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Pluto Direct Square Mercury Retrograde - Discovery
Astrology in real life
I feel frustrated over my inability to communicate my thoughts that have formed due accessing my deep emotion. I have made four attempts with four different people and can see I may as well be speaking French or Pig Latin or gibberish or something because no one seems to know what I’m talking about. They just don’t grasp the depth of what I am saying and as a consequence I fall deeper in.
I have almost but not quite resigned myself that I am in an area others will never be able to relate to. If this is the case I am going to have to come to terms with it which is something I have never done.
As it turns out, I think that deep down people really do want to fit in. They may rebel but this may be a luxury only afforded to those who fit in in the first place.
What if you’ve been taken so far from the mainstream, you can never find your way back, hmm? It is not as cool as it sounds.
pictured - Detail of Pluto in a quadriga from the painted decoration on the throne from the Tomb of Eurydike, circa 340 BC, Vergina, Tomb of Eurydike.
22 Responses to “Pluto Direct Square Mercury Retrograde - Discovery”
“this may be a luxury only afforded to those who fit in in the first place”
hmm…never thought of this before but it totally makes sense now that i think about it. i’m adept at making myself unobtrusive within groups of people (i like to get along; don’t like fighting). but yes, perhaps this ability to get along allows me to break free when my compulsion to do so arises…
toni like you, i’m uranus/sun. my uranus is conjunct my midheaven, opposing my sun.
Ahhh I’m also uranus conjunct SUN and Mercury! and Uranus is quincunx my ascendent. Yep..that means I’m definitely “far out”. I’m free, fun, and immediately different.
I’ve always felt like an outsider but as my social skills improved and I learned to be more open and comfortable with myself…I started attracting more friends, admirers, and supporters.
I think it’s also because I spent the year after college as an erudite..reading, writing, observing, figuring out myself, and going through an identity crisis. I realized I didn’t want to be a lonely philosopher so I got out there and became the life of the party….I am eccentric but hey..it’s kind of hot :).
I live in that place you describe. I was reminded of it (yet again), crushingly, last night.
seems there’s a certain human bonding need that appears to also act as a subtle drive towards uniformity…
Hmm. I hear this.
I happily collect those of you that are outsiders. I can’t learn anything from people who are exactly like me.
It’s hard, because you never really know what’s going on in another person’s head. Personally, I would caution against assuming you know what depths other people are grasping (but that’s just me). Sometimes, there is a lot more to people than communication can ever get at, and some things register on a level that may never be discussed with words (and yet, I would still say that some sort of communication is happening in that case). Sometimes not, of course, too.
Personally, I look forward to the day that we evolve the ability to communicate via telepathy, and avoid words altogether. I find words to be very limiting (but then, you know that from counseling sessions).
I found myself being misunderstood from a very early age, and being immensely frustrated by it. I don’t know if that is because I was at “depths” that other people weren’t , or if I just had difficulty with words, or what. Accepting that at least 40% of my communications were going to go awry helped me a lot, personally. Although, I may not be a good example because I do consider myself in the mainstream. But I think the mainstream is a lot stranger than it looks on the surface. This is all just my own opinion, though, I’m just one person.
Oh! The astrology, I also have Pluto square Mercury. Maybe that has something to do with it.
Wow, Elsa, this is beautiful!
Really blew me away this morning.
Right on User
What if you’ve been taken so far from the mainstream, you can never find your way back, hmm?
It’s excruciating. Some kind of purgatory.
This place is not about being different or getting the pulse of random social groups. I am sure lots of people have trouble with ‘fitting in’ or feeling alienated. This is more like a hardcore spiritual based metamorphosis that has no beginning or end and colours everything. It’s
Edvard Munch’s The Scream.
I love that painting. Actually, I love all the historical paintings on this site. Really reinforces how timeless this stuff is.
I have a Sun/Uranus and Moon/Uranus trine. My sun in Aries is in the 12th house so I really do have the Lone Wolf placement. I’ve always struggled with trying to fit in as I am not a strange to being shunned. Sometimes I feel that my sensitivity allows me to see and feel more than other people - so easily if I vocalize this, people get scared or call me a weirdo. I’ve always battled with my self-esteem as well, and up until now (I’m almost 30), I am still learning to accept my sensitive nature.
Do our planets have something to do with the right and left brain hemisphere? Maybe Neptune? My education in astrology is poor so forgive me. I think that people who are hard to fit are right-brained.
“Sometimes I feel that my sensitivity allows me to see and feel more than other people - so easily if I vocalize this, people get scared or call me a weirdo”.
I can relate to you, Lunalie.
I second what Toni said (sun opposite Uranus). It’s not that I WANT to want to be a SAHM with babies, but I am awfully tired of being surrounded by nurturing females and feeling like the giant freak all the time because I have no interest in what 99% of women seem to want. I get awfully tired of being the special bleeping snowflake freak around here.
And I am really tired of not fitting in with my family that’s supposed to be the only ones who will love me through thick and thin, knowing darned well if they ever notice that I’m weird (they ignore it so far because weird is not in their reality, I’m talking if I ever went publicly weird) I will be out on my ear and they will hate me forever. Feh. I wouldn’t choose this.
I understand your feeling Elsa.. everytime I try to post something on your blog I have to do it at least 3 times to be sure it works and even then I’m not sure!! and I have mercure in the 8th house square saturn and pluto natally so it’s a natural thing to me now!!
You said, ‘I have almost but not quite resigned myself that I am in an area others will never be able to relate to.’ But, hey, bambina, mebbe you jest kin’t COMMUNICATE what yer thinkin/feelin/bein. Isn’t all this ’stuff’ in the sky a precursor to SATURN IN LIBRA, which I’ve been given to understand - by the astrological community - will be about prtnerships achieved by and through effective communication.
I love reading you partly cuz yer so out in myleftfield - but I hear you nonetheless. I kin dig it, as we used to say. Yaas, sometimes it’s a stretch, but I love a stretch - sure helps us to relax walking a mile in the other guy’s Manolo Blahniks/Adidas/flipflops/gumboots….
Yer ol Virgo/Virgo rising on the upandup.
Loveya, Elsa
“A man needs a little madness, or else… he never dares cut the rope and be free.” Alexis Zorba
I have never wanted to fit in. I am a Taurus Sun/Uranus conjunction and I find myself in just being ordinary and not trying to impress either gods or mortals. A teacher from long ago, a very wise old turd, once said to me, “If you do not get it from yourself, where will you get it?”
((((ELSA)))) I know what you mean. Thanks for writing.
Hollering all the way from Cape Town, almost home from my travels! I’m catching up on the blog, three pages deep and this post resonates with where I am so deeply.
Nobody gets me either. Not in Africa, and not the people from home either.
(hugs) Miss all of you, and my internet/astro fix.
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Elsa, being a Sun-Uranus conjunction person, I’ve been kinda rebellious all my life.
Do I want to fit in? Yes, because it gets lonely being “different” all the time.
But also, do I want to be another carbon copy of everyone else? Hell no!
So I’ve battled this all my life. I want to fit in like everyone else, but I also want to maintain my individuality.
I could fit in so easily, but Uranus just won’t let me. Sigh.