, that is.  Last night I was lying in bed with the soldier, chatting.

“Squash me like a bug,” I said.  “Oh no. You could squash me like a bug if you wanted to.”

Continue reading Saturn, Neptune And The Denial Of Reality - What Happens When The Veil Lifts?

According to his profile, Vladimir Kooperman is a Sagittarian but how’s this for an image of Capricorn fear?

Check out the whole series, Sharmo… what a talent!

and thanks, Dina, for the link.

foxxy writes on Disturbing Scorpio
“Well, you tell some pretty visceral stories. I’ve had to go walk around after some.”

foxxy - that’s interesting. Because although HQ worked on editing it with me (a slow painful process w/ Saturn in my 6th), when it was done and he read it through, he did so while walking and/or riding the subway around NY.  I wonder if this has to do with my Mars Mercury. You’ve just got to move.

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The soldier and I have recreated the same conditions now as we had when we were kids on many fronts. For one thing, he does not come near my job.

When we were kids, I literally forbade him to come to my job (I was a bartender). I used to talk and tell stories all day long… I was completely free and did not want to feel the restriction I do when in his presence, through no fault of his own. It was this and the fact that when you are a bartender, men stare at you all day. I figured he wouldn’t like that so it would just be easier if he stayed away.
Continue reading Recreating The Past, Hologram Fears And Pride

Kingsley writes on Men, Women. Venus And Mars In Nature:

“Jealousy is the anger about the prospect (scare) of being rejected. It could be a way in which you keep together Elsa. It would be very easy for either of you to get each other angry if you needed to do that. When I say angry, that could mean passionate too; to constantly live in the “now” of the relationship. In a way that may help to reinforce your attachment with each other. I can’t see a problem with that, its just that when the relationship is going through growing pains it will helpful for the both of you to be aware of that happening.”

Continue reading Is It Jealousy? Fear? Possessiveness? Mothering Gene? Survival Instinct? I Don’t Know But It’s Primal And Belongs To The 8th House

eva writes on Fatalistic Statement Regarding The Saturn Return

“Elsa, I see your point. But take your example — the boy who lives at home with his mom. You can’t doom him and say well, because you did this your life is a complete waste, and the only happiness you have a chance of getting for yourself is going to come when you’re close to dead…”

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eva, I don’t mean to doom him. I just think there is a point of maturity and once you go beyond it you don’t get any taller… until Saturn comes around again. Life is kind that way. You get a second chance and I have seen many, many people take the second chance and run with it further than they ever dreamed possible. Case in point, the soldier and I.

A person’s ability (or inability) to do this is contingent on what they did (or did not learn) over the prior 28 years. The humble learn, the arrogant fall if for no other reason then they become aged. The people who fare well when “close to dead” are those who have matured and developed. The others?

Well they are scared to death of course.

See the lesson?

Face your fear or… um…face your fear.

Jupiter, Saturn and Pluto have recently moved into Earth signs. What have you noticed post this shift?