This is from August 2008. A year later, the community here is better than ever and I totally committed to keeping it that way. I know I look like hell in this video, but you know. I was up to my neck at the time…
2008 is not 2007 or 2006 or 2005 or… the evolution of Elsa P and her blog.

I’m talking to the soldier here. It’s very obvious my Mercury (thoughts) are is conjunct Mars (sex and aggression).

“I realized something,” I said. “I get pretty stupid at times. Like when I am happy and having a lot of sex, I get positively docile. It’s as if I can’t think at all. No need! But just as soon as I feel threatened, you better look out! All the sudden my brain fires up and I become… well, I become freakishly brilliant. All the sudden I can think up, down into the ground, and next thing you know a persons is screwed, blued and tattooed. I have them wrapped up tight and this is all done before it’s even occurred to them I might rise from my slumber. That I might have any ability at all. But until I’m threatened? Nothing. I appear to be some kind of pure fool.”
Continue reading Kangaroo!

(From Sept, 2008) “Make me think I’m crazy when I know I’m not…”
(ask the collective question below)

gaslighting - wikipedia
Other elsa blogs on gaslighting / manipulation in relationship
Also on the topic of venus neptune / pisces types in relationships
UPDATE - follow up to this video is here: Why Do People Undermine Someone’s Happy Relationship?
Are you susceptible to gaslighting techniques? Can you see the tendency (or lack of) in your chart?

This is from 2008, part of a series of videos on defending yourself… here is an example of a Saturn Neptune defense.

“Signs” by the Five Man Electrical Band

For more on this topic skip to -> Escape Via Imagination

I feel a sense of responsibility to put this kind of stuff up here seeing as so many single women / single mothers read here and so few of us have any idea how to defend ourselves. You read a tip on this subject here or there and you never know when it might come in handy. The soldier has been here a year now and I have been transformed.
Continue reading Self Defense For Women (And Men): Saturn Tip For The Day

I am working with a Pisces who has to defend herself. I want her to understand that if she offers a hard edge it will empower her opponent. Pulling this up for her benefit but other people can apply.

It’s just very hard to fight a hologram, see? Hard to fight something that does not have form. A “virus” comes to mind. They still can’t do a damned thing with the common cold can they?

Togi remarks on Teenager Shoes:

“My Aries step dad wears bowties and bells on his sneakers so they jingle when he walks. So embarassing. What is that all about? Notice me, notice me!”

Togi, yeah it’s “notice me” but I have a different slant on this. Leo is here to entertain.  Even if you do nothing but laugh at me, you are still ENTERTAINED and since I have Venus in Leo, I think entertainment is freakishly important.

When I dated a painter, I dressed all the time. I always looked as if I just stepped out of a painting and also thought this was important as I was an addition to the landscape. Must we all dress down, the same, similar? I don’t think so because if it were, Venus when it got to Leo would just skip over. Same with Aquarius!

In regards to your step dad, yeah it’s embarassing but no more so than tattooing messages all over your body or getting humongous fake breasts put on your chest.  I think you just don’t like the guy!

pictured - The Young Italian, Bouguereau, Oil on canvas

Earlier we had the John Prine’s musical defense against a bitching spouse and here is a Nick Lowe version: “Stick It Where The Sun Don’t Shine.”

It is impossible to sing this song and not feel greeeeat! Mars Mercury loves this one because the gal here has a big mouth. She specifically has “a tongue like a knife” that makes “rotten racket”. It’s a bunch of “prittle pattle” that sound like a “death rattle” and best of all is the freedom -
Continue reading Astrology And Defense Systems: Nick Lowe’s “Stick It Where The Sun Don’t Shine!”

John Prine has a tight sextile between Saturn (defense) and Neptune (escape / imagination).

Look what he does when his wife bitches him out…
Continue reading Astrology And Defense Systems: Escape Via Imagination

max writes on the Defending Denial blog:

“Not snooping seems reasonable; I try to practice that myself (as part of the Golden Rule), but sometimes the alarm is triggered and the defense grid goes up.”

max
['Woot.']

I read that and realized in the same circumstance my defense grid goes down, in effect flooding the person.

It is a Saturn Neptune defense.

What does your “defense grid” look like, how does it function? Where is Saturn in your chart?