*hug*

Oh Elsa. This is the first I knew of your daughter’s death. I’m so sorry for your loss. There are no words.

Elsa is a celebrity as well as a human being. She chooses what she will and will not publicize as well as when, and why and how. Others should not try to take the power of choice away from her and force a private, and this IS a private, matter.

I have to disagree here and say, curiosity and admiration are no reason to disrespect a person’s privacy. Deepest regards and I’m very sorry to learn that your child has passed away, and I do thank you for sharing this with us - strangers, admirers, and friends.

((Elsa)).

*retypes*

This made me ANGRY. I find it shocking.. unbelievable and sick. Curiosity and nosiness does not justify excavating anothers pain. Everyone KNOWS that Elsa has chosen not to discuss details, so how about a bit of respect.

This must have been so painful Elsa. I’m so sorry that someone would do this ((Elsa))

God, Elsa. I’m unspeakably sorry for your loss.

I am sorry -
Doesn’t surprise me though, the way people are

I am so very sorry for your loss.

- One who is too wise an observer of the business of others, like one who is too curious in observing the labor of bees, will often be stung for his curiosity -

My daughter is not dead.

i figured that’s why they wouldn’t find it. but still.

I am the person. And I don’t see it as pulling shit on any one - that is one take on it and I can see if you view life that way that it is seen as shitty to wonder what happened.

I wrote to Elsa to explain my motivation as it were. I see a lot of judgement here and it is all based on the thought that it is morbid curiosity. Not the case. I would assume then that anyone who is slightly curious about the spate of deaths around us in the world this past couple of weeks (Ed McMahon, Farrah Fawcett, Michael Jackson, Billy Mays, Carl Malden), etc. and went online to read an article or obituary was also just a morbid MF? No, the PERSON had some impact on their/your/mine’s life and we are compelled (at lease I am with all my Scorpionic/Pluto planets) to find out what the heck happened.

For those who weren’t aware of me which I’m sure is plenty of you, I visited here on Elsa’s blog a year or so ago for a couple of months and due to my own life events was absent for awhile. When I was here before Elsa’s lovely daughter Mosta & her illness was a topic of Elsa’s blogging & the collective conversation. When I came back Mosta was ‘gone’ from Elsa. I had conversed a bit privately with Elsa about Mosta back before. This time, I did not wish to open a wound or appear to be too nosey about her life, but since she was speaking as if things were past tense, I did a search. Why? Because although I don’t know Elsa in person, I find her to be a beautiful human being and one who I can ’sinc’ with on many levels. And, if she was hurting because her daughter might have passed? Then I wanted to be supportive to her. Not hurt her. It was not my intention to be hurtful and I’m sorry that the only response the majority can come up with is that the only reason someone would look for this information behind the scenes rather than openly & possibly open a wound would be to satisfy morbid curiousity. No, I wanted to know so that if that were the case I might offer some comfort. Mari & Chris & Elsa herself after I explained are the only ones who seemed to get that it might not be with some evil, nosey intent.

Peace out people. Peace out. EVERYONE is not a boogey man out to steal people’s essence or to swirl up their atmosphere in a bad way! Some times you just want to know without ripping off a possible scab so that you can offer COMFORT and loving SUPPORT.

Elsa I think my response to this went in the trash?

I’ll try to recreate it -

No problem Elsa. Just me trying to own up to my own life choices. Part of what I have to work out in this lifetime. Packed first house and whatever other astrological events have made me feel misunderstood in group situations throughout my lifetime. Now trying to live by my own lights so to speak and be willing to be my ‘whole’ self out in public for the world to see - pimples, butt blisters and all!

I think that in the blogging arena we are all cryptic writers. Whether we choose to omit things, others are blind, or we think they can just SEE it because we do, or if someone shows up halfway through something, sometimes we don’t have all the pieces of the puzzle. And I am sure that I don’t always GET what is going on. Especially in the amazing life puzzle of you. I applaud your ability to put your life details out here. Not something I would be totally comfortable doing (that’s all the Scorpionic privacy issues, yes?). For whatever reasons sometimes it is ‘code’ when I read your stories. And you know enough about the Scorpionic need to ‘decode’ it to understand me. I think you and I are good with our motivations. I believe that is the case.

Thank you for the glimpses. It is helpful, and that is why I am here when I can be.

Thank you, cherie.

People who can recognize things are highly prized by me

Huge Hug!! AMEN!

I also wanted to say, re: Michael Jackson, I think of those mothers. The whole internet goes to look at death pictures… David Carradine and somewhere out there, the mother knows it.

This is the kind of thing I meant to invoke when I wrote this. I was trying to share (or expose) what happens in the dark, a mother mourning.

A good portion of this blog is devoted to things secret or taboo and this is another area like that.

You know, Paris Hilton writes on her twitter about what party she is going to go to and I do not begrudge her that. In fact I admire Paris Hilton for being a true original but I write about this other stuff.

I write about the stuff that goes on that is very painful that people try to act like does not go on and I do it for the other people like me who live and work in their own dirty grave. Most of them don’t have a megaphone like I do, so….

I read this and thought, “Huh, maybe they are all, “I missed the announcement?” and were looking just for clarification.

*shrug* Who knows, really though. But I can see why they might be confused. People generally don’t get the concept of “gone” when someone is technically still alive. I would talk about my dad in the past tense while he was still alive (well, yes, he used to like sports, but now he’s in a bed kinda catatonic…) and no doubt, that is confusing to people.