The Moon crossed Pluto last night and I was surrounded by pregnant women, one of them clearly wanted to talk to me so I let her. She kept rubbing her stomach see. I ignored her because she wasn’t obviously pregnant and you know how that is. You don’t want to ask someone if they’re pregnant only to find out they are not. She eventually said, “this baby..”
“Oh, you’re pregnant?” I said. She was about 30. Maybe late 20’s… her man was sitting next to her.
“Yep and I sure hope I get to have this baby,” she said. “I am afraid I might lose this baby.”
“Really? You look pretty solidly pregnant to me. How pregnant are you?”
“Five months.”
“Well that’s pretty… your odds are very good at five months,” I said, sort of motherly. “The baby is usually okay…”
“Not for me,’ she said. She went on to explain it was her 8th pregnancy… with no live birth. Yep, I’ve have 6 miscarriages and one baby I carried until 6 1/2 months before something happened. She told me what happened in graphic detail.
“I am incredibly sorry,” I said. “I am so sorry.”
I had so many things going in my head, you wouldn’t believe it. Most prominent was this: “Screw you people who have children easily and then mistreat them.” It was all I could do not to cry.
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For her, maybe. For me it was losing a child… know all about it. Pluto Moon.
Plus there were 2 other pregnant women in the vicinity and the Moon crossing Pluto triggering the transit. I figure that girl was not going to have that baby. She was sure trying to stay safe about it. Said she didn’t want to know if it was a boy or a girl due all this.
She also said her sister had a similar problem - also no children so genetic? Or maybe sexual abuse, I didn’t ask and she didn’t say. She was just talking to me because I was a stranger, someone she’d never see again and lets face it, I am mother-y.
I really feel for her and for all women who are trying to have a child and cannot. I get angry like you Elsa about mistreated children. Last summer I was told I wouldn’t be able to have another child, I had just turned 40 and I have one child, a daughter that was born in 98. I was so distraught because they were telling me it was over I was too old and in my heart I felt like no I am supposed to have one more. I was sooo upset, then suprised when 3mo later I conceived my little boy.
I also have a client that has been trying to conceive for years and really want children. I saw her two weeks ago and she was 8wks pregnant with twins!!! I am soo happy for her it brought tears to my eyes.
It is hard when in your heart you really yearn for children and see women around you that just “fall” pregnant and they don’t really want the child. I don’t know this is something that perplexes me.
Once again Elsa comes out and says something that is bubbling under my surface. Big-time baby lust. Due to some lateness (later resolved), found out BF was not concerned at all, which is a dangerous attitude for me to be around in my current state. Ridiculous at my age and stage in life to even have these thoughts. Both of us wanted to have a happy family along with a good, deep relationship with our spouse– and neither of us ever had it, though we both had kids. I don’t know why it feels especially painful to want that with him–I guess it’s just the timing and feeling that I never got to have the experience of parenting with someone who was equally involved in it and he would have been so great. I bet it would have been a really happy experience for us to have together.
All of this is contrary to logic and reason and maybe we should think about being more careful.
I just hate these things in life that emotionally would make you so happy but logically make no sense.
My 5th house is Capricorn ruled starting at 15 degrees, looks like Jupiter recently entered it (like it says 17 degrees today)– maybe it’s that? BF’s 5th has Venus transiting. Maybe it’s the general atomosphere.
I hope that girl has her baby. 
And Mars is about to move into his 5th H too. What bad timing.
Hey Pixie, I can understand my situation is similar. My hubby and I both have children from previous relationships. I have been a single mom until we got together about 4 years. He is 8 years younger than me, I really wanted another he was not so sure as his daughter has special needs. My daughter just turned 10 and my boy will be 4 months on the 4th.
Oh wow, I can understand her feelings. I’ve tried for 7years to have a baby. I’ve had so many miscarriages I couldn’t even tell you the exact amount. The double digits is all I know. They finally found out after my last miscarriage what was wrong… and sadly it’s so simple to fix.
But I couldn’t imagine making it that far only to lose a child. I truly hope this time she makes it.
Having a natal pluto-moon square and being quite a long time into the transit of Pluto opposing my natal Moon, I feel I know well what it is like to ‘lose’ children.
While I have 2 daughters of my own,I’m also a Moon/Asc..so my life was filled with children that though I was not their biological mother, they felt as if they were mine, in large part due to absent parents. Even as a child I was ‘raising’ the children of others for one reason or another.
Yet there have always been obstacles to my being able to remain in their lives either consistently or in a manner I would choose, obstacles that have felt beyond my control, yet not a single child that I have ever had in my life has ever not been felt in my heart each and every moment of my days.
I read your Moon-Pluto posts Elsa, and I feel them too..and yet there is never anything I feel I can offer or say, other than I am sorry for your pain and losses.
~xxxxx~
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That is so awful. Poor woman/babies. Can this be Neptune direct - the veil lifting on sad things like this that people prefer to believe don’t exist?