Yes, I do - very much so. Now I’m worried! But this may be a good thing - as it might get me off my butt.

gosh, i am not entirely sure if i waste my talents. i want to say no, but i sure don’t feel like they’ve manifested into their potential at this point, either. you know? and i keep thinking, well, i’ll get there, i’ll do some more important and meaningful stuff, but for god’s sakes: i’m 43. so the question “when?” definitely comes to mind.

maybe i’ll try a little harder, man. wanna keep my karma clean.

I think that the pursuit many of my talents has been supplanted by specialization in others. parenthood, for example took over most of the resources of time and money that might have gone toward such things as music, art, dance, writing, athletics, academics. I utilize them to a smaller extent in parenting but they are certainly not fully developed. I can’t say I even do a stellar job at parenting, but that is the goal.

so many trines in my chart have many things easy for me to the extent that it makes it really difficult to decide which avenues to pursue and which to let slide. I always thought life would be simpler if I was just really good at one thing rather than being markedly competent at many. it does, however, weigh on me, making those choices to let some things fall by the wayside.

Oh boy, do I waste my talent. I’ve got a Mars-Neptune-Jupiter t-square, where Jupiter conjunct MC is the apex. I have serious problems staying disciplined. Whenever work gets tough, I procrastinate like nobody’s business. Pity, b/c Mars is also part of an Earth grand trine in my chart, so I should be able to work hard — which I do, but only when it’s not the important, anxiety-producing stuff that I really need to do in order to be successful in life. This is the great challenge of my middle age.

No — in fact, Jupiter conjunct MC should make success really easy. The problem is the t-square aspect, which is when two opposing planets square a third planet. This means my natal Mars-Neptune opposition, which makes me a real slacker type, debilitates my Jupiter’s ability to succeed. Ugh! Took me 40 years to figure this out. Still not sure exactly how to change its effect.

I can relate to what kashmiri said. You’re not a wimp kashmiri!!

I have strong feelings about what you write Elsa - I think I have squandered my talents for years (my whole life), and it has ended up making me sick. Not that I haven’t been succesful, because I have been extremely succesful esp in university (I have more masters degrees than fir after my name) but is has always been despite myself. Self-doubt is a major demon.

Also, I have sabotaged myself in many ways I was unaware of. I simply did not know how to use my talents & direct my energy. I ended up directing it against myself.

I wholeheartedly hope I will get a 2nd chance to get my energy back and use it constructively. In THIS lifetime, god willing.

it depends on who you ask. certainly those people who think i should be stuck in a lab researching particle physics (though that might be fun for a little while…)
there’s, um… more to me than that. and how do you judge? people think i’m a good teacher, too…

This Soldier is quite the guy! And this thread is wonderful stuff today. The Hawaiian Moon Calendar (which I consult daily) sights today (Nov. 4th) as the second in a string of 4 OLE Days. It’s a time when farmers and fisherfolk would rest … themselves, the land and the ocean. My ancestors of old knew their ‘talents’ and knew they were connected to all that is. Many times I forget to ACKNOWLEDGE the positive expression of my talents … to teach, the write and nurture the bigger whole. It’s the double Cappy Bull Whip that stings my Scorpio okole (hind end).
So, this Ole Cycle is giving me time to rest (not on my laurels, but with appreciation), read ElsaElsa and gain a perspective on my talents; my temptation to call myself short … that can go rest too as I give thanks on my Futon Altar.