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Astrology Blogging… Faith And Destiny
Astrology in real life
You may wonder why I write this stuff down, why I tell you these stories or you may know depending on who you are. I write and write and write and I do it for a lot of reasons. For one I feel compelled. I feel compelled to share and to give but like I stated in that video a few days ago, I understand that just because I think something is a gift does not mean other people agree.
Surely there are large numbers who DO NOT agree and of the people who DO agree, I have no way of knowing what posts they like or value.
To make it even more confusing, the chance that rather someone is getting what I think I am giving by writing something is yet another variable. I think it’s and obvious apple, they think it’s an obvious orange and I am unlikely to know one way or the other.
That life is complex like this makes it life but if you are me and you opt to do this all day, you have got to have tremendous faith. I am talking faith of the first order because what else could have sustained me all these years?
It bothers me sometimes that my meaning or my motive is misconstrued when it is so crystallized on my end. I wish I could be seen better than I am but I’ve got this destiny, see?
I’ve just got to stand here and light these matches and just hope you can get a glimpse of what I do.
46 Responses to “Astrology Blogging… Faith And Destiny”
Well now, Loon you just made my point. 
I stated in plain language, my reality (that I ripped from my guts) and you came back to discount it and offer an alternative me, who I don’t even recognize.
What is most incredible is the possibility that you might think your version is more accurate than mine, in spite of my decades of introspection and this is the phenomena I reference.
Don’t get me wrong, I realize what you wrote is flattering, I just don;t relate to it. My version of me is up above and I cried about 3000 tears to write so I’m pretty sure about this.
Plus, Saturn is what crystallizes things and I’ve got plenty of that.
That my crystal is ethereal does not mean it is not crystal. It just means you can’t see that it is crystal and that is why I wrote this post.
(((elsa))) I like you. And now I’m thinking of this:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7VJPgx1GGho
I love Freddy Mercury. He was a beautiful soul, and so are you.
This really resonated with me.
“What is most incredible is the possibility that you might think your version is more accurate than mine, in spite of my decades of introspection and this is the phenomena I reference.”
I can relate and have much empathy.
When you say you shine a light do you mean you feel you have unique knowledge above and beyond most others and have a compulsion to show others the way and the light?
Is it possible, and I hope you understand I am only asking a question here, that the one most fooled and confused is yourself?
“I think it’s and obvious apple, they think it’s an obvious orange and I am unlikely to know one way or the other.”
That must be frustrating. It’s like people are reading your words at the bottom of a bowl of water.
“It bothers me sometimes that my meaning or my motive is misconstrued when it is so crystallized on my end. I wish I could be seen better than I am”
I think I might be guilty of misconstruing many times but I have no idea how to “fix” this if I am misconstruing. Actually I don’t even know if I am misconstruing unless I receive a reply comment to my comment that says so.
I skip a lot of blog posts here because they are clearly very personal and I haven’t been following from day one to be able to relate or get the full picture. But I thoroughly enjoy and am grateful for all the “astrology lesson”-type posts. I understand the compulsion to write and the faith involved. I feel the same way about my diary-writing and blogging which I have been doing for 20+ years which has sustained me too.
Yeah. Truth isn’t absolute or universal.
And that’s what’s great about it — it has to be selectively decoded.
It’s basically a code language between kindreds.
And only the kindreds will be able to pick up on your frequency — although others can eavesdrop and get some superficial knowledge.
But they are not the essential ones you are writing for.
You are writing for the kindreds who will see certain blogs as signposts.
And they will be compelled to live or die because of them on certain crucial days of their lives. .
I know my life has been saved by “kindreds” whose words I’ve read in poems or literature on the right day. There have been days when I think I really want to just walk, and walk …into the ocean and just not come back …and then there will be some sentence I read from an author I love and I think “Thank you for living and writing your truth so that I, a stranger, could perceive it and live.”
Others could read the same passage and throw it in the garbage, laugh, or puke.
And sometimes I’ve read the passage before and didn’t even see that truth — because revelation is part magic and timing and chemistry, and the function of everyone adhering to their own energies and instinct.
So yeah, if you agree to be an agent like that and practice an intuitive art that plugs into Universal Rhythm then all you’ve to run on sometimes are the vapors of faith and destiny.
…Faith that what your eyes have seen means something…and you’re going to tell it so that your kindreds who come after you will know they are not alone and they can live.
This may not be part of what you are referring to, but I think this is part of a writer’s life– the gulf between what you mean, what you write, and what the audience/reader thinks you are saying.
Some people will always get you; some never will; some, some of the time–
But everyone thinks they do unless the person says NO that’s not it. And even then…
Some posts feel clear to me. Sometimes it feels like “code” and it’s clear it’s only part of a larger story. Actually, all of it feels that way so never mind.
I’m rambling here but the word “glimpse” is a good word that you use–
If people disagree with your PERSONAL account then they need to get a life, really. I mean, when you overhear a conversation at a coffee shop between two people, and let’s say you disagree with one of them, do you just jump in and say “hey, you’re wrong because you know, I know,even though I wasn’t there and this is a personal issue!”
Please-most blogs are personal, and if they’re any good then they have strong opinions behind them (and strong opinions always create strong oppositions) and if someone feels so strongly to disagree with yours, then they can read another one-or start their own if the really do have the conviction. This happens to me when I write things publicly- I get weird reactions from people, but none of these people start their own blogs or show people what they’re doing with their creativity! So you’re gonna give negative comments and have no projects to back it up? Please! And there’s also a way to disagree-politely for the sake of debate or to just you know, scroll down or close the tab and go read something else.
I know this blog is real because it’s been hard-hitting enough to change me. I wonder if part of the reason people feel the need to get angry at it is because they’re afraid of emotions or the deeper layers of things, which can be god forbid, darker. But you have to go there to know where your place is or you wander through life not reaching your full potential, whether knowingly or not. So if people feel the need to harp on something, they’re most likely afraid that you approach the rawer side of things. You know, 8th house stuff, and then you add Neptune to that and then people think you’re all kinds of crazy because they’re too busy solidifying their egoic identities.
When you mention people who just disagree with you on this blog, it reminds me of moments in my own life when my emotional account is thrown in my face for the sake of some rational account, as if disavowing sensitivity gets anyone anywhere near a full picture of situations. Like yeah, we have this full range of human emotion, much of which is given to us as a SURVIVAL tactic, but it’s “wrong” to approach life from them???!
I don’t even know the issue, and I’m rambling—but my intuition tells me people who insist on telling you you’re wrong are not very intuitive themselves. And the personal stories teach me a lot about things- the ones about the soldier help me remember that love exists, the ones about Harry and freedom-very important-there’s a lot to learn here.
holy shit i didnt realize i wrote so much! uh-oops lol.
“Is it possible, and I hope you understand I am only asking a question here, that the one most fooled and confused is yourself?”
Of course.
But this smacks more the stories I just told, for example, the man who thought I was a bad mother for leaving my two kids at home while I went to work. I told him I did not have kids and he did not believe me.
You see? His reality was realer than mine even though there was nothing real about it. Or if someone thinks I am “Akexa” and projects all kinds of stuff onto me… same thing.
moonpluto - the “code” I write is a problem, however it I explain everything it does two things.
One, my writing is no longer imbued but worse it insults the intelligence of the people who can take things from it, sort of like writing a poem and then explaining it. This is very dicey proposition.
Oddly enough there is also this pedestrian thing called “time”. I just don’t have the time to explain everything to everyone.
I’ve also noticed an interesting phenomenon on here- people feel the need to coddle you based on a misunderstanding of who you are. It’s odd. It’s like you say thing A and then they come back with a response to thing B and some kind of assurance which is more about feeding their own need–
Hmm, it’s like folks want to take care of you in this very particular way which has little to do with your actual self or what you say, clearly, that you want.
Maybe I’ve just described how “projection” works–
But talking about perception is a hall of mirrors-
“When you say you shine a light do you mean you feel you have unique knowledge above and beyond most others and have a compulsion to show others the way and the light?”
No I don’t think or feel that what you describe is textbook Neptune on the midheaven. People think the person is some kind of messiah or the person thinks it themselves.
I don’t think I am a messiah. I think I am a hard working motherfucker. You have probably never met someone who works as hard as I do in your life.
moonpluto, you seem to have a very clear view on this. I do write in code… it’s a problem and it’s long-standing. It used to be much, much worse. Oddly enough I like my writing from back then but of course I speak my own language.
During Saturn’s transit of 6th (Virgo / Mercury) house, I have to decode my writing and make a book. Talk about suffering.
Saturn’s transit through Virgo bring more of the same and next it will be Saturn’s transit to natal Mercury so I am not getting out of this anytime soon.
Anyway, the stuff is in the writing whether a person realizes it or not. There is a benefit to reading here which is why people do… even the ones who seemingly do nothing but complain and criticize.
On that note, I am glad / grateful there is this ethereal (Neptune) barrier (Saturn) here because if I had to be a room with them, I don’t think I could stand it. I’d just have to get up and go home is all.
And to add another layer: when certain people misunderstand you, in terms of who they think you are, or what they think you need, i don’t think it’s even your writing for the most part that is at “fault” or that the “code” is at fault — (there’s AT LEAST two issues going on here)
I believe there are cultural assumptions regarding what people (supposedly) need or what women need or what someone they love needs (and I am making the leap that people who read here a lot have love for you) and people never stop to realize that hey… not everyone wants the same thing. Not all women want the same thing.
Readers do get stuff, they absorb. They may not know what they get. They may not “like” it but it feeds them, they return, they think they know you, they comment, it makes no sense, the cycle continues…
and i don’t mean to sound critical of others (i have a lot of Virgo in my chart) — just trying to understand something i’ve observed, trying to make sense of it
moon pluto - just feedback on what you’ve written here, I’m not picking up criticism at all. It’s just like you say, you are trying to put words to your feelings and perceptions and this is what is coming across.
I think the problem with blogs is that we give an entirely myopic picture of what’s going on behind the screen.
Follow me here: I have a blog on LiveJournal. But I’m a Pisces with my moon in Leo and my Mars in Aries. I tend to only journal about my boyfriend when I’m pissed off and have no one to bitch to.
Thusly, the impression folks get about the boyfriend is that he’s an asshole with no feelings for anyone but himself. Because that’s my meaning when I’m pissed off.
Am I giving them a clear picture of who he is the other 90% of the time? No. This dick-headed person is not ALL he’s comprised of, now, is it? No.
But that’s MY fault, because that’s the slant I choose to take.
Then I get irritated with people when they tell me he’s an asshole and to shove him out the door. “You don’t GET IT. He’s NOT a complete asshole! That’s bad advice!”, I’ll say, which further makes me (with my moon in Leo and my Mars in Aries) look like a woman that takes crap she shouldn’t!
Long story even longer to get to my point, I think the issue is that the ONLY thing people get about what you’re saying is EXACTLY what you’ve said - no more and no less.
I wasn’t trying to desrcibe Neptune on the MC, and certainly not as textbook, which I feel does more to mislead than enlighten anyway, I was merely asking a question.
For the record everyone feels misundertood, at least at some point. I am sure you know that.
Being an island my whole life I do relate to being misunderstood.
So many today describe themselves as creative, unique, victimized, deserving of so much more, is this truth or narcissism?
Elsa,
I get it. Light your matches. It’s the striking that makes it faith. Many people come to read by your “match light” and everyone sits by the fire in a different “seat.”
I get it. Your destiny is to KEEP striking the matches. I have come to understand destiny as taking dictation and I’m the one listening.
Strike on, Elsa.
SkyPie, when someone looks at you and tells you that you have children and further that you neglect them when you have never had a baby in your life, this goes waaay beyond “misunderstanding”.
When you look right at the person and say, “I don’t have any children,” and they continue to believe their myth - also beyond misunderstanding.
6 months later when they insist, ‘Elsa has kids she just says she doesn’t…”
Well, I don’t know what the hell that is other than a profound delusional, hopeless to try to combat.
It’s like telling a schizophrenic there are no snakes under the bed when they think there are snakes under the bed. It is not only pointless, it is potentially dangerous.
Much better you just leave them with their snakes and go about your life.
“I stated in plain language, my reality (that I ripped from my guts) and you came back to discount it and offer an alternative me, who I don’t even recognize.
What is most incredible is the possibility that you might think your version is more accurate than mine, in spite of my decades of introspection and this is the phenomena I reference.”
Even when evaluating ourselves the truth still resides with perception! So my take on who you are is just as real as your own take on yourself. Not only that but we might share the same beliefs yet not be successful in conveying this to one another. Meaning, you might be confused as to what I really believe regardless of what I type in a post.
As for the gentleman who thought you had children well that is a different thing altogether. You IN FACT did not have children.
I just posted a reply that hasn’t shown up. Too irritating to rewrite.
What I will say again is that what the gentleman in your past said is entirely different than being misunderstood in your blog. You in FACT did not have children.
Should my post turn up in the filter I would appreciate it if you would post it. I typed before your most recent reply.
Thank you akasally. I Lovvvvvvvvvvvve you for saying that - thank you.
Yes, I have to light the matches, even people don’t think they are matches and even if the fact I think they are matches is an error, I have still got to light them so I do.
And SkyPie, I am not surprised you are an island because you beat the shit out of people, do you realize?
I say so because I am fixing to defend myself (by breaking off of course).
Elsa by being an island I do not mean I have no friends.
See you think you are misunderstood yet look at what you just wrote.
“I say so because I am fixing to defend myself (by breaking off of course).”
Of course!
Like I said in a previous post few people really want the truth; what they want is to be charmed.
Elsa, I just read your comment to what I posted under comments. If I made your point, OK whatever. Truth be told, your response to me lost me, and now in the larger context, this whole topic has lost me, I can’t keep up with this discussion I guess it is either over my head…or something.
I hope I’m not being obtuse, but this is my truth: The part of me that feels so separate, so misunderstood, or confused beyond all reason, the part of me that yearns for more than any one human being can reflect back, is the part of me that talks with God, higher power, what have you.
Whenever I read the blog posts/comments here I always assume there is a fuller person I don’t see. It’s not always easy. My faith is fired up on all cylinders when I visit here, that’s for sure.
Just read it again, trying to “get” it. My only other comment is that I would NEVER think “my version” of anyone elses “reality” is more accurate than that persons own version. However, I do think that there are people outside of us who might see things about ourselves that are true, but we don’t see them (because, as a rule, we will never be completely objective about ourselves.)
What did I get so wrong anyway? That you are creative? You don’t see that? That you have a lot of cardinal energy? I have read enough of your posts on various places to indicate a FACT that you have a lot of cardinal energy! I guess what I got wrong was my suggestion that you are a flexible person? That has to be it because that is the only thing left. Sorry about that then!
Those matches have lit my way many a time.. I’m so glad you do what you do.. despite much.
.. and grateful!
Loon, you’ve got no reason to apologize. There is nothing wrong with what you wrote. It’s just that I was trying to say something there… something that came from SOOOOOOOOO deep inside me and yours, the first response invalidated it. In short you overrode my reality with yours.
It sort of like someone who makes a movie or writes and song and they try to tell you why or how or just something about what they are doing but no one will listen. They will not internalize what is said and it’s painful (in a Neptune way) because the words I wrote were so true and meaningful to me.
I sobbed to write that thing and look at this.
Thank God, Dora has been vomiting all day. She doesn’t mind and it gives me something mundane to do. I have to clean up dog vomit, so I’ll do that while people debate whether I am a messiah, think I am a messiah, whether I am a narcissist or whatever else may come to mind.
The reality is, I work very hard her. I try and I lay claim to nothing more.
Thanks, G.
For some reason this is triggering the feeling I had when I first got a look at my own chart. I was stunned/relieved/enraged by the amount of squares and oppositions. I am one big square living in a round universe. And when people understand this about me, I feel even squarer. The ultimate irony.
aw…(((little d)))
maureen that’s weird! i just (like, a minute ago, by conversing on a thread on the board) realized that i have 4 T-squares (2 fixed, 2 cardinal) and now i feel a bit weird about that. maybe i’ll ignore the one that has a 9 degree orb (my chiron/saturn/uranus) and keep myself more simple, i feel too complicated as it is:)
Elsa, As to your analogy about the songwriting:
As a songwriter I have no particular commitment to how anyone will react to my songs. It is not necessary to me that they get the (one and only?)message out of the song that I was intending to convey, even if I bleed and sob my damn heart out writing the song. Once the project is done, it is out of my hands.
Maybe the public enjoys the song … but some get an entirely different message from it then the one that I had intended! Hey, I think that’s great! Why in the hell sould that bother me? I write for myself, nd people like my songs for whatever reason, hate them for whatever reason, or are indifferent for any reason. I don’t control that and I can’t see why anyone would want to.
Elsa, I could not possibly override your reality with my own, and I could not possibly invalidate your reality, it’s impossible!
Anyway, since I did not intentionally go out to fuck you over, I would have felt sufficiently scolded if you just said “Loons, that is not the way I see myself.” What you added this:…
(…”what is more incredible is the possibility you might think your version is more accurate than mine…”)
what the fuck? That came across as pissed off all out of proportion, that’s for sure. And speaking of pissed, I don’t agree that skypie beats the shit out of people. I enjoy skypies contributions!
Perception, perception perception, we are all so different! Anyway, I wear my parachute 24/7, and my Pisces energy is very intuitive. I have just rechecked all the clasps, I mean, after all, I have even jumped out of perfectly good airplanes.. its easy!
Loon, I am sorry you thought I was pissed off out of all proportion, because I did not feel that way when I responded to you. Weary. That’s how I felt. Drained. Dissipated and the like.
As for skypie, she beats the shit out of me on a daily basis… this is and has my perception.
I have hoped she would relent, I no longer think she will but it doesn’t matter as I have paid my last dime to the cause.
a gift and god-given, yes
…i may or may not know your truth, elsa, but for sure, you bring me closer to my own
and i think that’s what you’re all about…
Er.. what I mean is I have determined SkyPie is not someone I am going to be able to please or satisfy so I am going to quit expending energy in that direction. It is hopeless for me - I can’t do it.
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Ah Elsa, chrystallized?
Nah, I don’t think you have enough FIXED energy to be chrystallized, and I mean that as a major compliment.
With a fixed T square I could be guily of that but you?…………nah! You got all that Libra! And, You are so much more of a Flexible person than I am! At least that is the way I see You Anyway!
You speak of what has sustained you…
But Another thing that I think that has sustained you……
beyond your faith …. is your phenominal CREATIVITY and, never to forget, all your Cardinal energy!