Snapdragon writes:

Can I ask you a question Elsa? Do you believe in Karma or anything of that sort? This is an actual question, not a lead in or anything…

I don’t think the word “karma”. I did not grow up with it so while I hear it all the time, it is not rooted in me. I occasionally use it on this blog but only when I am specifically asking about something someone asked me about where they used the word. I do believe in comeuppance though so if those words are interchangeable then fine.

What DO you put it down to? Have you made any kind of peace or come to any kind of decision as to why you guys separated?

I have no peace. He has peace to an extent but this is because he’s spent 30 years wrestling it and working it out. In contrast I have had 5. As far as what I put it down to… I have not put it down so I don’t know.

Also, I am wondering if you feel more fragile without the soldier around.

No, it’s the opposite. I trust him completely and I also trust his senses. I feel if I ever need him he will be there. Like Doc Holiday was for Wyatt Earp as he says. I don’t feel fragile at all.

You seem to have been a very strong woman throughout your whole life… you might surprise yourself and find the inner strength to be there for the ceremony. After all, isn’t he incredibly important to you, and wouldn’t you like to be able to remember things about the ceremony, for instance the look on his face? And your son(s ?) will be there, too…

No, I don’t really want to remember anything about the ceremony and probably won’t unless he makes me which he may. He may also see the direness of the situation and not bother with that. The important thing is that we marry and I imagine he will approach it as he would a mission. I sure hope he does as his missions tend to be successful.

Luckily for me he had no illusions. He knows exactly what a horror this is for me, it’s like Dora needing to get a shot or get in the bath. She doesn’t like that stuff and nothing you say is going to change her mind. How she got this way is irrelevant. She does not like shots and baths, she’s is not going to change her mind.

She does not need saved or changed about it, she just needs you to comprehend that if you plan to put her in a bath or give her a shot she is going to be shaken before, during and after and if you can’t deal with this you are probably not the man for Dora.

The soldier is the man for me so you know. We’ll muddle though and as for my son (and his) we are both very open / candid with them so this is all nothing / normal to us. All of us really know how to love so this stuff is just… it’s nothin’.

I put up with his threats to break necks 30 times a day don’t I?

::rolls eyes::

Thanks for these questions, Snapdragon.