maureen wrote on Attention Seeking Behavior:

“I don’t know how you do it Elsa, but I’m grateful the universal tides bring you back to shore again and again.”

I don’t do it by any special effort, it’s a rhythm that is somehow innate, in or around me. I have made a (successful) effort in getting a thicker skin but it took years. I have also learned to defend this blog as if it were my home (or my bar) and this has helped too.

I think there is something about my energy that makes it very easy to use. There is a lot of it for one thing and it seems readily adaptable. It is is also unique and it comes from the dark (the 8th) not the light.

My fan club is a dark for the most part. Subconsciously many people root for my suffering and demise in some form as I never actually go down and they like my creative output during periods. In short, my pain makes a meal.

I don’t think there is anything wrong with this. I am waitress in every way shape and form, one who shows up for work regardless. What I object to and find highly offensive is the denial of this service and that part is is probably not personal to me.

Most agree that people have developed a profound sense of entitlement and they are probably not going to lose it until the water to their well run dry.

That this will happen seems inevitable to me but when this will happen is up to the fates.