Open Question: Your Experiences Going Into The Full Moon - Post ‘Em Here
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There is a lot of chaos. I saw the soldier today but only for about an hour and he was gone down the road.
I have found a therapist for Vid and I.
I have lost all my creativity, spilled (happy) tears during a consultation only to turn around and feel another person’s anguish a few hours later.
I have had about 100 revelations and you may notice the Mechanic did something and now this site is FAAAAAAST!
I am coming to accept a host of things. The process is like having a barrel concrete set… slow but permanent. Lucky for me I’m okay with the things caught in the barrel. My thought it, “Oh well.”
I am stunned and disturbed by the depth of the things I seem to understand these days. I think this is a function of Pluto now transiting my 12th house because it’s very feels like this is what happens after your all your hopes and dreams are wiped out. I mean you’d have to lose all those things to get to here.
Pluto going into the 12th feels as if I’m going into a dozen years of end game quite knowingly. I think it’s trecherous ahead but feel safe anyway and think this is a hell of a trick with no idea who or what to attribute it to.
I am more aware then ever how intricate and beautiful the universe is and I am almost starting to like being here even though it hurts like hell so much of the time. I like to witness for some reason. It seems important. My gmail has not worked well for 2 days.
Your turn.
44 Responses to “Open Question: Your Experiences Going Into The Full Moon - Post ‘Em Here”
Pluto in the 12th regenerated my creativity, big time, but not until it had been there for a while. I had to go through an OCD workaholic phase for a while haha.
Messed up my sleeping dreams; couldn’t remember them.
I’m a homebody; became more so.
…the whole chronic illness thing. 
I can usually suss people out pretty good b/c of my Mercury - people’s motivations became even more transparent.
I don’t know what else yet.
I like being here too but lately I have been wondering why am I here hahaha.
i’m seeing a lot of piscean sorts being backed into corners and compelled to assert themselves.
not just me.
but it’s a useful lesson. don’t wait so long…
almost everything i touch has broken for the last week. my car, my roomba, my computer, my keyboard, my mouse, my business billing software, my forums. email in particular has been totally unpredicatable.
i also have some circumstances in the background that could profoundly change my life for the next decade and, to some extent, forever. i have no idea which way it will go, when it will go down or how. but i’m thinking i’ll have virtually no warning when it materializes either way.
i have no idea what anything means and am confused as hell. and my friends aren’t faring too much better, but everybody is doing what they need to regardless.
I seem to be having this compulsive need to touch base and connect with people. Usually a loner, I can’t stand to be in the house any longer than I need to. I am up for change and as much as I can get. Feeling like the Duracell bunny with wrinkles and hot flushes! Don’t know what the hell has got into me, need to stop taking the ginseng with my hot chocolate I think - too much stimulation!!
My head has been massively hurting all day and I am the kind of person who very rarely gets headaches.
I feel confused, too. One minute I feel like I need to “fight” to fix certain things in my life, the next minute I feel like it’s all taught me a lot of lessons and that I should just let go. That I should clear my heart of the regret and just go on the next chapter of my life.
Also, this whole full moon thing… I’ve been really paranoid about (big) earthquakes for the past couple of nights…
(I was only 10 when we had our last “big” earthquake (Northridge) but that I was not able to sleep and in fact, was crying for no apparent reason… so these weird feelings these last few days have been scaring me.)
it is fast!
I’m getting ready for the impending onslaught– at work, where people are on the warpath, jockeying for position and power, the holidays and LOTS of short distance (100 miles) travelling every few days for the next month. I feel like I’m one of those acrobats balancing on a big ball. I’m feeling positive, though, about getting and keeping it all together.
Had no idea a Wii was so hard to find. Didn’t really even know what it was until the other week. :sigh:
My kid went in for an MRI w/contrast today for a mystery lump on her spine. Even if things come out okay, and I’m pretty confident they will, just the experience of having your child go through fear and pain and handle it better than you do is at the very least humbling. Worst-case scenario is that it’s bad and will require treatment at a level I’m not prepared to face. And she’ll do it bravely, and it will knock everyone’s socks off. Best case, she’ll need minor surgery and it won’t be a big deal. Still, there’s the threat of loss and it just makes everything else in life retreat because it simply isn’t that important.
I took the day off for this medical thing and checked my work email tonight… and another department is offering me a job now that this long-term person is leaving and they thought I would be perfect for it. Any other day, this would be the headline, but I don’t even have the stomach to consider it right now.
Shit dell! (((del!!)))
I’m so sorry Del.
Gun shots in my neighborhood for the second time in a few days. Hoping the prospective new landlord approves our application and afraid of the juggle that will be involved if we do get that house. Feeling my commitment deepen in my relationship as well as other areas of my life while also having more freedom than I’ve ever had.
Del- Something like this would make me feel really wobbly too. I am sending you some positive energy. Please keep us posted.
Thank you. I’m really scared and can’t tell anyone else but you guys.
Lupa, here’s hoping you get out and as soon as possible!
goddess- I would send you more goofy jokes and weird sayings to use in unusual situations if you think it would help.
Lynn- I have been having a compulsion to call people that I have not talked with in a long time. It has been like a bug in my ear for weeks, and today I did a very Virgo thing and made a list and a Capricorn practical thing and started calling one by one. I’m on to something now and there is no stopping me.
This was beautiful this last part:
“I am more aware then ever how intricate and beautiful the universe is and I am almost starting to like being here even though it hurts like hell so much of the time. I like to witness for some reason. It seems important. My gmail has not worked well for 2 days.”
It IS important.
B
Fighting off the Migraine..
Very tired finally. Still painting the back room just a few more touches..
Moved my glass table back into the room..
Took Nana for her eye apointment today. Slight change in her reading vision but not enough to warrant getting new glasses. I decorated her room at the assisted living center put up her trees and noticed the only Christmas stuff she saved was stuff her and I made as Handicrafts over the years. She threw out all of the store bought stuff. She is quiet and I miss the days when she used to talk a lot.
I think about all the stories she told me about the great depression and I am applying her money saving tips now with my own very long layoff.
She was watching the news and once again said “Jackassess you think they would have learned from the Depression”…She knodded her head and took a bite out of her Long John Silvers Fish..Then she reached in her pocket and handed me a butterscotch…I love my Nanna..
Del sorry to hear about your child.
My cousin had a growth like that and so did my mother. In both cases the DR’s said they were large fat growths. My mother is stubborn, she insisted on having hers removed in the office under a local. The Indian DR. said your mother is a very stubborn woman. I said I know !
Hopefully everything will be fine. My cousin went to a special nutritionist after her surgery and changed her diet. We are big vitamin takers even Nanna and she is 101..
I am consciously trying to stop being so defensive, and find when I do that what I really need out of any given situation seems to come to me. I believe this may be the legacy left behind for me by Pluto’s transit through Sag.
It’s been wierd. I’ve been struggling to communicate (tough on a Gemini), whacked out trying to control everything, especially at work, and up until this past Sunday, my house always seemed to be in a state of chaos as a result. I started tackling stuff I’ve been putting off, and felt stronger. I am sensing how much people need me. My stressed out boss called out of the blue before work today (so uncharacteristic) with a nebulous request, and what I sensed is that he really just needed my support. My 71 year old mom called me at work today (so uncharacteristic) with a nebulous request, and she sounded tired and sick with a cold. I sensed that what she really needed was connection. Pluto has moved into my 4th house (home), where I have natal Saturn in Capricorn. Cancer’s on my midheaven in the 10th house (work). I know many changes are ahead, but I don’t know what they are.
I am letting go and hanging on at the same time.
randamandar - I have Virgo/Capricorn strong but wish I was as organised as you. Just realised that although Christmas cards have been sent, presents have been received! Off to the Post Office again!
Maureen - connection seems to be a theme with me too. Mum (Cancer)on the midheaven - I think you are a very caring person anyway. Maybe not only to your Mum?
Del - “I’m really scared and can’t tell anyone else but you guys.” If you are letting it out in any way at least it may give you some peace in a small way. I hope so. You need to connect with your strength and this is a good way to do it.
Reality - like all Nana’s, they just love the stuff we made. They know all about us. It’s their pride. And when we get older we know just how precious that is.
Tonight I made a decision and found a measure of peace. Best of all, I think I figured out how to use today’s energy to get what I want. I feel more stable now than I’ve felt since my fiance kicked me out of our home last month.
I gots a plan, you guys! WOP-freakin’-HOP!
*hugs everyone who needs one*
I have a biopsy scheduled on Friday…several times I’ve had weird medical things happen, tests run and it’s always nothing (lots of Neptune). This time I’m not so sure. The last one was at the beginning of the Pluto transit to my Sun and I was all freaked out, now that Pluto has left my Sun, I’m not that bothered. I’ve learned a lot these past few years, Pluto will do that, and the main thing (thanks Elsa) is you can’t change the cards, only how you play them. So we’ll see what I get dealt Friday and pray for a quick fix.
Thanks Del and please know that we are all pulling for the best possible outcome for your daughter. Please let us know.
Del (((((((((Hugs))))))))) - jeez, to Lupa, Heather, Maureen, everyone who needs one.
Shit, I need one too. Having a full-on full moon freakout about a situation that totally blindsided me this weekend. Everything seems to be ending at once. Nothing like full moons and Pluto to induce fear of loss.
Maureen- That Saturn in Capricorn can be a real kick in the pants sometimes. I have that too. Thankfully, Uranus in Leo and Jupiter in Saggittarius will allow me to do an impersonation of Fred Astaires ’singing in the rain’ now and then.
Lynn- I need to be organized or my Libra planets will let me laze around, plus sometimes Neptune just imagines or visualizes how busy I am or could be.
I feel like one of those tops that you pump the knob and it spins, except that’s my head and I’m spinning too fast and not sure yet where I will stop or if I might just fall off into the abyss.
Other than that I’m pretty good 
Sending peace and love to all who need it.
Maureen- ‘I am letting go and hanging on at the same time.’ This just about says it all!
I guess I am just oblivious to this moon. Things have been pretty normal but then I haven’t been out much in the last few days. An old guy tried to pick me up and told me I have nice tits but that is pretty standard. Had to say no. I do not want to see his Saturn figure if you catch my drift.
Good vibes for you and your daughter Del.
I just feel very “mashed up” - like mashed potatoes. It’s all in there - everything I need, but I can’t seem to separate it out anymore. I’m merging my life with someone, which has never been easy for me. Trying to hang on to the things I need that feed me, often reshuffling them and dropping things I never thought I could. Get this sense I’m in an undertow, swirling around, and soon - hopefully - I’ll get back on my feet and orient myself and it’ll be a beautiful world. That part just takes some faith right now.
For the past few days: fear. It’s overwhelming and it’s about everything. As someone who generally doesn’t tend to fear much, it bothers me much.
For the past week: Dreams, big dreams. About war, me fighting against incoming hoards with nothing but pickles because no one on my team will give me a weapon to fight with. So I kiss them to shock them and while those pearly eyes are wide open, I shove acidic pickles in them…
Also, strangely overwhelming desire to procreate. May not be related.
Full moon will occur in my 7th.
Elsa - “Pluto going into the 12th feels as if I’m going into a dozen years of end game quite knowingly.”
I remember quite a while ago a post you did where you said if you want the answer go to the 12th house. Maybe you are getting the answers you need and a lot of the fear is now being transformed into emotional knowledge. Perhaps your awareness is now your companion on the ‘treacherous’ road ahead. I am so sorry it ‘hurts like hell most of the time’. My thoughts are with you.
oh, and the massive family drama, one set of kids that i can barely keep from descending into anarchy half the time and a coworker threatening suicide…
Everyone is extremely agitated, me included. I don’t know where to begin or what to do. However, I do think this might be good for sex. I think it might be a good outlet for the agression and agitation in the air.
dealing with my first adult ear infection. though most of the pain has diminished, i’m still deaf/ringing in one ear. increasingly impatient with my 8 month old’s cries in the middle of the night, even after a feeding. extremely tired. homesick. thought last night that if i died tomorrow i wouldn’t feel i was missing out on anything, which was somewhat depressing/refreshing/releasing for me.
I broke a tooth! Grrr… It’s stabbing my tongue. Thankfully the tooth itself isn’t painful but how’s that for a Saturn/Mercury issue.
Just got a book proposal negatively reviewed after several months delay. The thing is, it wasn’t the content of the book that was negatively reviewed but the way the proposal was presented… “The authors [of the essays in the collection] are organised alphabetically. I’ve never seen that before.”
Umm…?
a close hefriend (scorp sun-gem moon) was told that ’she (gemini wife of 10 years pis. moon) does not love him anymore’- divorce. we (our close group, friend, clan are all in shock)
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