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Shocking But Sadly True…
Astrology in real life
Today someone told me they had thought about introducing me to someone else… a potential new friend some time ago. She decided against it because people so often just let you (me) down so profoundly, she did not want to risk my being devastated by someone she thought I should be friends with.
Hearing this I was stunned and then flooded with relief. During the time frame she was referencing, I just could not have handled another bad investment / friendship going south but boy is this ugly or what?
I think there are some of us who have this experience pretty routinely. People like me, sometimes they even love me and the next thing I know they join my dark fan club.
I had a man marry me once, told me he was the love of my life and he sure as hell acted the part. I was married about 10 days when he told me he’d decided we should not have kids because his family said my babies would be “niggers” and they didn’t want any “nigger babies”. I just looked at him with my eyes wide.
It happens that fast and after it happens several hundred times you just don’t want run the script anymore but you actually can’t make it stop. It’s a situation were all roads lead to Rome. It is phenomena, I’m telling you.
Some people don’t fall in this trap… I don’t know why. I don’t know what they have that other people do not but it is definitely something.
I chock this up to my 8th house by the way. It attracts AND repels.
If people only knew how vital people like me were to their survival, they’d wake right up if only for a second. They’d have to or they would die. I will explain this someday and you’ll see I’m right.
I am fortunate for my sister who states it very plainly regarding our childhood. “Without you we’d have all be dead.” I don’t have anything to say about that except she is right.
12 Responses to “Shocking But Sadly True…”
I’ve certainly had false friends over the years who have only been revealed s such much later. Because these had been close friendships the betrayal has felt excruciating.
Very sorry to hear that you’ve been profoundly let down like this so often Elsa. 
Coming over to say that I wasn’t repulsed by your telling of this story, but read it at the end of a long day. It is stunning to see such a dramatic shift.
I have a similar dynamic but nothing so dramatic. I think maybe for me it’s because I am willing to be both madonna and whore but not one or the other. Some people don’t like having that dichotemy integrated. It took several years for my first husband to start to hate me and a few more after that before I left.
It seems to me that the people who make it past that point for you are the ones who’s friendships and relationships with you become forged steel.
p.s. I wasn’t offended at your use of a shocking word. I was horrified that anyone ever said it and images of your beautiful children and beautiful children of all sorts of ethnic backgrounds started playing through my head. How could anyone say that word about anyone much less a child. I’m sorry. What happened after that?
I am curious about the 8th house aspect. I experience this a lot, actually, though more online than in person, and I have a pretty heavy 8th house. (I think — if I’m remembering my chart properly. 8th house = other people’s resources, right? I’m always finding that people just give me things, or do things for me without me asking, and it unnerves me — and kind of repulses me at times, because I start to wonder what they want in return, and know they aren’t going to get it, which will lead to the boomerang effect of them suddenly hating me.)
Did you leave immediately? I would expect so but wondered if he backpedalled or otherwise put up a fog machine to confuse.
Lupa… um, yes and I was very embarrassed. I had like a 2 month marriage, it was quite incredible but I’ll tell you exactly how I thought about it at the time.
“I either stay 3 years so this looks good on paper or I get the fuck out.”
I opted for the latter after I tested him by coming home with a pair of blue suede shoes with the Leaning Tower Of Pisa on the heel.
He also wanted me to wear suntan panti-hose - in short he wanted a white woman so why the fuck did he marry me?
This is one of cases I refer to in the old video about people who marry you when they don’t even like you.
In whatever case this is a freakishly good story. It is a wonderful story and I wish I had time to tell these stories but… duty calls!!
I was married for a week and a half once. (Personally I don’t even know if these should count? ) It just wasn’t what I thought union was. He said he’d marry me a 1,000 more times and went through a saturn square (7 years) of therapies of various flavors. But the truth of any ‘matter’ is that anger at self is not going to be solved until you resolve who your true self truly is.
Oh, yes, I’m familiar. So far there’s been twice in my life that I’ve been abandoned en masse: the first when I was seven and every single person I knew that wasn’t family refused to talk to me, the second now (30-31), when every FTF friend I thought I had, save two, went with the ex. Besides losing the love of my life (I think he was, at least), I lost one friend of 17 years and a bunch more of almost a decade… It’s been a rough nine months. :/
But, apparently, I’m never what I seem and I’ve come to realize that people just throw whatever they want to see on me and apparently it sticks. So, whatever… Tired of wasting my energy trying to correct it. (Unless they’re right and I’m wrong? See why I’m in therapy?? *lol*)
Sun-Saturn trine Neptune, Pisces MC, and chart-ruler Moon in 7th or 8th, depending. I’m screwed! 
Oh, hey! Is there some silly-ass transit that comes around every, oh… twenty-four years or so, so that next time I’ll be prepared for this BS? *big silly grin*
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