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Kingsley writes on People You Know Or Think You Know

I would be interested to know how you would like to be seen by your readers Elsa.

Perhaps the missing part of really “knowing someone”, that is, the lack of body language over the internet may have a different result when standing next to the person.

Idiot savant?

That’s an interesting question, Kingsley and I don’t think I care.  With Saturn and Neptune mashed, I don’t think I have the ability to care what the public thinks.

I like the idea people are provoked and/or challenged, moved and/or soothed by my work and beyond that I don’t think about it much. I very much have a ninth house perspective about my writing - I put it out here and then whatever.  It is up to the fates how or if it is received.

The problems come when people try to interact with what turns out to be my hologram.  At that point there are problems for them and problems for me.

The problem exists backwards in my real life where I am routinely misjudged and problems are created when my “voice” does not match what they see or think they see in real life.

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Abe Lincoln, picture is a Capricorn Moon and rising known to be concerned about their public image.

Heather M wrote regarding Disturbing Scorpio:

“A person should be able to share. It’s too bad your very watery friend could not be more sensitive to you. Maybe another time.”

It’s all right, Heather M. I know he loves me and would do anything I asked him to, including continue to listen. It’s just I don’t need that right now. I really was just filling him in, hitting the main points. I am the kind of person if you don’t track me, pretty soon you can’t catch up. There is just so much that happens to me and around me - it’s always been this way.

When I first started keeping a blog in 2001, people wondered when I would run out of stories. How many stories can she possibly have?

Well I will never run out of stories nor have the time to tell all the stories I have. I figure maybe 5 or 10% could be told if I wrote every day for the rest of my life and this is only if my life was very long… like into my 80’s.

If you think about it, you can see the amount of work I have to do is staggering so it should be no wonder to anyone why I would not mind dying sooner. Because man, I am tired! It’s an endless mountain, see? Or endless depth. Or maybe it’s both. In whatever case I am quite sure I am supposed to put this out there.

Um… the mountain is Capricorn, the depth, my 8th house. The endless stories come from Mercury in the 9th and Jupiter hard core.

Tonight on the phone with the soldier…

“I talked to one of my old soldiers today, he told me I made a mistake driving a truck.”

“Yeah?”

“Yeah, he says it’s beneath my intellect.”

“Yeah, well we all know that. He doesn’t know the whole story though. He doesn’t know what is actually going on. He doesn’t know about me.”

“I told him about you.”

“Yeah but he still doesn’t know. He’s a normal man with a normal life and a normal love. He’s got no idea what we are doing.”

“That’s true.”

“Yeah and it’s nice he knows about your intellect but if he really appreciated how smart you were he’d know there has got to be more to the story.”

“Uh huh.”

“But as it is he is looking at half of a puzzle thinking he knows what it is and passing judgment so oh well. I think anyone who knows you should know you are up to more than it seems at all times. You say yourself you are a near-genius and you are out driving a truck. Gee. Must be a reason, eh stupid?”

We both laughed.

I made a video awhile back about how to discredit someone. All you have to do is say they are a drunk and that’s it! Walk into the room and everyone looks you up and down and thinks, “Here comes the alcoholic”. Doesn’t have to be true and I’d know because this is exactly what happened to me. This was “first handshake” before I even shook a hand when I first starting meeting with the task force.

Further I did not know this had happened for at least 2 or 3 weeks which meant people were talking to my hologram (Elsa the presumed alcoholic) and boy did I flip out when I found out. Considering I’m not a drinker, I was STUNNNNNED.
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Dear Capricorn,

It is common to see age difference in couples who have strong Cancer or Capricorn in their chart. Same thing when there are a lot of planets in the fourth and/or tenth houses as these signs and house represent the parental axis and people with a focus there have parent/child themes in their relationships across the board. So I would talk this relationship serious if only it were an actual relationship - but it’s not.

This man is partnered with somebody else… period. There is no indication he had any romantic interest in you whatsoever so I have to conclude you are having a pure fantasy here which is also shown in your chart as you are a Virgo rising which means delusion… er, Pisces rules the seventh - the partner.

Now I am sorry if this is harsh but there are other things that pop out in your note. For example you say he is with another girl but you are not a girl. You are almost 50 years old and this is not a “girl” in my book.

I am glad you wrote, glad you are concerned about embarrassing yourself and I would urge you to let go of the notion you “love” this man unless of course you would like to pine. But yeah. Think hard before you say anything to him because if you do he is liable to be embarrassed, somewhat creeped out and he will almost definitely run for the hills.

I say recognize this as a fantasy and start looking for a new situation.

Good luck.

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The Capricorn guy with all the Scorpio in the 7th house who got everyone so hotted up, showed up to say he got a date with the Scorpio woman he’s been eyein’. We’re glad about that (well, maybe not Togi) but besides that it occurred to me if men knew how easy it was to get laid around here there would be a lot more hanging ’round, you think?

On other fronts, the other Capricorn who was having problems with Scorpios and Tauri also had a problem with me. I got a scathing email that was “angry, vindictive, unhealthy, vengeful, hurting…” It was all the various things he/she accused other people of and then some. I was not surprised and I am sure you’re not either.

The contrast here is what I am after. Capricorn is at it’s best when humble. The control freak breed - run for your life!

Last night my son was reminiscing and he told me about a time he had no friends…

“So I drew some friends, cut them out and pinned them to my shirt,” he said.

I was stunned. “Did that work? Did it get you some friends?”

“Nope,” he said, not sounding sad.

We were talking about the argument he’d had with his best friend at school. His friend told him he did not want to be friends anymore but I reminded my son he’s been through this with Jesus before and I thought sure they would make up within a couple days.

“You’re at each other’s house almost everyday. I am sure he is going to miss you,” I said.

Happy to report he got off the bus today and said I was a wizard… in fact the friendship was repaired but here’s my point:

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What about these lousy transits?

My son has begun to cartoon his life. He draws what he sees the way he sees it and I am freakishly happy because I know firsthand how telling stories invokes Jupiter which acts as anecdote to the Saturn blues.

My son really has had a terrifically difficult life starting from the time he was 4 days old and seeing him with this outlet… well I just know he will blossom and be okay.

A few weeks ago he was threatening to draw his Mom burping and I think he has caught on to the power of all this. Got a problem with your mother? Draw her burping and watch her Libra flip out! There. All better.

This started when he was 4 years old. My daughter had been picking on him not stop as she was prone to do and apparently he had just had enough. Never in his life had he retaliated but he was PISSED and he grabbed a piece of paper and drew a picture of a tic.

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