“…And the things I do, I do them blind or at least partially so. Like I post something like that on facebook, it would be for deliberate purpose if it were someone else but for me it is an impulse. It is pure expression of Mars conjunct Mercury in the 9th house. It is my nature to throw dice, think later?

But behind that is a subconscious driving so I wind up doing things for reasons I do not understand and I frequently don’t understand them for 10 or more years!! That is a long bet. I don’t know that I have ever figured anything out any quicker (consciously) so I just go from one thing to the next to the next not knowing why.

I have written over 12,000 blog posts! I have written a book, busted my ass on it, 600 pages long and have no care one way or the other if it is ever published. I mean, I wrote it but I don’t know why. How would I? 10 years have not passed yet…”