Seems things have slowed down around here and I wish it wasn’t the case. Writing has just become really difficult for a myriad of reasons.

I finished up the consultation by email that I am going to post here today and I could not possibly have picked a more difficult chart. It’s a fairly brave thing to do - make your work available to the public to be scrutinized and whatever. I didn’t think about it much because I do this on other levels every day, but that was before I saw the towering challenge I faced when the gal’s chart popped up on screen.

I had a pretty smooth time with the charts in the astrology classes so I guess I expected this to be the same but it wasn’t. I groked the situation and thought it was a given I was going to die on stage. Whether via doing lousy work publicaly, by pissing off the client, by pissing off the audience, by pissing off potential future clients… one way or the other I was going to wind up hosed and you just ask yourself, why did I think to do this anyway? ‘Cause I’m stupid?

But I did think of it, I’d made a commitment so there was no option but to follow through and do the best I could and there are really a number of masters here.

First I have to help the client. That I give the woman something she can use is primary. Second, I have to maintain my integrity. If there is something difficult to say, I have to say it. Third, I have a responsibility to the audience here not to bore them. Fourth there is a time frame and it’s short. Does this sound like a tall order to you? Well it is.

Having no way out, I went to work. Sometimes I ask the universe to help me write to someone. I know what I have to say but ask for words the person will be able to receive and be able to internalize and apply. I sure did that this time because I was just boggled at the the job ahead of me, I wonder if you’ll be able to tell.

I think everything came out okay, much credit goes to the gal herself because as you’ll see she’s got extraordinary energy but I wonder if I went about this all wrong and that’s Saturn in Virgo part. I have to scrutinize my thinking.

I wonder if it was an error to call this an “consultation by email” as consultations should be private by their nature.
I wonder if I should have approached this like I did the charts in the classes - if that would have made a difference.

I definitely want to do this again so I want to figure this stuff out but it slows a person down. This is not lightweight thinking, at least not to me.

I will say it was hard but I am happy with how it turned out. Careful readers between the lines and intuitive people will get a lot out of the thing and I did wind up enjoying myself because the gal is just so bright. It was sort of a collateral benefit getting to interact with her… co-create you could say. This was new for me.

I wrote her this, “If the people on the blog flip out, just let them. You will have everything that will be posted in advance”.

We’re conspiring, see? We are conspiring to entertain you, help her and also show what I do and how I do it. But make no mistake this was work on the knife’s edge, especially considering the subject matter over the last few days which is the other thing I wanted to share with you.

All the drama on this blog synched up with the problems this woman is trying to resolve and I guess in conclusion, I’d just say that life is fantastically inspired and intricate but it sure is grueling to go through at times.

If anyone has thoughts about how I ought to frame this kind of work, I’d be happy to hear them. Might make more sense to get a load of the work though which is another thing.

Now I have to figure out how to best serve it because I have not posted anything like this before. Er… do I come up with a format? Make the format variable..?

I got news for people: This is not an easy job. I am glad for that but you know. I am also not getting much done and the reason is because I keep picking hard things to do. I am hoping next week is full of easy things to do but I am not holding my breath.